Sorry, it's been a while since I've updated. I've changed the ending a bit… well completely. But I still don't know which version I should post! Anyway, enjoy chap6.

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Kai slowly opened his eyes and the sun seemed even brighter that morning. He couldn't understand why he felt so awful - well- at least worse than usual.

It feels like I've been hit by a bus…

Why the hell do I feel so shit?

He turned over and found that Rei wasn't in his bed. Another glance to the clock by Rei's bedside told Kai he was 2 hours late.

He's gone already. I like watching him get ready…

SHIT! 2 HOURS? What the hell happened to me?

Kai flung himself out of bed, but as soon as he stood up, his whole world began to sway- and he came crashing down onto the floor. The noise carried through out the house, to where Rei, Max and Tyson were watching TV.

"What's Kai up to?" Said Tyson.

"Sounds like he fell. I'll go and check." Max said getting up. Rei pushed Max back down as he got up, and as he left said-

"I wanna go take the piss…"

I wanna get this over with…

Rei began his assent of the stairs with a growing sense of dread with every step he took. He didn't understand why Tala wanted him to do this. Sure it would keep Kai happy- but Tala gained nothing. In fact- Tala would stand to loose. He would loose pride and his sense of worth, and he was also running the risk of Kai just loving Rei more.

Rei pushed open the door to find Kai sprawled out on the floor.

"Kai! What the hell happened?" He dropped down beside Kai , and started to pull him upright.

"So weak…" Kai was now sitting up against the bed -with Rei in the same way beside him.

"Why? What have you been doing lately?"

"Nothing. This is a one off, and I don't know why."

Suddenly Rei remembered that Kai never woke up last night when Tala was there, even though they were making quite a lot of noise. Usually Kai was a light sleeper- so how could he have slept last night?

"How was last night" Rei asked fearfully.

"This will sound fucked up, but I was awake last night, however, none of my senses were working." Kai started to slide to the side, but Rei caught him by putting an arm around his waist. The arm was not removed.

I don't want to do this. I want Tala!

"Did you go to a bar last night?" It was only after Rei said this, that he realized Tala must have drugged him.

"No…"

Clever Tala. But I wish you told me. I could have just dobbed you in it…

Kai leaned into Rei's embrace and wept. When he was around Rei, he felt like his soul was on show, and that every glance Rei gave him, Rei could see every thought and feeling. This is why Kai liked Rei. Rei made him feel like a human being.

Please don't let this moment end

Rei was shocked by Kai's sudden outburst. For the first time, Rei could see that Kai was indeed human, and not only human, but a hurt human. Rei was beginning to see Kai in a whole new light. And when Kai kissed him, he didn't even have to think about kissing back. And when Kai pulled him to the floor, he felt better for it.

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I wonder what's happening now?

Maybe Rei couldn't go through with it!

Why am I even hoping that? It was my idea. I asked him!

Tala dragged the knife along his leg and winced at the pain, but as soon as he took it away, he missed it.

Why was Rei ready to kill him self over me? What have I ever done? Why is he so attached to me?

I hate him for being loved by Kai

But, why can't I stop thinking about him?

Am I really that unloved to be completely captivated by someone who loves me?

Tala pressed the knife down harder this time, and dark red rushed onto milk coloured skin. Something clicked in his head, and he threw the knife across the room.

What's that gonna help?

Someone knocked on the door and Tala dived under the covers just in time. It was Brian.

"You're still in bed? You've got to be joking! Where were you last night Tala? In some gay bar?"

"I'm not gay!"

"So what am I? A girl?"

"Just leave me alone."

"It's midday Tala. Get up before I set your bed on fire."

"I will, just go away first."

"I don't trust you. Get up now wolf-boy."

Tala got out of bed and faced away from Brian. He was wearing boxers and a t-shirt.

"Why don't you face me? Gotta hard-on or something?"

"I don't wanna look at you…"

"I'm so sure..." Brian grabbed Tala's shoulder and flung him around to face him. A few inches below the bottom of Tala's boxers, were a few heavily bleeding cuts. Brian's eyes widened.

"Idiot!" And with that, Brian turned round, and slammed the door behind him.

Why did he have to see that? WHY?

Tala flopped down on the bed and reached for the knife again. He drew it across an existing wound, and the blood poured freely.

The door swung open again, and Brian stood horrified in the door way.

"YOU'RE PATHETIC!" Brian grabbed the knife and stormed out yet again, leaving Tala crying into his palms.

He's right.

I can't go on like this.

It's pathetic.

If I love Kai, I'm just gonna have to face the music and tell him.

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