"What happened?" a voice asked.
There was this blonde man facing me. His body was on my left side, one arm at my right and one at my left.
I blinked, realizing his position, which was uncomfortable. My vision widens and I saw his full face. He was familiar… the same triangular shaped face… golden locks of hair… perfect nose… red-very-kissable lips, which were dry… and a pair of violet orb… I blinked.
"Sanzo…" I whispered… and he nodded, not taking his eyes away from mine.
At that moment, I wanted to jump at him… I wanted to enfold him like a cuddly toy bear… I wanted to feel his body touching mine… his arms around me… feeling his heartbeat with mine… hearing his soft breathing on my ears… and his lips locked with mine… but something was stopping me from doing all of these… what it was…? I am, very soon, about to reveal…
"Where have you been…?" I asked in a monotone voice, as I looked directly into his eyes... I saw something flicker in his eyes… What could it be? His eyes were moving but not away from my eyes… His eyes were trembling… all of a sudden, it hit me… it was fear. What it was for…? I don't have a single idea…
"Where have you been?" I repeated… and yet he didn't give me a respond…
I removed his hand on my right side and I placed my feet down on the floor… with a soft sigh, I stood up and walk towards the door… but as I was in the middle of the room… I can still feel his eyes on me. I turned to look at him. He was standing and staring at me… his usual face still plastered.
"Why didn't you tell me..?"
"I mean… I do have a right to know, don't I?" My voice a little shaky when I said the word 'I'.
I fisted my hands on my side…
"I do live…" I stopped… realizing what I was saying… 'live?' I shook my head and smiled.
"That's it… That's just it." I heard his footsteps and I looked up at him. He was slight closer now… but not close enough to get in touch with me.
"I'm only borrowing a room here… No, wait. I'm just occupying it for a while…" I chuckled.
"Yeah… That's it. Just occupying……" Every word trembled…
I felt tears coming but I held my head high and pushed away the tears… I didn't… no, I don't want him to see me crying. Never.
He moves closer to me and I took a step back… and back… and back… Then, I felt the cold cement against my back… and he was so close. When he was just a step closer, I ran towards the door and forcefully slid it open… I ran and ran and ran… Tears were now running down my cheeks… I heard some monks whispering but I didn't care… Something was throbbing at my chest…
~~~~~
I stared at her eyes as she jolted up from the bed.
"What happened?" I asked her in a soft voice.
Her violet eyes focused on my violet eyes and it seems she was examining me… Gods! You don't know how much I waited for this day! And how much I wished she wouldn't be angry… Well, who wouldn't be?! You left her all alone one night after you drag her to your bed and she was left with nothing as you were gone in just… what… A WEEK!
I was talking, no… scolding at myself again… I've been doing this for the past… hmmm…. Oh nothing much, just since the minute I left the temple! Damn it! I'm going mental!
Her eyes soon traveled through my face, to my hair and to my lips and through my eyes… Then, I shivered… She's angry… Her eyes were fixed directly through my eyes.
"Where have you been…?" She asked me in a very unusual tone of voice. For the first time, and I don't know why, I felt fear…
"Where have you been…?" She repeated and I intentionally did not respond…
She pushed my hand away from her right side and I pulled it… She stood up and walked towards the door. She stopped on the middle and I stood up from the bed…I stared at her.
"Why didn't you tell me..?" At that question… I suddenly felt, somewhat, weak.
Why was she so angry…? I don't know what's wrong with her… Women… but… how come I'm worried… I've never been worried like this… except when Goku, Gojyo and Hakkai were about to get toasted… but those are different. She wasn't in any danger, yet he's worried… What has this woman done to me… A minute, I'm the cold-oh-don't-or-you-get-it-and-regret kind and then I'm the worried-tense-fears-weak-beg type… What is this…?
"I'm only borrowing a room here… No, wait. I'm just occupying it for a while…" That woke me up from my trance… She chuckled.
"Yeah… That's it. Just occupying……" What the hell is she saying?!
I took a step closer and she moves back… I continued and she backs up… I saw fear on her eyes… what that was for…? I don't have a single idea…
As I was just a step closer, she ran towards the door and slid the door open… I stared at where she disappeared… I felt a thunder struck my heart… She was crying…
~~~~~
I was, again, sitting at the stairs… I wasn't crying anymore. Somehow, I got a hold of myself.
I did not have any thoughts… My mind was completely blank. I stared blindly at the stairs that goes down. Blank… For the first time in a week, … my mind was blank.
For the first time in a week, I was not thinking… I was not having scary thoughts… I was not threatening myself… I was not killing myself with wonder and wariness… I was not groping my own neck… I was not thinking of what will happen next, tomorrow or the next days… and for the first time this week… I wasn't thinking of him.
I closed my eyes as a soft wind passed by me and moving my long hair on my back… I was getting hot. I opened my eyes, stood up, look at the skies, sigh and walked back to the temple.
Some monks were staring at me… for the past happenings… the running through the halls… I let them stare and I walk pass by them.
~~~~~
I sat down at the chair beside my round table. Knocking myself to death by 'banging' my head at the table. My hands crumpling my robes at my lap.
Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid! I stopped the banging… I was starting to get a headache… My forehead on the table and me staring at the wood in front of me. I should reconcile. I clearly stated to myself. I, somehow, got my head up and I searched for something. I found it at the side of my bed. I stood up and picked it up.
