I stared at her eyes… those beautiful violet eyes, just like mine… except that her eyes are so pure, innocent, radiant, and always filled with laughter. I leaned down to kiss her nose and took a quick kiss on her lips. She smiled again.

This woman is always smiling… always laughing… always so fun to be with. I don't know why heaven ever let me have this woman or even let my eyes lay on hers… but… she's still innocent. So innocent that I'm afraid to touch her.

Not the innocent type that doesn't know anything about how this filthy world goes. No, not like that. She's… I dunno… young. Yes, she's young. Too young. She's still unknown to the world that I live in. The world that I hate… the world that my mind race through…

Could I really 'corrupt' such a young one? Could I blacken her name and mind? I really shouldn't… I know. I know I am not to do it… not for her. I am not worthy to color her world… worse… to color her world red with blood and black… the color of my soul.

She smiles again and looks straight into my eyes. Her eyes were moving with worry… Was I that transparent? Since when? … Oh yeah, since the day she looked into my eyes and vice versa.

Innocent… yet beautiful… I'm tempted… and it's a bad sign…

Why? Because I might be the cause of her downfall… Her death. I couldn't take that… I wouldn't…

I nodded at her, reassuring her that I was okay. She leaned closer to me and placed her chin on top of my shoulders. She hugged me even closer and I smelled her hair… Smells like smoke. I mentally chuckled. Note to self: Never smoke around her.

I stood up and brought her along. I reached for the towel on the chair and draped it around her small body. I let her go and let her stand in front of me but her hands were still resting on my shoulders. I placed my hands around her waist. I lifted her from the tub and placed her down on the floor.

Without a word, I placed my other hand under her knees and lifted her up. She gently leaned her head into my chest. I carried her like a bride out to the room. I gently placed her down on the bed and without letting her go… I followed and lay on top of her.

She opened her eyes and stared deeply into my eyes. I felt her hands burning my cheeks… softly caressing it. Her thumb massaged my cheekbones and her fingers trailed up into my temple. Her hands moved into my bangs and hanging hair, she pushed them back. By then, she could clearly see my face… Every angle and every curve.

Then, I felt being pulled… pulled closer and closer into her face. Soon, my lips found hers. Her eyes closed and soon I followed.

Her lips were warm, the warmest one I've ever tasted, sweet and soft. I couldn't help myself… I licked her lips, wishing for an entrance… she didn't respond. I moved my right hand from her side into her waist, down to her hips and… She gasped, even though I haven't reached for it.

I took the entrance and explored her warm cave with my tongue. She moaned… soon, her hands left my face and traveled down from my shoulders to my waist. She encircled her hands into my waist into my back and pulled me down to her. With her pulling, I couldn't control my weight and I placed all my weight on her… She didn't respond…

I heard her moan again… I figured out that she didn't know how to respond. I smiled a little. I ordered my tongue to lick hers… and it did. She took her cue and responded to it.

As this continued, I could not hear any noises… I cannot hear any thing from outside of the room… I even forgot we were in my room. I could not feel a thing except for her hands that were currently traveling around my upper body and her roaming tongue with mine.

I cannot hear myself… I couldn't feel my breathing and I can't hear it… but… I could hear her moaning… I can hear her breathing and I feel it blowing into my face… I could see her in my eyes… I can remember every moves and noise she made…

Most of all… I could hear her heart beating with the same rhythm with mine. Our hearts made the same music to my ears… I could hear them thump at the same time… I can hear it responding to my heart's beat. I could feel it melting and absorbing mine…

I pulled back and I panted… She was too and she was all sweaty. She smiled at me… I wanted to kiss her again because of that wicked smile… but I maintained my position… waiting for her to tell me if she wanted this or not… I waited for her to tell me that she wants me to stay by her side and never leave her.

I couldn't wait… Patience wasn't one of my best virtues. "We can stop, you know." I told her and she giggled. I raised a brow.

"I know. I was thinking that." She whispered to me and I felt my heart sank into the deepest of the seven seas.

Thoughts raced through my mind… in and out of my ears. I remained still and placed my calm face.

"I was wondering…" She continued. "Maybe we should do this some other day." Some other day?! GOOD! That doesn't mean she wants me to leave… does it?

"Hm?"

"I meant that we should get to know each other first and we should spend time with each other." She smiled at me… It was saying something like 'don't-worry-too-much-you-look-funny'… but at that time, I didn't got that message… My mind was too busy. "Well?" She wanted us to stop yet she wanted my opinion about it…

"We could do that." I told her and her face brightened up.

She hugged me and whispered. "Don't worry, I'm not planning to leave you." I smiled at that… I was very very very relieved.

"What's you real name?" I asked her… stupid question but I got to ask.

She giggled… "I knew you'd be asking that." She pushed me away and our eyes met… I started to feel fear… what if she didn't wanted to be ask of it…? "Fuurein." She smiled at me. "Weird isn't it.? Ugly too." She sighed.

I moved my right hand on her chin and faced her to meet me. "It's not weird… It's unique… and I happen to like it." She nodded at me. "Wind spirit? Spirit wind?"

"It's Fuurein." She giggled and I raised a brow. "It was supposed to be Fuu or wind and rain as in water drops from the clouds… but I kept misspelling it that it turned out r-e-i-n."

I mouthed 'o'. She giggled again. "And what was the reason you didn't tell me of it?"

"Because I suspected you'll make fun of it like the other's." She said in an as-a-matter-of-fact tone.

"Then you should have told me earlier… You should've noticed that I'm not and never going to be like the others."

She laughed. "Yes, I kinda noticed that." She kept laughing. I just examined her… beautiful. "Sorry… So, that was why you never called me by Chiaki?"

I shook my head. "I despise the name. I don't know why but I know I never liked it."

"Yeah, me neither."

"Should we sleep now?" I asked her since I could see that her eyes were sleepy and she nodded. I rolled off of her and laid beside her. I laid into my side so I would be facing her. She snuggled closer to me and placed both her hand on top of my chest.

My right hand was now under her head, again, and my left hand never leaving the curve of her waist into her back.

"You smell like the bath soap." She whispered and soon followed by a light yawn.

"Like you."

She yawned again. "Yes, like me…"

I studied her position and her light breathing… She slept like a guardian angel… I closed my eyes and for once after my long search of something I thought I would never find in this life that I have now… I was enormously happy… because I found her…

This was just a new start… for me… and for her… I could feel that we'll be together for quite a long time… and I don't have any objection to that… if anybody did I'm sure I'll find a way or two to make them change their minds.

Deep inside of me I can feel somewhere and somehow going soft… my walls were falling apart… my soul was lifted from a curse of darkness. I couldn't fight the urge of destiny that led me to her… and I was quite happy I couldn't.

And for once in my entire life… I am truly satisfied with what I have… because…

I found what I was looking for…

My life… in the light.