A/N: As promised, I give you a longer chapter. This story has a lot of talking on Sara's part, but I urge you to read through all of it.

Sara sat in her jeep in the CSI parking lot watching the time pass slowly by. She was going to piss him off for what he did.

"How dare he ask me out and then go out with her when I say no, not that I expected him to stay home alone, I mean come on, what else has he got to do but ride roller coasters. God, now I'm talking to myself, and out loud is even better!".

As the half hour past she decided it had been long enough and headed into the building. As she rounded the corner, she saw Grissom talking with Catherine. The thought to turn around and walk the other way had crossed her mind, but she refused to let him win.

As she approached them, she could hear them talking.

"I'm worried about her Cath. Sara is never late for work. Not only that, she's changed lately."

"Gil, Sara is a big girl. She can handle her own demons. She doesn't need you looking out for her."

The soft clearing of her throat alerted the two of her presence, causing both to turn and stare at her. Without a word Gil grabbed her arm and pulled her into his office, Catherine hot on their heels. Once the door was firmly shut, Gil let loose.

"What is with you lately, Sara? You show up to work a half hour late, and just waltz in her like you own the place. Not to mention the fact that we're short staffed as it is. I had to borrow Nick so that I could send Greg out on the field, because you weren't here for whatever reason!".

"You want to know why I'm late? I sat in the car park for a half hour talking to myself about how much of an ass you are. Not to mention the fact that Gabby was so upset after we left the restaurant because of what Sofia said, that she started throwing up. Maybe when a child you thought you would never see again shows up on your doorstep, maybe, just maybe, you'll understand how I feel." Sara stopped to regroup before she let too much out to the wrong person, then asked one final question. "If you were so worried about me, why didn't you try to find me?".

Gil just looked at Sara. He didn't know what to say so he said the only thing he could think of.

"As of now there are no new cases. If Gabby is so sick maybe you should go home and look after her. Right now she needs you more than I do." The last part was said on a whisper.

Catherine and Sara looked at him as if he'd grown another head.

Catherine spoke softly. "Sara, my shift is over so why don't I take you home. You're really upset right now. I'm sure Stacy can handle Gabby, god knows I've left her with Lindsey in worse shape. We can talk, or sit and watch T.V. whatever you'd like."

Sara looked physically and emotionally spent. She didn't want to deal with Catherine right now, she just wanted to go home and sleep, but for some reason she found herself agreeing.

The ride home was silent. Sara sat in the passenger seat of Catherine's Jeep trying to think of what she was going to say. Catherine drove on auto pilot as she thought about what Sara had said and what was yet to come.

Once in her apartment, Sara sat in her favorite chair and started crying. She cried and cried for almost an hour. Once she had calmed down, Catherine headed to the kitchen to brew them some coffee. When it was done, she set a cup down in front of Sara and herself.

Catherine looked up when she heard Sara begin to speak.

"That first year at Harvard, all I did was study, I didn't really have any friends. When my bitch of a roommate up and left I was so glad that I wouldn't have to up with her taunting anymore. Then Maggie moved in. It was weird you know, she wanted to be my friend. I thought I could trust her, so when she invited me to an off-campus party, I agreed. I told her I didn't want to drink a lot because I had an exam I needed to study for.

I had only had one drink and I was feeling really dizzy so she helped me to a room. As soon as I walked in, I felt that something was wrong. There were candles and the lights were off. I remember laying there as it happened and thinking to myself that it was all my fault. I woke up in my dorm room, I thought that maybe it had all been a bad dream, until I saw the blood. I went to the hospital and they did an exam, and that was the end of it.

I went back to the school, got a transfer to a different room, then just continued on like nothing happened. Grissom left a month after it happened, he could probably tell you that I changed a lot after that. We never went for coffee, I stopped asking questions in class, and that was that."

Sara looked at Catherine for the first time since everything at the office. Her eyes were red and puffy from crying. Sara continued.

"I found out I was pregnant a month after Gil left. I thought about confiding in him, but I knew he would feel guilty for not being there with me. I knew he would come back to help me with the baby and I didn't want to burden him with my problems. Gabby was born five months later. They wouldn't let me hold her. She was so small. I made sure that she would be placed with a loving family. I never saw her again.

A month and a half ago social services called me. They told me that Gabby's parents had been in an accident and didn't make it. They had no family to look after Gabby. They thought that since I had signed the papers so she could find me, maybe I would take her in. I hung up, cried, phoned them back, and here I am today."

Sara smiled through her tears and looked to Catherine. Catherine smiled back and then spoke for the first time after everything had been said.

"You need to talk to him Sara. I remember when he came home from that seminar. He distanced himself from everyone. I'm going to tell you a secret okay." Sara nodded, "He told me he had fallen in love with this woman, didn't tell me anything more about her other than how she changed, and left him. He loves you Sara. You need to tell him."

Sara looked at her feet. "I know."

So what do you think?

A/N2: i don't know if Social Services actually does that, so please forgive me.

TBC?