"Cid I want to stop. Get someone else to replace me. I don't want to be a SeeD anymore." Squall said blankly.
Cid looked seriously at Squall and said, "Squall it is your duty. You can't just quit SeeD. Now I under stand that you are in a lot of pain but-"
"Just get me off this mission then. I can't stand it."
"No. All of the children have worked with you for months. Now I will put Quistis on your team to help you teach but you need to continue this. Even though Rinoa was irresponsible and ran off you have no right to. Now is that all?"
Squall left blankly. Cid stared after him and wondered if he had done the right thing. He had put him on the path that wouldn't allow him to sink too far into depression. Or so he hoped.
Squall walked out and Quistis met him.
"You will be replacing Ms. Heartly."
Quistis looked at him concerned. Ever since Rinoa had left him he had referred to he only as Ms. Heartly. They went their separate ways and Squall went off to his room.
Squall lay down on his bed and tried to sleep. He had had very little sleep the last night. SHE did this to him. How could she? He had again lost the most important thing to him. He had been right. He should never rely on anyone. If he did then he would only end up hurt. Squall pulled out his gunblade and looked at it seriously. Such power it had. He could end all of the pain right here, right now. He would never have to feel it again. He began to press it against his heart, the area of the most pain to him now.
Quistis had gone back to her room but couldn't help thinking about Squall. He was in so much pain. All she wanted now was to be with him. She wondered if she really did love him. Maybe if she saw him she could sort it all out. She began to head to his room. When she got there she knocked on the door.... No answer. She opened the door to see Squall with his gunblade to his heart about ready to kill himself.
"NO!" she screamed as she barely got it from his hands.
He looked up at her stunned and then she saw some tears slip out. He needed someone to help him get through this. She really hated Rinoa now. Quistis sat down beside him and held him like you might a baby. He weeped and eventually fell asleep in her arms. Finally she managed to get to sleep there with him.
When Squall woke the next morning he found himself under the covers of Quistis bed. Quistis had her head resting on the side of the bed and was sleeping. "Had she stayed there all night with me?" Squall thought. He got up and headed back to his room. It felt somewhat good that at least someone cared whether he lived or died. The pain of Rinoa didn't fade though and he began to prepare for the class in silence.
/\/\/\/\/\/\/\
Rinoa woke up to see that she was in an apartment. She could barely move because she was so sick. Everything was blurry as she looked around. The room she was in was small and it seemed sort of chaotic. It was so totally unlike Squall. The though of him made her wince. She still loved him and probably always would even if he didn't love her.
Rinoa's vision slowly came back and she saw that Siefer was sleeping on a nearby bed. She sat up suddenly releasing that it was Siefer. He heard her and slowly got up to look around. When he saw her he smiled.
"Sleeping Beauty finally up huh?" he said.
"Why am I here?" Rinoa asked.
"I found you out in a field near the docks. You were amazingly sick. It looked like you had been out in the rain for hours."
"Oh"
"Why were you out there?"
"None of your business!"
It still hurt for her to think about it. The nonchalant manner of Squall as he kissed that evil woman.
"Ok... want something to eat?"
Rinoa's stomach growled at the thought of food.
"Going to poison me so you can bring me into your new master?"
Siefer mocked being hurt at this.
"What? It was nothing personal throwing you to Adel. That was all Ulticimia. She had me under her spell."
Rinoa wasn't quiet sure she believed this but her stomach did as a steaming plate of pancakes was served to her. Rinoa dug in.
"You look like you haven't eaten for days," he said siting across from her.
"It feels like it."
"So do you have a place to stay?"
Rinoa looked up suspiciously.
"I just want to help. I want, no need to make up for Adel. I feel so bad about that."
Rinoa wanted to believe him. She looked up and said, "No, I have no where to stay right now."
"You can stay with me if you want."
Rinoa thought. So far he hadn't done anything to her. He certainly could have done something; he had had the chance.
"Thank you, I will"
/\/\/\/\/\/\/\
Squall had just set up for another lesson. The kids had been told that Rinoa had left for a long while on a mission and that Quistis would be taking over. Quistis smiled at the kids. They had made great friends with Squall over the months that they had spent together. Squall had told her about a troublesome one that he really liked. "I think her name is Kirst." She thought, "Yes that's it."
