I think loads of people like Ryou cause a lot of us think we identify with him. I write loads of things about myself I cover up with the name Ryou and thread carefully through my stories, changing things so they don't sound the same. Bourei no Hikari seems to think my life is just as good as a drama... People's lives are always entertaining, right? I personally identify with Ryou. Or my perception of Ryou really, like everyone else. I think that we all think that Ryou is just a lost lonely boy in need of a little bit of help, and sometimes I see myself like that (excepting the "little boy part" as I'm a girl.)
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Summary: It hurts to be pushed away, and it hurts to be the pusher. But Ryou isn't sure which role he fills. Ryou-centric, 250 word drabble
Title: Itai
Disclaimer: Yugioh is copyrighted by someone who isn't deluded into thinking that she's perfect for Ryou.
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Ryou never really liked being alone. And being around Yugi was always a fun thing to do, and he since he was never alone anymore (the whispers of the Ring could almost drive him insane) he decided that he could always be Yugi's friend.
But Yugi was ever popular, and when Ryou couldn't decided whether he was too close as to discomfort Yugi or too far as to make Yugi think he was disinterested. And it always, always hurt Ryou when Yugi looked past him, greeted someone else (Anzu, Jou, Honda, Kaiba) before him. But he was always floating on Cloud Nine when Yugi said hello to him because he was being noticed.
So was it surprising that it hurt when Yugi seemed to drift away? Or maybe it was Ryou; maybe Ryou was the one drifting away, because he was afraid to be hurt more because Yugi drifted away first. He was sure Yugi would get tired of him soon… and if it WAS Yugi who started drifting, all the more reason to stay on his own, wasn't it?
So why did it hurt more than it had to?
Ryou hated (hatedhatedhated) hurt, and he chose to hide his pain from the world. He hated (hatedhatedhated) having hurt inside.
And Ryou hated (hatedhatedhated) having to feel, so he didn't.
(Starts with loneliness, hope, sorrow, hurt, pain, deception. And then… Happiness.)
(And the Spirit of the Ring smirked at his yadonushi's thoughts. Perhaps his boredom was not a complete waste.)
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