Amara was so hurt,
squall had slipped up before but it was nothing like this. She
concentrated on the ground as she kept walking, counting her paces,
doing anything to get her mind off of squall.
"Damnit, im
such an idiot, I didn't mean to say Rinoa..I didn't want to"
Squalls throughts were flooding his mind, he felt so stupid. He knew it must've hurt Amara to hear that. The air was stiff, hot; nothing seemed to be alive outside of Balamb. To Squall, the sea's crashing waves were comforting, they made squall remember the beach with Amara. That's how he fell in love with her; her tenderness, it radiated that day. A slight grin grew on his face, he could never forget. He loved holding her, he loved every minute he was with her. Looking up he noticed that Amara had stopped, squall quickly caught up and ran in front of her. She smiled at squall,
"Ok amara, just get it out and over with" It was so much eaiser said in her head.
"Squall, um..well thanks for saving me back there, i didnt mean to over react, let's just, well, forget about it?"
Her question floated in the air; waiting for a reply. Squall put her bags onto the ground and gently places his hand on her shoudler,
"Of couse, look im sorry, I know it sound bad but its not like that, I just --"
Amara picked up his hand and shoved it back onto his chest.
"Stop it you idiot, lets just go"
Squall stood in
disbelif, had she really gotten over it so soon? "Come on
squall, stop being lazy, pick up those bags and let's go!" Amara
playfully pushed squall and started running toward the garden. "HEY
no fair! I have alot of bags!" Squall smiled and ran to grab her
bags, catching up to her he prayed that her visit would be this
plesant"
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Rinoa looked out past the garden
gates, she could swear that she saw squall coming. Rinoa threw her
hands up in excitment, "Look, AHH! he's here!" She pushed
threw the gates and ran out to greet him. Quitis smiled, she envied
Rinoa more than anything. "She's so beautiful...She was only
here for a month and everyone loved her, i've been here for 15 years
and still people haven't warmed up to me" Quitis placed her head
onto her palm, maybe it was supossed to be like this. She would
always be the older teacher, the one that guided everyone. No matter
what she could never shake that image, it would stick to her. "So
i guess, ill need someone totally opposite from me to fill that void"
Quitis giggled, no guy had ever Really shown intrest in her. She
couldn't remember the last time she had a guy even really touch her.
It was depressing to think of it, she didn't want to be like this
anymore.
"Ill just try to get closer to people, thats
it"
She stretched out her back and jumped down from the
steps. Selphie and Zell were still going at it, bickering like little
children. Selphie had her fists clenched, screaming so everyone in
the garden could hear Zell's secrets. "Your the One who Clogged
the GIRLS bathroom because you went into the WRONG bathroom and made
it smell like crap...LITERALLY"
"WHAT? WAIT! WHAT?1!"
Zell pushed right back into her face, challenging her cruel words. "I wonder, did my joke make tha big of an impact?" shrugging her shoulders,she walked toward seifer who was waiting silently, he looked bored but she knew better; he was dying for Amara to come.
"Another one who never warmed up to me"
"Perfect chance to
try out my skills?" She silently strolled over till she was next
to him. Seifer turned his head and exaimed her, obviously disgusted
at what he saw. Suddenly, Quitis punched his arm and grinned, "hey,"
Seifer's critical eyes glared at her, "What they hell are you
doing?" Quitis's spirit shattered and she pulled back her arm.
"Heh, just playing i guess..well..ok" Quitis slowly turned
around from seifer, she felt like an idiot. She cliched tight onto
her shirt and plopped back onto the stairs, "god, whats my
problem"
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Amara's bags exploded everywhere,
squall hadn't expected Rinoa's embrace to be so powerful. The minute
her body hit his; he lost control and fell to the ground; bags flying
everywhere. Amara ran behind and tried to grab her clothes that were
flying everywhere. She ran bent over picking up ever peice of
clothing she could find, the whole time squall lay on the ground
entangled in Rinoa. She stopped picking up and glared from a
distance. How could he say he loved her; look at him now, embracing
Rinoa as though she had not exsisted. She clenched onto her garments
tighter, feeling the cotton burn in her hands. Rinoa picked up her
head from Squalls shoulder and pulled him up. Squall steadily pulled
up only to get embraced again. Rinoa jumped back into his arms and
buried her head into his chest. He smelled sweet, it was a wonderful
smell, but not her own. Rinoa let her breeze through her mind as she
just felt squalls warm body touching hers. Squall enjoyed this more
than anything, to have Rinoa back in his arms. He did miss her, she
was such a comfort. He placed his hands on her head and closed his
eyes, the moment was so tender, so innocent. He had not yet made love
to Rinoa, these moments were the most raw he felt with her. Squall
tilted her chin; he gently pulled her in to kiss her, with such a
gentle touch. Rinoa stood frozen in time, she had never felt so many
chills, thrills, excitment. It ran through her time after time he
kissed her. She held onto him tighter, letting herself get lost in
his essence.
