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Summary: Last time Videl confronted dear Gohan on his feelings for Goku and she sadly denied that it wasn't her fault. She put the blame on her and Gohan explained it wasn't her fault. He then thought Videl was trying to give him sympathy and shuddered at the fact and flew off into the unknown. Videl tried to follow but couldn't catch up. Finally Gohan stopped…the faith in the young naïve boy had been shattered…
Why Father?
Chapter Three: Fallen Innocence
It was getting very cold out. Clouds started to rustle up from the hatred in the one teenage boy who felt the emotion of bitterness dwell deep within him. He shook his head furiously and focused his energy. His anger seemed to be rising along with his ki, but something else was happening…his ki was feeding off his anger.
Gohan didn't know what to feel with this newfound way of gaining ki. All he knew was that he felt numb and faint. The innocent mind was put to a halt and he felt as though a dagger just pierced him sharply. He couldn't stand the fact he let his emotions run wild, then on top of that, leave his girlfriend in an unstable position of shattered emotions.
The rain started to patter on the ground softly at first, but as the minutes passed, a downpour made its way to the earth. He stood in the rain, obstinate and obscured. He wouldn't feel anger because of him, no, not his father. It wasn't anybody else's fault but his. Gohan maliciously hissed at the thought of his father. The one who made him, and the one who left him? Just a big cycle isn't it?
"Oh yes father your same old pattern. Pick me up in your arms, but end up dropping me in to unconsciousness. I've become so numb and deceased since you left. I can't help but hate you, you understand don't you? It was your doing so how could you not?" he asked as the lightning began to sparkle and flash. His energy began to rise immensely, and the revulsion kept growing.
"It's too late for your excuses, I'm sick and tired of this ignorance and sadistic lifestyle I'm having." He growled out. "I need to calm down. I don't want anyone to know…I must talk to Videl and make her promise that she can't say anything…yes, it will work perfectly."
Gohan breathed heavily and deep sighs and inhaled the scent of rain. The aroma changed and all of a sudden his vision went dark. He fell to the ground sharply and lifted his head. His eyes widened in horror as he stumbled backwards. "Not again," he whispered with sorrow.
The images of tainted blood and the past came again. It happened so often and he whimpered and hissed at the memoir before him. The darkness that surrounded took him back to the battlefield of death, not the one in present day, but the one where his newfound odium began, the day of destiny.
He glanced upon the Z-Fighters as they all stared defenselessly at Goku talking to Gohan. "I have faith in you son."
"But I cant daddy," Gohan's past self said while shaking his head. "You defeat him, I know you can."
"I can't Gohan, he's much too strong for me." Goku said. "I trained you and ever since that day you transformed, I noticed this brilliant amount of energy in you. I know you can do it my son…believe."
The younger version nodded and stepped up to the plate to duel with the green monster that took everything from the inside. Gohan watched as his younger self was beaten and battered. His eyes widened as the part where Cell let mini versions of himself roam.
"NO! DON'T ATTACK MY FRIENDS!" yelled the younger version. "THIS IS BETWEEN ME AND YOU CELL!"
"Foolish boy," Cell commented. "If the darkness wont come to me, I'll come to the darkness by killing your friends until you release your energy."
The present version of Gohan closed his eyes to choke back tears that burned his eyes. He shook his head furiously. "I didn't do anything to deserve this, it was his fault!"
Suddenly the scene changed to where Cell had expanded and threatened Gohan. He could hear the cackling of cruelty as Cell mocked him and his friends. The teenage version backed away into a rock, and couldn't stand the haunting images anymore. "I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING!"
Then it came to the end…Goku had just walked over to the younger version of Gohan and hugged him. He whispered something then walked over to Cell and smirked. He put his hand gently on Cell's body and turned to everyone else. He stared deeply within Gohan's eyes and nodded. "I'm sorry my son…"
"NO!!!!!!!!!!!! DADDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" Gohan could hear his younger version cry out in pain. He trembled and the tears that were threatening him before finally streamed down his face.
The whole scenery went black again and Gohan could find himself lying down in the pouring rain while crying out. He shivered at began to roar out his pain in shouts. He couldn't let weakness take over again; he wouldn't let it happen once again!
"What did I do to deserve this?" he cried out softly. "I'm not like him…why am I suffering his pain?"