I sat down at the chair again. I placed a paper and a pen on top of the table and stared at it. I started scribbling on the paper. I stopped and read it. I tore, crumpled it and threw it away. I started to write again, read, tear, crumples, throw… write, read, tear, crumple, throw… write, read, tear, crumple, throw… write, read, tear, crumple, throw… write, read, tear, crumple, throw… write, read, tear, crumple, throw… write, read, tear, crumple, throw… write, read, tear, crumple, throw… write, read, tear, crumple, throw… write, read, tear, crumple, throw… write, read, tear, crumple, throw… write, read, tear, crumple, throw… write, read, tear, crumple, throw…
After fourteen repeats, I got it done. I read it and nodded. I folded it and placed it inside my robe.
I stood up and approached the door. I walked out and walked to the next door… I took the paper from inside my robe and placed it in front of the door. I sighed and walked away, to the other direction.
~~~~~
"Zeon!" I shouted and the person I was referring to turned around… and for the first time, I noticed what he looks like. He has blue eyes, a circular face and very red lips.
He smiles at me and I returned it. He approached me… "Hey." He greeted.
"Hey," I said back. Actually, it was more of a question. "What are you doing?" I asked.
"Oh. Just sweeping the fallen leaves."
"Can I help?" I asked. I needed something to distract me for a while… away from him… away from Sanzo…
He smiles. "That would be great!" He hands me a broom, out of nowhere, and proceeded with his sweeping.
After about, I think, hours and hours and hours of sweeping… I gave in with a yawn. I looked up at the sky.
It was red-orange. Another day ends. Zeon turns to me. "You better go rest. I'll finish these up." He smiles and I nodded with a nod. I gave him the broom and proceeded to my room.
I touched the door when I looked down. I cocked my head and leaned down to pick up the thing. I straighten up… It was a paper. I unfolded it and stared at the 'very' neat handwriting.
Hn.
Sanzo. I quickly thought. I sighed.
I did not understand what you were acting…
ACTING?! HOW DARE HE!
I've never seen someone, well maybe except one, react like how you did.
Who's the other?
I was surprised and a 'little' curious of why you would say those words.
Still arrogant.
I was used to just leaving and when I come back nothing changes in my world.
I s he being poetical or just coincidence??? Whatever.
So, the main purpose of this is to ask you on a dinner…
He's actually asking?! Zeon said he usually commands…
It's a reconciliation thing… I think.
Reconciliation??? After me going through all of those?! He expects me to show up?!!!
I will wait for you at the main hall. Nine.
I will wait… I 'will' be there.
Oh! The nerves of this guy!
I rolled my eyes and entered my room. There was no second thoughts. I'm not showing up.
I slept.
I groaned. Someone was knocking at the door. I stood up from the bed and slid the door open.
"Zeon?! Do you know what time it is?!" I half shouted. He was frowning. I was surprised. This was the first time he didn't smile at me.
"What?!" I irritatingly asked.
"I should be the one asking you! Do you know what time it is?!" He shouted at me. He was somehow… disappointed.
"It's two in the morning!" I answered him. He grunted and I felt him grab my wrist. He dragged me.
"Let go!" I protested as I tried to break free but he was determined.
After a while, he stopped… he pulled me and pushed me. I rolled my eyes and looked up. My eyes widen. I was on the main hall…
There was a small round table on the middle and a certain blonde monk sitting on a chair with his head bowed down. I placed a hand in front of my mouth.
"He's here." I felt a cold voice from my back.
"We should take him to his room…" Zeon commanded… He was still disappointed.
He walked towards the sleeping monk and I followed him. Zeon placed an arm around the sleeping monk waist and he placed the sleeping monk's arms around his neck. He walked past by me. I just followed behind him… We remained silent.
He stopped and I looked up. He needed me to open the door of the room… and I did. I entered first and was standing beside the bed. Zeon came forth and commanded me to take the sleeping monk's other arm… and I did.
Suddenly, the sleeping monk's weight was fully shifted to me. I fell on the bed with him on top of me. Our feet were out of the bed but the legs were on.
I felt my cheeks turn hot. "Zeon!" I shouted. I heard the door slid shut. My heartbeat began to beat fast.
"Sanzo…?" I whispered to his ear. "Sanzo…?" I repeated. He moves a little but he was still on top of me… his legs move… parting mine and one of his knee on the middle. I felt myself getting more hotter.
"I tried…" He whispered and I shivered… His voice was so deep… it was different from his usual tone of voice.
"But you didn't come…" I felt guilt stabbing my heart…
"I waited."
"But you didn't come…" He snuggled to my neck. I got Goosebumps… I kept silent…
"I'm drunk…" He whispers through my neck. If he continues that… I might not contain myself… "Stay with me tonight?" He asked…
He moves. His hands were now on each side of my head… Our legs alternating… He didn't seem too heavy now…
"Is that a yes?" He asks… Gods! Don't do that!
I felt him shiver… He was cold… but I couldn't get the blanket… he was on top of me and he was drunk. I sighed… I placed a hand around his waist and the other one on his back. He snuggled even more to my neck. I placed a leg on top of his…
Immediately, I felt him gave out a relieved exhale…
Silently, I smiled and closed my eyes… It felt so comfortable…
Even though I don't know why he's like this only to me…
I don't care… and I wouldn't…
Even though I don't know why he took me here…
I won't care… I never will…
As long as he's near…
That's all I care… him.