She looked across the crowd of assembled children who all looked eager to get started after the weekend. Kirst seemed to be missing when Quistis did role call. Quistis looked around and finally spotted her. She was sneaking up behind Squall. Quistis smiled.
Suddenly Kirst cast a fire spell on Squall who hit his limit break. The limit break which could whip out mountains the lionheart. Squall looked down at Kirst and realized it was her. He dropped all of the power that he had gathered through his high strung emotions and the he yelled, "Kirst, what are you doing?!"
"I-" she began but was cut of by Squall, who yelled, "Get in line I am NOT in the mode."
Kirst looked determined not to cry but Quistis saw a tear come down as she got into her place. Quistis walked over Squall and took him of to the side.
"What are you THINKING?" she whispered harshly.
"Leave me-" he began but was cut off by Quistis, "Alone? NO. You just hurt a little girl out there. She use to think you as her hero, now look her."
"I don't-" he began again but was cut off once more, "Care? Well you have to. It is your job. If you do not care then go over there and explain to all of the kids that you don't give a damn about any of them and that that is why you need to leave."
Squall stood silently and then left back to the crowd of kids. He went through his whip class and at the end of it, when all of the kids were headed of to lunch, he called Kirst over. She came over with eyes filled with hurt and anger. He knelt down to her level and said, "I'm sorry about earlier. I am very sad at Rinoa's departure. I can't think very clearly right now and have a lot of pent up feelings. You set them all off right there and they weren't meant for you. Will you forgive me?"
Kirst looked to Squall and smiled, "Of course. But if you have all that emotion why don't you talk with someone. I would listen and I'm sure Quistis would too."
Squall was shocked. He looked to her and smiled. "OK I will. Go off and eat lunch now."
Squall watched her go and smiled. She seemed to always know what was right to do so he went over Quistis.
"Do you think, I mean, could you..." he began.
"Yes?"
"Could I talk to you tonight. I think that I just need someone to talk to."
Quistis smiled and said, "Of course."
[AUTHOR'S NOTE: I wanted to say that this is a rough draft so sorry for all of the errors. I also wanted to say that if you have any questions write them in the reviews {which I check every day} or e-mail me at Stpat@worldaccessnet.com. Also if you want me to keep writing then write a review that says so. It is all of your guys' reviews that keep me writing.]
Cid looked seriously at Squall and said, "Squall it is your duty. You can't just quit SeeD. Now I under stand that you are in a lot of pain but-"
"Just get me off this mission then. I can't stand it."
"No. All of the children have worked with you for months. Now I will put Quistis on your team to help you teach but you need to continue this. Even though Rinoa was irresponsible and ran off you have no right to. Now is that all?"
Squall left blankly. Cid stared after him and wondered if he had done the right thing. He had put him on the path that wouldn't allow him to sink too far into depression. Or so he hoped.
Squall walked out and Quistis met him.
"You will be replacing Ms. Heartly."
Quistis looked at him concerned. Ever since Rinoa had left him he had referred to he only as Ms. Heartly. They went their separate ways and Squall went off to his room.
Squall lay down on his bed and tried to sleep. He had had very little sleep the last night. SHE did this to him. How could she? He had again lost the most important thing to him. He had been right. He should never rely on anyone. If he did then he would only end up hurt. Squall pulled out his gunblade and looked at it seriously. Such power it had. He could end all of the pain right here, right now. He would never have to feel it again. He began to press it against his heart, the area of the most pain to him now.
Quistis had gone back to her room but couldn't help thinking about Squall. He was in so much pain. All she wanted now was to be with him. She wondered if she really did love him. Maybe if she saw him she could sort it all out. She began to head to his room. When she got there she knocked on the door.... No answer. She opened the door to see Squall with his gunblade to his heart about ready to kill himself.
"NO!" she screamed as she barely got it from his hands.
He looked up at her stunned and then she saw some tears slip out. He needed someone to help him get through this. She really hated Rinoa now. Quistis sat down beside him and held him like you might a baby. He weeped and eventually fell asleep in her arms. Finally she managed to get to sleep there with him.
When Squall woke the next morning he found himself under the covers of Quistis bed. Quistis had her head resting on the side of the bed and was sleeping. "Had she stayed there all night with me?" Squall thought. He got up and headed back to his room. It felt somewhat good that at least someone cared whether he lived or died. The pain of Rinoa didn't fade though and he began to prepare for the class in silence.
