The music was intoixcating, and seifer's hands were strong on her waist. Each spin was smooth, each step was seductive, and his eyes were so honest. Amara giggled when she noticed Seifer staring at her, "what are you looking at?" Seifer pulled close to her, "Amara, I...love you" His eyes grew wide with anticpation, want, desire. Amara couldn't tell him she loved him back, he deserved better. "I..." Amara pushed away from seifer's arms and lowered her head in the shame of her lies. "I.." she couldn't bring herself to say it. "What, you can't love me back? You honestly think what your doing with squall is love!" Amara quickly turned her head to look upon seifer. "You think No one knows! HOLY SHIT Amara, Rinoa is probably the only one that dosen't. It's so obvious, and here I am playing the fool for everyone. The girl I LOVE, sleeping around with the person I hate the most."

"SHUT UP, You have no idea what I feel for him or you, Squall loves me" Amara pushed her hand into seifers chest, she just want to punch him, slap him, squall loved her; she knew he did. "I love him seifer, I love squall" She grabbed her dress and started to take steps to walk away until Seifer grabbed tightly onto her arm. He wanted to get his point across. Seifer loosened his grip and brought his harsh tone to a whisper; he wanted to be delicate, "He dosen't love you, you've ruined his life amara, He had everything with rinoa and you, your so amazing that you just caught him offgaurd." Amara felt the tears well up, she hated the truth. She wanted to live in lies forever; life was so much simpler that way. "Seifer pulled her closer to him, seeing the destruction he was reining upon her. "He wants to marry her, and I think.." Amara slapped him across the face in the middle of his sentence, "you..pig. He would tell me..He never wanted to marry her. I'm not that big of a slut."

Suddenly head mister Cid burst through the doors holding a glass in the air and Squall in the other. A drunken Cid exlaimed to the ballroom, "Congratulations Squall and Rinoa, They're gonna get MARRIED" Squall shot his glance at amara. She couldn't breathe, her chest was heavy, and her arms felt limp. The crowd blurred, and everything grew faint around her. She hated everything; life, squall, seifer, she just wanted to be happy. In the back of her thoughts she could hear a voice talking to her, were people staring at her? The blurry faces grew darker and darker, until she couldn't take a simple gasp of air

Amara couldn't breathe, the air was too stale for her mouth. Dreams taunted her, lolling over her mind; causing pain that even her sleep couldn't drag her out of. Slowly, she fluttered her eyelids to adjust to the dim-lighted room. It was a SeeD dorm room, one she had visited many times before.

She looked around the room to find a darkened corner. Focusing on a figure, she soon made out the face of the deceitful liar she, at this moment, hated more than anything. Amara felt her chest swell up with rage again; everything hit her and memories flooded in. Squall was getting married; married, How could he? What of their plans and promises; Did he care at all anymore? Amara lifted herself out of bed and threw her sheets to the side. Swinging her feet to the side of the bed she gritted her teeth and lowered he head.

"I really was just a fling squall, god you son of ---"

"Stop, you need your strength"
His hand grazed her shoulder, but she still kept her head down. She hated his touch; she was disgusted by it. It made her skin crawl yet it tingled deep within her heart and she couldn't bring herself to nudge him off.

"Squall, leave me alone."
The words hit cold and hard. Just as a frozen winter whimsically passing through a once warm summer day; it hit like ice. Squall pulled back. He knew he had hurt her, he honestly hadn't meant to; Rinoa was just his life now; it would seem cruel and harsh if he left her now.

"Squall, I just want you to leave, no I'll do it, I'll leave"

Amara placed her feet onto the floor, her tingling feet searched for her shoes tucked under the bed. She slipped into them and stood up, balancing out from her faint and anger.

Squall grabbed onto her arms, trying to keep her in one place.
"You fainted, I carried you here. Rinoa and Quitis were here for a while, but I told them you could stay with me and Rinoa said she'd check on you in the morning. I meant it. You can stay in here, with me. "

Squall grabbed amaras' necklace, the same intricate design, bedazzling and mysterious; Almost exactly like Amara. Squall felt his heart pound as he slowly caressed her jewelry and seductively touching her chest. Bringing his hand onto her collarbone, across her shoulder, back up to her chest and onto her face. He wanted her to just stay; he just wanted her near.

