An: Here's chapter 3 part 2...Enjoy!

Chapter 3: Part 2

Dee sighed as he thought about this morning's event.

'I really shouldn't have yelled at either of them.'

Dee walked down the familiar stone pathway that would lead him to Ryo. He reached the grave and sat down on the cold ground.

"Hey Ryo. How have you been?"

Dee put the sunflowers down that he had bought. Ryo always did love sunflowers. And for some odd reason, that Dee couldn't quite explain, sunflowers seemed to be Ryo. Every time Dee thought of sunflowers, thoughts of Ryo would always come to mind. Even before Dee learned that those were Ryo's favorite flower.

"I know. Things are looking pretty grim. If you saw the exchange I had with Bikky and Berkeley this morning, then you know why I'm so upset. It's just..."

Dee sighed as he lit up a cigarette. A nasty habit that both Ryo and Berkeley had tried to get him to stop.

"Bikky still blames me for everything. He even blamed me for his and Cal's fight. I'm beginning to wonder if he blames me for his living on the streets for most of his life as well."

Dee flicked the ash off his cigarette.

"And now Berkeley. I yelled at him this morning. I shouldn't have done it either. I didn't mean to snap so angrily at him, but it's just...When he told me I could either listen to him or leave now, it just sounded like he would kick me out. Like he would leave me for yelling at Bikky. And I guess it just reminded me of the last time with you, when you told me to leave your life. I just thought it better to leave then to hear what he had to say,"

At this point Dee began to feel the tears run down his face.

"I know all that sounds stupid and confusing, but still...it hurt me so much to have Bikky blaming things on me, and then to hear Berkeley tell me to either listen or get out...I guess I acted on anger and left. And now I don't even know if...if Berkeley still loves me."

Dee dropped his cigarette to the ground and put his face in his hands as he began to cry harder.

"Ryo...I know I have...I have asked you before, but...Can you forgive me, for everything?"

OOOOOoooooOOOOO

Berkeley had calmed Bikky down enough to speak with the boy. Bikky had told him that he had been meaning to come and see Dee today, but after his fight with Carol this morning, it turned sour. Berkeley had told Bikky that he could stay at the apartment for as long as he needed while he went to find Dee. He figured Dee would go see Ryo, and that's where he found Dee sitting on the ground with his face in his hands sobbing. He heard half of what he had said to Ryo, and now he stood stunned.

'Oh my God. What have I done to him? How completely insensitive of me.'

Berkeley walked quietly over to Dee, and wrapped his arms around his shaking frame. Dee jumped just slightly at the unexpected contact, but relaxed when Berkeley's familiar smell flooded his senses.

"Dee...I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to sound like I was kicking you out this morning. I just wanted you to hear me out on a few things. I hadn't realized that I had said the part about you just leaving until it was too late. I spoke without thinking."

Berkeley felt his own tears rolling down his face. Seeing Dee hunched over himself and crying was almost too much to bare. Then hearing him doubt that Berkeley still held feelings for him, it was almost too much for him to handle.

"Don't ever doubt my feelings for you ever again. I promise you Dee...I would never leave you for something so small and stupid like this morning. Please trust me."

The two of them held each other for what seemed like hours, until Dee spoke.

"Oh baby...I'm so sorry for this morning. I didn't mean to get so angry, and direct my anger towards you. That wasn't my intention at all. I just thought that...that maybe since I had lost my temper you...you would want me to leave. And I just wouldn't be able to..."

Berkeley shushed him like a child before he could go any further.

"Baby, that's all in the past now. I know you didn't mean to act so angry."

The two stayed in each other's arms for a while. They sat thinking about every thing that's happened to them over the course of a year. And what they had to deal with today.

"You know, Bikky's still at our apartment. You really need to talk with him for yourself. I spoke with him this morning, and it sounds like he really needs you right now."

Dee nodded his head, and got up. Berkeley did the same.

"See ya Ryo. I'll come back soon. Love you."

Berkeley was a bit taken a back by Dee saying I love you to Ryo, but he knew that it was just a habit that was hard for Dee to break, so he didn't think anything of it.

Dee turned to Berkeley.

"You know...We have to tell Bikky about us. He doesn't know."

Berkeley caught the grim look in Dee's eyes.

"I know. And it won't be easy for either of us."