Hey! I'm back! Thank you everyone who has reviewed! By the way- some people have mentioned in their review about how on earth I could hate Rei. I don't hate Rei just to set the record straight- but I guess it would appear so in the first few chapters. The last chapter should have made you understand why I'd portrayed him in such a way! I quite like Rei actually- and he can't help the way he feels for Tala!
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Kai's soul was desperately trying to wake-up Kai- but it was in vain. The drugs Tala had forced into his system forbid him from moving. He was dully aware of a noise in the background, but was far too weak to understand its importance.
What's wrong with my body? Why can't I move?
Why does something feel really wrong?
And how do I already know it concerns Rei?
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Tala gazed into Rei's huge amber orbs and felt himself drowning in them. His vision had gone cloudy and his mind had stopped functioning properly. This was bliss. This was heaven on earth. But it wasn't what he had always imagined it to be.
Thrust
He had never for a heartbeat imagined being in bed with Rei. His sworn enemy since the first time Kai had told him. Told Tala that he was in love with Rei, and not him. The news didn't even sink in- Tala just knew what he had to do.
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But he wasn't doing it. He was sleeping with the very thing he hated so. The object of his entire wrath and despise. He couldn't even kill one little boy, and this made him feel pathetic.
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But the intensity of feeling one gets from sleeping with someone they hate so much- is incomparable. Tala was lost in this new sensation- and no longer felt alone.
Thrust
He felt complete now- lost in Rei's embrace-and he had no desire to be untangled from him. Rei was warm.
Thrust
And it wasn't often someone was warm towards Tala. Tala was the ice boy. The emotionless boy.
Thrust
Tala was unlovable, and in return could never love.
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Well. They were wrong.
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Tala could love
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Tala did love
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Tala loved…
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"Rei," Tala's whole world focused on the small part of Rei which was inside of him, and collapsed in his wake. He flung his head backwards on the pillow, and screamed as loudly as his lungs would allow. Rei quickly grasped his hand, and Tala made full use of this kind gesture by squishing down on it as hard as he could. His body pulsed. Fireworks went off one by one inside of his brain. The blood which flowed under his skin seemed to carry this feeling all around his body and back again. Back to where Rei was, and Tala suddenly remembered who Rei was.
Rei gingerly kissed Tala on the forehead, and quickly collapsed down beside of him. Fulfilled.
"I love you Tala"
"I know"
"Do you love me?"
"No"
"I guessed as much to be honest. Do you think you ever will?"
"No"
"Why not?"
"I love… Kai…"
Rei silently swung himself off of the bed and walked over to the open window. Tala watched him, and how the wind played around with his long tied up hair. It took him a while to realize Rei was crying.
"Why are you crying?" Tala almost got up to comfort him, but as he moved, he got an unpleasant reminder of how sticky his thighs were- and did not wish to move anymore.
"Because this situation is so hopeless. I love you, you love Kai, and Kai loves me. No one can be happy like this." Rei wiped his eyes on his opened shirt sleeve and jumped gracefully onto the window ledge.
"Why do you love me?" Begged Tala.
How could you love me?
"I don't even know- that's why it ends here." Tala didn't understand what Rei was on about – until he noticed how wistfully he was looking out of the window.
"Rei…"
"Don't you dare try and stop me Tala. This is the only way. This is what all of this has come to. We'll all be damned if I don't do this!" Tala leap off the bed and stood under Rei.
"This won't solve anything Rei- if you die- Kai will follow suit, and then…"
"Kai, Kai, KAI!!!! How I hate that name, that face. He has ruined everything! Why couldn't you have loved me back? Was it really that hard?"
"I don't know you Rei…"
"And you never will now…" Rei twisted himself towards the window- only to come to a halt when Tala grabbed his ankle.
"If you come down, I'll promise to get to know you." Tala gazed up at Rei, and Rei could tell that he meant what he said, and would stay true to his word.
What am I saying?
"You would do that for me? You would give up Kai?"
"I can't just switch my love for Kai off, but I can try to love you back."
Kai…
I'm so sorry…
But if you want your Rei to stay alive-this is what I must do.
I'm doing this for you Kai, I hope one day you'll see that.
"In secret we'll meet Tala, I know what Kai would do to you should he find out." Rei smiled weakly at Tala below him who was crying. He was giving his body away to keep Kai happy, which was honorable, but did not feel like it.
"Surely if I can make this sacrifice for you, you can make a sacrifice for me…" Tala said carefully.
"Name it."
"Pretend you love Kai. Even if it's just the once. I think that's all he needs." Tala cried silently but heavily. So many new and confusing emotions bound him, and he hated this situation- but couldn't see any other way of keeping Rei alive, and Kai happy, (and probably alive as well!).
"Of course."
I hate this.
I hate Rei.
And I hate Kai for loving him and not me.
Why does it have to be like this? Is there no other way?
I pretend to love Rei in secret, while Rei goes out with Kai!
What do I get out of this?
Nothing!
But am I still alone?
No.
And anything is better than being alone…
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Whoa! I can feel your confusion already. If you don't get what's happening- read it through again carefully. That was heavy! I promise this is as confusing as it gets! Next chapter up soon which sees the return of Kai into a main role! And can you guess what Rei is gonna have to do?... he he he…… please review!