"I, really do want you to stay"

Each word slowly lingered out of his mouth, hoping his seduction would work. She pulled her hand back and slapped him across the face. A loud thunderclap exploded across the garden that night, shattering the ears of the unknown and waking the dead. Her rage was out of control.

"I'm sick of this, I'm sick of you. From tonight on, you ever touch me again, I, Damnit squall I don't know what I'll do but I sure as hell know I won't like it. Just ---"

She was quivering too much to say the rest; she was filled with sympathy, hatred, remorse and lust. She jeered around and stomped to the door, almost reaching the knob before she ran back to him and shoved him into the wall.

"How dare you, How dare you! You propose the one you obviously "love" and then try and sleep with me? Squall, are you really the man I thought you were? I can't look at you anymore! I hate every kiss I ever wasted on you, kisses I thought were passionate and wonderful.
Sex I thought was worth our love, our love I thought was worth our sex! You leave me, you leave me, ALONE."

She couldn't control her shaking now. She ran back to the door and reached salvation as she heard the door slam shut and tight behind her. She fell to her knees on the outside door and felt the warm tears roll down.

Squall touched his pulsating cheek; the summer was over and winter was going to move in uninvited and unwanted.
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"Amara, don't cry. You still have me"

Amara looked up to see Seifer hovering above her, his eyes forgiving; offering her redemption from the sins she had committed against him. Seifer gracefully brought her to her feet and pulled her waist into his waist. He pushed her slowly against the wall, keeping his eyes focused onto hers.

The tenderness from his kiss melted her; he had kissed her as if it was their first time. His waist was warm against hers, his chest was heavy on her own, and his breathing had made her drunk with lust. He guided her with his eyes, keeping them focused on her, into the depths of his own room.

Slowly guiding her onto his bed; he performed one graceful move after the next. Clothes fell like snow, dropping down slow and heavy, covering the floor until morning. Sweat covered the sheets now stained with careless love. Amara's thoughts ran wild; she wanted to forget everything. She wanted to forget Seifer gently making love to her, as if he were afraid to and unsure if it were painful to her. She wanted to forget Squall making love to her, knowing every corner of her body and where every touch made her gasp, begging for more. All she needed was a deep sleep. A deep, dark and long dream; One where her haunting obsessions left her alone.
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Rinoa was worried; squall had never looked so upset when Amara fainted. He pushed people, stepped on students, even threw Zell to the ground, just to reach her before her head hit the ground. Then he almost wept looking at her and delicately stroked her hair, trying to get it out of her face. He cuddled her close and tried to hold her hand, but no too much. Squall was never the best at public affection.

That why it was so odd. He never kissed Rinoa in front of people, only Amara, and he never touched her or giggled with her out in the open or around the garden.

To see him run to her and hold her, screaming for help, then lifting her to his room in desperation to heal her almost made Rinoa, uncomfortable. Rinoa pushed the elevator button to 2F, her and Selphie were having breakfast together and Selphie was upstairs in her first class.

The buzz of the elevator snapped her back to Reality. Squall loved her and she knew it; the ring on her finger was proof.

Stepping out of the elevator she heard two Cadets giggle. They seemed to be only fifteen or sixteen; laughing over some boy. Memories of her and Selphie talking and giggling over Squall made her laugh herself and she casually walked toward them to hear their whispers.

"Squall is so cute, Rinoa is so lucky!"

"Yeah, I wonder what he's like, you know--"

"Your horrible!"

"What? Like your not curious?"

"Well sure, but I mean we could just ask Amara. That's squall's little side dish and everyone knows it. I can't believe they try and deny it."

"Look who's horrible now! Well, I would let squall cheat on me, as long as he came home, it'd be fine. It' just a little fun. I'd be getting his real love and affection and isn't that what matters?"

"She's stupid thought, she's got Seifer and Squall? Jeez, talk about--"

A red-face Rinoa hurriedly passed them to hear surprised gasps behind her, she didn't want to hear anymore. Since Squall and Amara had first met she had always heard rumors fly around about them, it was aggravating. Young cadets that thought they knew something about people's lives, sit around and just share the most shameful and hurtful things. She had enough, even Instructors were trying to pry into her relationship with Squall. It seemed as that their public relation consisted of Squall, her, and Amara; if there was a rumor about one, it was about all of them.

Somehow, she always convinced herself, they were just rumors.

Just rumors.