Why do I even bother with disclaimers?
Allie-Dee: still short but i feel better about it now thanks to you.
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AN: Just a bitter sweet taste…
"Man, I've missed this place." Lily said to herself as she paid the driver and climbed out of the beaten cab in front of the familiar house in suburbia. As soon as her feet struck the pavement she knew she was home.
I wish the guys were here.
When my aunt saw me behind the heavy red door, she greeted me as if I'd only been gone a couple hours. She let me in, took my stuff to the guest room, and I plopped my ass down on the big blue suede couch in front of the television.
"What're you in for?" she asked me as she handed me a glass of iced tea.
I'm running away… "I needed a break," I lied. I bet she can see right through me. I bet my mom already called her. I bet my mom wants her to drill me. What will she ask first?
"It's not like your mother to not call." She said it so innocently. Maybe she doesn't know. Maybe I'm thinking too much. Maybe I should just tell her the truth.
She doesn't know I'm here. "I guess it slipped her mind." What is wrong with me?
"Should I call her?"
No, she probably has the National Guard surrounding our house. "That's okay, I'll just go e-mail her and tell her I'm here and safe. Thanks by the way for letting me stay here." I wonder if she'll buy that.
"Okay, you know where the computer is." Wow…she bought it!
I wasn't going to e-mail my mom. The only person I wanted to talk to was Travis. I had to tell him about my dream.
I got out my journal and typed up my dream for him to analyze. I turned back a page and saw something I wrote down a couple days before reading and thought I should share that with Travis as well….
…I use to fit in. I use to feel accepted in my family and group of friends for who I am (or was). My family is too small. My house is too small. My life is too small and my ambitions too big. I'm suffocating. They yell at me. They tell me I can do what I want; be what I want. They give me what I want and tell me they will help me get there. But what if what I want isn't what I wanted? Now all I want is what I can never achieve. You can't give that to me. Did you then fail me? Did I fail you?
SEND.
Man I'm gonna regret this.