Light in her Darkness

Chapter 4

Haley woke up the next morning with her head spinning, she was so thankful there was no school because there was no way she could make it through that. She groaned and shut her eyes again, she felt like a big load of crap.

"Uh uh, wake up sleepy head."

Haley knew that voice and she sounded too chipper this morning. "Go away Brooke." She said with another groan as she kept the pillow over her head.

"Come on wake up. I heard about your night last night; I hate to say I missed the table dancing part." Brooke informed her as she sat in the empty chair.

Haley quickly sat up, her hair whipped around her face. "Table dancing?" she repeated with fear in her voice.

"You don't remember?" Brooke asked but saw in Haley's eyes that she hadn't. "That happens when you drink a lot." She added.

"Oh my god." Haley whined as she fell back on the bed. "What did I do?"

"We went to the party and I left you, which was probably a mistake. You were drinking and then dancing on tables with a lot of guys all over you then Lucas came and took you away. That's all I got from Nathan." Brooke explained with a smile because she found Haley's misery funny but she also felt bad because this wasn't Haley she didn't find humor in her crazy actions.

"Luke?" Haley questioned, confused eve more. "Why would he care what I was doing?" she asked more to herself, trying so bad to remember what happened.

"Well after you and Luke went outside no one saw you again so talk to him, ask what happened." Brooke suggested. "Then I want details. I have to go but ill be back later and I was results." She explained before leaving.

Haley nodded as a goodbye then got up from bed. Her body protested but she had to get up. She grabbed her stuff and headed to the shower, the house sounded pretty empty, Haley was glad to be alone.

She let the hot water beat against her body hoping to wash off last night and get the memory of it back. She hated the feeling of being so lost in her own skin. Not having answers about what she did was worse then she had thought.

Haley got out the shower and got dressed, she felt slightly better but her head was still killing her. Mainly because she was pushing herself to think about last night and remember. But it wasn't working so she gave up trying to figure it out alone. After pacing her room for a few minutes she left in search of Lucas.

Finding him was easier then she thought, the house had been quite but he was home. She knocked on the open door so he would see her. "Can we talk?" she asked, finding it hard to look at him.

"About what?" Lucas asked as he looked up from his laptop and looked at Haley. Surprisingly she didn't look too bad for waking up with a hang over.

"About last night I---"

"If this is about the kiss, no I won't tell anyone. It's something I don't want people to know either." Lucas said interrupting her, saying it before she could. He thought it would be easier that way.

"We kissed?" Haley asked shocked, finally looking at his face, into his blue eyes but she quickly looked away just as fast.

Lucas saw the shock written all over her face. "You don't remember." He realized.

"No that's what I wanted to talk to you about. Nathan told Brooke we left together and I wanted to know what happened because it's killing me not to." Haley explained but her mind was still focusing on the fact she had kissed Lucas Scott. This was bad, she thought.

Lucas couldn't help but feel bad for Haley, last night she wasn't herself and now she was paying for it. "After I took you outside you got mad between us arguing you kissed me. It was a mistake you were drunk. I brought you back home before you did something else you'd regret. You went to your room and fell asleep." He answered; it was only part of the truth.

"I'm sorry." Haley softly said as she leaned against the doorframe.

"Don't be, you made a mistake that's all." Lucas would normally use something like this against her but he couldn't, not now. "You look like hell, why don't you go lie down or something?" he suggested.

"Quit being so nice, I got use to you being cruel." Haley said before walking away from his door.

Hearing Haley use him and the word cruel in the same sentence hurt more then Lucas would've thought. He knew they were friends anymore and they didn't get along but he had no idea he hurt her so much. Lucas never felt guilty about how he treated her until last night and now.

Haley walked back into her guestroom and slammed the door shut. She laid back down and let the tears she had been holding finally fall. She felt like a fool for what she did last night and she felt alone because there was no one to talk to. She had her friends but she could never open up to them they way she had her mother and once upon a time, Lucas. They had been so close as kids, now living together it was staring Haley in the face how she missed how they use to be.

Just get over it, she bitterly told herself as she closed her eyes. The pain she felt was too much, too much to live with. She needed something to help her and getting drunk wasn't the answer. Haley began to think about it as there was a knock on her closed door. She ignored it hoping whoever it was would just leave.

But the knocking continued, finally getting fed up with the sound Haley stood from the bed and marched over to the door. "What now?" she asked Lucas.

"I'm sorry." He simply answered.

So simple it caught Haley off guard. "For what?"

"For everything."

Isabelle A.