Diary Of A Murderer
Chapter 5 – Loathing and Dislike
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There was only one thing that I liked about Lily Evans.
It was her clear dislike for James and the other Marauders. Including myself. The fact that while her dislike towards James would prevent him from ever doing anything about his apparent lust for her made me happy. In a sad sort of way. It never really bothered me much about Sirius' girlfriends because most were just fleeting affairs. He is what I have heard Bill Weasley call a 'player'. The fact that his relationships with girls were so brief never really gave me anything to worry about.
Remus never really took an interest in girls, opting instead, to continue reading his books and doing his homework. It was James. His devotion to trying to make Lily Evans see the light was worrying. Not because he was obsessed, which in a way I suppose he was, but because I was afraid it might work. Well as I'm sure you have guessed, in the end it did. But I'm not up to that.
I was worried because the fact that James was not like Sirius at all in that aspect. If he had Lily, he would be loyal forever. He would rarely ever see us. And I was convinced that if that happened, she would make James refuse to be friends with me anymore on account of her loathing me. I don't know why, but if it came to a toss up between her having a date with me and her having a date with the Devil himself, she would have chosen the latter.
I was mortified. I was constantly tripping over myself when she was around, thinking that this time she might say 'yes' to one of James' invitations. Hence the reason people started thinking I liked her. Adding to Lily's dislike of me. And putting me dangerously close to becoming a permanent name in James' bad books. Fortunately he took my word for it.
After that particular incident, I stepped carefully whenever I saw a flash of any reddish colored hair.
Please excuse my absence for the last week, I was... 'busy'. Shall I just say that though some of Percy's friends find my coloring boring, there are several female rats in Hogwarts that would disagree. Though I must say I find it flattering to be the object of a rats attention... well actually I don't, but still, I must say it is a tad wrong, even for me.
I have spent the entire week in hiding. Mostly in Percy's bed sheets but that stopped happening when he decided to go to bed straight out of the shower. Wearing nothing. Once again, Azkaban proves a desirable prospect. Even if they served me cheese.
I apologize for replying so late, but it is sometimes difficult to find a time when the common room is deserted. Right now it is early in the morning with the sun just rising over the horizon. I hear stirring in the dormitories above me and so I am afraid that I must cut this short.
Wormtail.
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Chapter 5 – Loathing and Dislike
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There was only one thing that I liked about Lily Evans.
It was her clear dislike for James and the other Marauders. Including myself. The fact that while her dislike towards James would prevent him from ever doing anything about his apparent lust for her made me happy. In a sad sort of way. It never really bothered me much about Sirius' girlfriends because most were just fleeting affairs. He is what I have heard Bill Weasley call a 'player'. The fact that his relationships with girls were so brief never really gave me anything to worry about.
Remus never really took an interest in girls, opting instead, to continue reading his books and doing his homework. It was James. His devotion to trying to make Lily Evans see the light was worrying. Not because he was obsessed, which in a way I suppose he was, but because I was afraid it might work. Well as I'm sure you have guessed, in the end it did. But I'm not up to that.
I was worried because the fact that James was not like Sirius at all in that aspect. If he had Lily, he would be loyal forever. He would rarely ever see us. And I was convinced that if that happened, she would make James refuse to be friends with me anymore on account of her loathing me. I don't know why, but if it came to a toss up between her having a date with me and her having a date with the Devil himself, she would have chosen the latter.
I was mortified. I was constantly tripping over myself when she was around, thinking that this time she might say 'yes' to one of James' invitations. Hence the reason people started thinking I liked her. Adding to Lily's dislike of me. And putting me dangerously close to becoming a permanent name in James' bad books. Fortunately he took my word for it.
After that particular incident, I stepped carefully whenever I saw a flash of any reddish colored hair.
Please excuse my absence for the last week, I was... 'busy'. Shall I just say that though some of Percy's friends find my coloring boring, there are several female rats in Hogwarts that would disagree. Though I must say I find it flattering to be the object of a rats attention... well actually I don't, but still, I must say it is a tad wrong, even for me.
I have spent the entire week in hiding. Mostly in Percy's bed sheets but that stopped happening when he decided to go to bed straight out of the shower. Wearing nothing. Once again, Azkaban proves a desirable prospect. Even if they served me cheese.
I apologize for replying so late, but it is sometimes difficult to find a time when the common room is deserted. Right now it is early in the morning with the sun just rising over the horizon. I hear stirring in the dormitories above me and so I am afraid that I must cut this short.
Wormtail.
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