/\/\/\/\/\/\/\
Rinoa woke up to see that she was in an apartment. She could barely move because she was so sick. Everything was blurry as she looked around. The room she was in was small and it seemed sort of chaotic. It was so totally unlike Squall. The though of him made her wince. She still loved him and probably always would even if he didn't love her.
Rinoa's vision slowly came back and she saw that Siefer was sleeping on a nearby bed. She sat up suddenly releasing that it was Siefer. He heard her and slowly got up to look around. When he saw her he smiled.
"Sleeping Beauty finally up huh?" he said.
"Why am I here?" Rinoa asked.
"I found you out in a field near the docks. You were amazingly sick. It looked like you had been out in the rain for hours."
"Oh"
"Why were you out there?"
"None of your business!"
It still hurt for her to think about it. The nonchalant manner of Squall as he kissed that evil woman.
"Ok... want something to eat?"
Rinoa's stomach growled at the thought of food.
"Going to poison me so you can bring me into your new master?"
Siefer mocked being hurt at this.
"What? It was nothing personal throwing you to Adel. That was all Ulticimia. She had me under her spell."
Rinoa wasn't quiet sure she believed this but her stomach did as a steaming plate of pancakes was served to her. Rinoa dug in.
"You look like you haven't eaten for days," he said siting across from her.
"It feels like it."
"So do you have a place to stay?"
Rinoa looked up suspiciously.
"I just want to help. I want, no need to make up for Adel. I feel so bad about that."
Rinoa wanted to believe him. She looked up and said, "No, I have no where to stay right now."
"You can stay with me if you want."
Rinoa thought. So far he hadn't done anything to her. He certainly could have done something; he had had the chance.
"Thank you, I will"
/\/\/\/\/\/\/\
Squall had just set up for another lesson. The kids had been told that Rinoa had left for a long while on a mission and that Quistis would be taking over. Quistis smiled at the kids. They had made great friends with Squall over the months that they had spent together. Squall had told her about a troublesome one that he really liked. "I think her name is Kirst." She thought, "Yes that's it."
She looked across the crowd of assembled children who all looked eager to get started after the weekend. Kirst seemed to be missing when Quistis did role call. Quistis looked around and finally spotted her. She was sneaking up behind Squall. Quistis smiled.
Suddenly Kirst cast a fire spell on Squall who hit his limit break. The limit break which could whip out mountains the lionheart. Squall looked down at Kirst and realized it was her. He dropped all of the power that he had gathered through his high strung emotions and the he yelled, "Kirst, what are you doing?!"
"I-" she began but was cut of by Squall, who yelled, "Get in line I am NOT in the mode."
Kirst looked determined not to cry but Quistis saw a tear come down as she got into her place. Quistis walked over Squall and took him of to the side.
"What are you THINKING?" she whispered harshly.
"Leave me-" he began but was cut off by Quistis, "Alone? NO. You just hurt a little girl out there. She use to think you as her hero, now look her."
"I don't-" he began again but was cut off once more, "Care? Well you have to. It is your job. If you do not care then go over there and explain to all of the kids that you don't give a damn about any of them and that that is why you need to leave."
Squall stood silently and then left back to the crowd of kids. He went through his whip class and at the end of it, when all of the kids were headed of to lunch, he called Kirst over. She came over with eyes filled with hurt and anger. He knelt down to her level and said, "I'm sorry about earlier. I am very sad at Rinoa's departure. I can't think very clearly right now and have a lot of pent up feelings. You set them all off right there and they weren't meant for you. Will you forgive me?"
Kirst looked to Squall and smiled, "Of course. But if you have all that emotion why don't you talk with someone. I would listen and I'm sure Quistis would too."
Squall was shocked. He looked to her and smiled. "OK I will. Go off and eat lunch now."
Squall watched her go and smiled. She seemed to always know what was right to do so he went over Quistis.
"Do you think, I mean, could you..." he began.
"Yes?"
"Could I talk to you tonight. I think that I just need someone to talk to."
Quistis smiled and said, "Of course."
[AUTHOR'S NOTE: I wanted to say that this is a rough draft so sorry for all of the errors. I also wanted to say that if you have any questions write them in the reviews {which I check every day} or e-mail me at Stpat@worldaccessnet.com. Also if you want me to keep writing then write a review that says so. It is all of your guys' reviews that keep me writing.]