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Chapter 12: Post Hogwarts : Commitment

Lily sat transfixed at the mirror in front of her. She brushed her hair absentmindedly thinking about what she was about to do. She stood up looking at the dress she looked so perfect in. She just couldn't bring herself to smile.

"You look absolutely stunning" said a quiet familiar voice from the doorway. She knew that voice, she knew it well.

"Thank you Remus, but I don't think you should be here..." she said softly looking at her feet. He made his way over to her and lifted up her head so she looked at him. He had grown so much since she last saw him. His face had grown more handsome but he was still sad and sickly looking.

"Smile. This is your big day." he smiled sweetly.

"I can't."she said looking away from him fiercely.

"You can and you will." he said picking up her veil from a small table and fixing some of the folds.

"I will when you leave." she said defiantly, his face fell, but he quickly plastered another smile on.

"Lily, please don't be like this." he pleaded.

She bit her lip with her words "I'm sorry Remus." her eyes filled with tears that she refused to let fall.

"C'mere" he said embracing her in a hug and Squeezing her tightly.

"Thank you." she said letting him go. "I do feel better."

She smiled at him brightly. He placed the veil carefully on her head. And upon steeping back to examine the effect he stated "I thought angels had halos, not crowns..." she laughed. He looked at his watch. "So, in twenty minutes you'll be Mrs. James Anthony Potter..." she smiled even bigger. "Mrs. Lily Potter... that does fit you. Got any kids names in mind?" she hit him playfully on the shoulder.

"Go away! You git.!" she teased, he laughed. But she looked sullen once again. "Remus?" she asked quietly.

"Yeah?" he saw her face and wiped his smile from his.

"I've got no one to walk with me- To give me away at the ceremony... w-would you please? ...Walk with me? " He smiled again playfully.

"Of course I would lily." she hugged him again.

Remus sat at a small table near the back of the hall watching James dance with her. She moved so gracefully with her eyes closed, he thought to himself. She had rested her head on her shoulder smiling softly, James' chin against her hair. They looked so happy and perfect, but the song ended and they stepped away. All the people chose that moment to congratulate them. Remus stayed put, but Sirius sat next to him.

"Hey mate! You've been odd since graduation! You should do some dancing. Come on!" he pulled Remus off his seat. "I heard Nyphs' got a crush on you mate, go dance with her-"

"N-no I think I'd-" He found himself face to face with a beat red Nyphadora, and sirius no where in sight.

"Hello R-Remus!" she studdered.

"Erm- would you like to dance, I guess." she nodded. He took her and put an arm around her waist but did not hold her close. "Erm- so... they look happy, huh?" he asked uncomfortably. She nodded feverishly. The rest of the dance was spent in silence. When the song ended Remus nodded and smiled goodbye to Nyphadora and found himself next to the happy couple themselfs.

"Well, mate I never seen you with a girl before." James stated happily. Remus blushed furiously. There was an excuse for his blushing, but lily had to hide hers.

Another song came on, another slow one, they all seemed to be slow today Remus thought. Before Nyphs came into sight again he asked "James may I have a dance with your blushing bride?" he nodded and walked off with Sirius. Lily suppressed a small giggle at the unnoticed joke.

"Er- Remus, I think I should get some punch-" Lily said avoiding his eyes when he came closer to her.

"What? You don't want to dance with me?" he accused her playfully.

"Well- I- er- alright." He moved in on her, holding one hand, and slipping the other around her waist. She felt weak again, like she hadn't felt in so many years.

"Remus," lily said resting her head on his shoulder "You're a good dancer." he gave a small laugh. She closed her eyes listing to him breathe. The song ended moments later, she stepped away. Remus looked down on her, she was considerably short compared to him, as he had to lean down a tad to kiss her on the forehead. She closed her eyes and hugged him.

"Remus, I don't think I've ever seen you act like this," she said upon letting him go "You're so happy. It's a tad bit unsettling. Are you okay?" At this point the chicken dance started playing, lily and Remus shuffled to the back of the large room, Avoiding the children that ran up to the dance floor.

"Yeah It's just, you know if you're going to live in a world where everyone's down, there's gotta be one thing to brighten your day. And if you don't have that then maybe you should be a tad bit more optimistic" he laughed.

Lily walked back to James, who kissed her on the cheek in greeting. He really was so kind to her, she did love him. She looked over her shoulder at Remus sitting at his table, She loved him so much more, but it would never show...

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