"I should know, i cant be so damn jealous." Amara wiped away her tears and started to pick up her clothes again. She couldn't keep feeling so angry everytime they kissed, it would eat her whole inside. Amara froze, had he made love to her yet? She never asked; she didn't like to talk about Rinoa the few moments they had together. She shook herself free of Rinoa's grasp on her thoughts and ran toward her bags; catching the few garments still flying in the air. Squall slowly pulled away from the kiss and gently carassed Rinoas cheek with his thumb. Her eyes filled with the same love as when he had left her. "Hey there" he whispered softly. She smiled and ruffled his hair, "you sure take your time! We've been waiting forever" Squall let go of her, he searched his mind thinking of an excuse to tell her. "Well, it was raining" Squall smirked and slightly shrugged his shoulders. Rinoa giggled, she didn't care the excuse,she kissed him again.
Amara ran right through
them, "god you two are sick, get a room are something" she
picked up her bags and turned around to see that they had latched
onto each other again. Squall looked at her with a complete
innocence, as he wrapped his arm around Rinoa's waist. "Yah, uh.
thanks squall for picking up my bags? Your a real big fucking help"
Rinoa jumped toward amara and grabbed onto her shoulder, she pushed
her aside picking up a bag from the ground. "Were you two
fighting like this the entire way? i should've guessed, why dosent
seifer go to get you?" Rinoa gathered up the rest of the bags
and kneeled on the floor. Placing all the clothes inside she packed
them tighter than before. "You should calm down amara" she
stood up and handed the bags to squall, giving him a playful shove.
"Come on you guys, Lets go, we've got like 4 hours till the
ball...do you have a dress amara?" Amara looked up, "yeah i
have one.." Amara tugged at her shirt and looked at squall.
Would her dress be as flattering as Rinoa's? Who would he think was
more beautiful this night. Why hadn't he said anything yet, he was
avoiding her. Rinoa grabbed Amaras arm and smiled, "well lets
get ready then kay?" She kept holding amaras arm all the way
till the garden, running the whole distance. Amara knew why Squall
loved her so much, she radiated. She was so much more than Amara
could ever offer squall, and watching Rinoa's carefree spirit fly
through the wind, amara felt that maybe it was finally time she let
go of squall.
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Amara Came bursting through the gates
still latched onto Rinoa's hand, and Rinoa still smiling as before.
Rinoa threw Amara across the floor twoard Seifer. "Ama.."
Seifer dropped his blade and opened his arms to receive her; eyes
wide with anticpation. She fell into his arms, locked and interlaced,
perfectly fit. Seifer held onto her falling body and picked her up.
"uh, ha you ok?" Seifer smiled a bit, he had changed since
Amara had last saw him. His face was sharper, his hair a bit longer,
the same smile, the same beautiful smile. His body was more lean, fit
with muscle. His arms were still strong, stronger than before. His
eyes still glistened and although she knew he was one of the most
handsome SeeD's; he'd never compare to squall. Amara laughed and
brushed her shoulder off, "Yea, i guess, i was just..um.."
She felt seifer grab her face. His touch was so much more gentle now.
Amara leaned in; she wouldn't lie, she wanted him. She wanted those
angles on his face, and so she purged into the kiss. Seifer wrapped
his arms around her and pulled her closer to him. Amara felt weak,
she felt hopeless, whatever seifer wanted right now she would give
him. Although Amara loved this moment, she wanted squalls touch. She
wanted for squall to kiss her, his kisses had so much passion.
Running her hands up seifers back she wondered, how a simple kiss
could make her feel absoultey futile. "Yeah, we should get a
room" Amara opened her eyes and turned around to see squall
standing with her bags at the gate. He was sweating and his eyes
seemed scornful. Amara wouldn't feel remorse; he was doing the same
thing just a while ago. "well you two looked like you two were
about to have sex on the damn floor" Amara smirked at how eaisly
the tables had changed. Seifer was now holding her waist, staring
down squall, and Amara just looked at him with complete innocence.
Squall quickly looked toward Rinoa, her face was red with
embarassment. He gritted his teeth and threw the bags on the ground,
"take your own bags"
"Wait, what the hell are you doing squall?"
Amara pushed away from seifer and picked up her bags, "what you get your damn feelings hurt and act like a complete asshole?" she hated talking to him like this, love shouldn't be so complicated. Squall turned his head and walked toward the garden, taking Rinoa by the hand he grunted, "whatever". "Um..Amara, ill be by your room in a sec, i want you to help me do my hair!" Rinoa seemed hopeless, like a puppet being dragged. Amara watched as they walked off, feeling broken to the point of no repairs. Yes, it was time she ended this, she wouldn't let squall control her life anymore.
