AU

"Sam?" The room was dark and I could hear talking and crying coming from the master bath, a room I really could not face her in, considering the events of a few hours earlier and the cause of her current fears. i wasn't trying to eavesdrop, I just happened to hear . . .

"I know Janet, it seems safe though, Cascade failure should take about 3 days to happen if it is going to, it's only theory Janet, I've never actually seen this happen before . . . I understand, I'll bring him in in the morning, I don't think it would be wise tonight with the glare that Charlie gave him on the way home. He just needs to be stoic, and stubborn, but mostly present, Janet Charlie has lost his dad 3 times in the last 3 years, and every time he was never going to get him back, I won't put him through that again unnecessarily. But I'm going to have to talk to Charlie, I have no Idea what I'll say to him, he gets angry at Jack so easily . . Yes Janet, right after breakfast, I wonder if this one can make pancakes? . . . I'll do anything for my men Janet, you know that, Charlie needs this, he can't handle another disruption right now. . . ok, goodnight."

It was another five minutes before she came out of the bathroom.

"What are you doing in here!" She said.
"Charlie was upset, accused me of hurting you and screwing up our relationship. I had to tell him something and I didn't want it to look like we were fighting."

"What did you tell him?" I could tell she was upset.

"I told him that, because of something I didn't understand that happened on my last mission, you were worried that any child we might conceive right now may be in danger."
"What!"
"He thought I was exposed to radiation or something. Don't worry, he's fine with it. We're going to the base tomorrow anyway, he will see us happy and relaxed and when we come back we'll just tell him that there are no apparent issues and we will be following up later."
"you told him that you got me pregnant!"
"No, I just mentioned that the possibility was there, Sam I had to tell him something before he punched me out. He even threatened to live with you if we got a divorce."
She laughed at that statement, and I knew how much she loved him, both of them, Her Jack and Charlie, they really were her family, and I was an outsider here.

"For appearances sake I did what I thought was best, not to let this hurt Charlie. "
"Oh alright, um, I guess it would be best if you stayed in here tonight." she paused thoughtfully "For appearances sake."
"I'll just sleep on the floor."
"No the bed is alright, I haven't slept without Jack since he was stranded on the moon and I don't get any sleep if he isn't here, so . . ."
"I understand my Sam was pretty upset by it too. . . I'll just keep to my own side then shall I." she made an effort to smile at me her eyes worried and full of fear, fear for the potential baby, for the man she loves and may never see again, she needed sleep and time to adjust, so I'm gonna be the good soldier and be here for her in case she needs me.

RU

The general circled around the conference room table and sat down on the table looming over Major Samantha Carter.
"Major, I have a report on my desk that states you were assaulted in the gate room by an individual resembling Colonel O'Neill."

Sam froze, the memory that wishful thinking had passed off as part of some wild dream. SG-5, Simmons, General Hammond and a couple of SFs had been in the gate room at the time, it had been late on a Friday evening. Though the rumor mills were going to be going wild, not that many people actually witnessed the kiss.
"Yes General, . . an individual . . . who does happen to resemble the Colonel, did .. assault me in the gate room."

"Very well major, and what do you have to say for the official record, about what happened once this assaulting individual removed you bodily from the gateroom?"

God I can't believe he's trying to give me an out.
"Well General, after the individual in question, removed me from the gate room, we . . struggled and fought . .until I was able to get him subdued and confined sir."

"In the VIP guest quarters?"

"Yes sir I confined him in the VIP guest quarters, and kept him under . . observation, until the infirmary could arrange to take him."

"Very well Major. that will be all."
I breathed an internal sigh of relief, snapped my salute and turned to leave."

"off the record Sam . ." I turned back to the general.
"yes sir?"
"Can you give me assurances that if that were the real colonel O'Neill that the scenario I witnessed would not have happened?"

"Yes sir, if that had been the real colonel O'Neill, things would be very different."
The general paused at that comment for a moment before continuing.
"I'm going out on a limb for you major, I've done all I can on official channels and ordering everyone who saw the two of you to keep quiet. I'm sure you know that I can't do anything about the rumors that will start to circulate, but there have been rumors about the two of you before and you made it through them."
"If anything at all suggestive of inappropriate behavior surfaces, I won't be able to protect you, either of you."

"I understand sir . . and thank you. I can't tell you how much."

"There will be more questions Sam, and if I can't keep this out of Kinsey's hands there will be a very serious investigation. I need you to be very much on your toes. "
"Yes sir, i will be sir."
He simply nodded with a worried crease in his forehead.

'I couldn't say no to him, that was the problem, believing that it was my Jack, the thousands of dreams where he shows up at my house in the middle of the night and we say screw the regs and make love with as much passion and desire and lust as we can muster finally come true in the gate room of all places. I couldn't say no to the dream, the fantasy, or the man, from the moment he kissed me my brain stopped functioning and only 6 years of pent up frustration and desire remained. only now it is worse, I know what it is like to kiss him and feel him in me.' Sam thought as she contemplated the situation facing her. ' I want more.'

AU

She sleeps fitfully, I never knew that about Sam, I always pictured her sleeping peacefully , the way she does on missions, but then again, I don't know that about Sam, just this Sam, His Sam. By 3 am, I've had little sleep, gotten kicked in the side several times and been grabbed repeatedly, with nails digging into my side and back. but she does seem to settle down when I'm close. she needs to rest, and this fitful sleep isn't doing that for her, or me. so I curl up to her as she thrashes and calls out incoherently under her sleepy mutterings. her body melts into mine, molding itself to me like she was designed to fit with me. the sensation does not go unnoticed by my body but I fight the urge to repeat the earlier bathroom adventures and concentrate on making her comfortable. Pulling the discarded blanket back up to her chest, she settles down and drifts into a deeper sleep.

I wake a few hours later to lips on my neck working in wicked patterns down my chest, I look at Sam, she is still asleep or mostly, otherwise she would realize what she was doing to me.
"Sam." I say gently trying to rouse her from an obviously delicious dream.
"Mmm, Jack," she says and continues.

"Sam, I don't think I can handle much more of this." She has my arm pinned under her body and she is rubbing her body slowly against me. "Oh god! Sam I --" Loose the ability to speak or think coherently as her hand moves strategically between my thighs, and as she begins to stroke me she lifts her head to look at me with heavy lidded eyes and our lips meet in a soft gentle and loving kiss, the kind you experience when you have been with someone for so long that the passion is spoken in the simple things. In a gentle meeting of the lips that tells me everything I would ever want to know about how she feels about her Jack O'Neill. As she deepens the kiss, I don't have the ability to say no, or to push her away. Sam in bed with me, my wife, and the possibility of my child growing within her, while my son sleeps a few doors down. I realize now that I hate her Jack, he has everything that I want, his life is perfect and I'll admit that I am Jealous. I want more.