Hello my little grasshoppers! Welcome to chapter 10! Don't worry about that whole Lee and Mariah thing. That's not really part of the story. It was just my way of making Tala leave Rei without Kai having any thing to do with it! Those two aren't part of the whole triangle thing! Where as Bryan on the other hand….. he he he…
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Rei stretched out on the bed and felt the first rays of sunlight starting to creep through the curtains. He rolled over expecting to hug Tala, but Tala wasn't there. Rei bolted upright- and found that Tala's clothes had gone as well.
Where is he? Did he just take off without saying anything? It's so early though! He must have left last night then…
Rei forced himself out of bed, and he walked heavy footed to the bathroom. After splashing water on his face, he felt much better- and began to brush his teeth. As he walked across the bathroom, he felt something sharp under his foot. Rei yelped, and his toothbrush fell to the ground. Under his foot was a knife.
Why is that here?
He placed it on the sink, and continued getting ready.
I'm so worried about Tala. The first time I saw those marks on him, I ignored them, thinking they must have just been an accident. But now- not only are there more of them- but they're deeper…
I didn't want to say anything, but the more and more I think about it- Tala does seem the type!
I think he made those marks himself…
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Bryan sat down in the small doctor's office, and waited for the nurse to come back with his prescription. Bored and restless, he began to go through the mess which was the nurse's desk. Under a mug was an orange folder which caught Bryan's attention. He looked at it, and his jaw dropped when he saw it was Tala's counseling file. Without thinking- Bryan tucked it into his backpack.
As soon as he got home, he ignored Ian and Spencer's questions, and shut himself in his room. He took out the folder, made himself comfortable, and started to read it.
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Name: Tala
Age: 17
Country of origin: Russia
Known Family: None. Raised in 'the abbey'. (see later notes)
Household: Lives with 3 other boys. Bryan, Spencer and Ian.
Appearance: Quite tall, unhealthily thin and very pale. The way he carries himself and acts, suggest that he is actually quite ill. Possibly a physical manifestation of his mental condition. This is a growing concern of mine.
Relationships with others: As stated before, subject lives with 3 other boys. He hasn't much to do with Ian or Spencer, but his relationship with Bryan is concerning. It appears that the two used to be very close friends for a few years, but Tala felt a little more than mere friendship towards Bryan. I may be as bold to say that Tala loved him- despite Tala not actually saying this himself. Tala mentions an event which occurred about a year ago, when he tried to kiss Bryan after drinking heavily. Bryan then proceeded to force pills down Tala's throat in an attempt to kill him. It is because of this event that Tala refuses any offers of medication. As of late, it appears Bryan is showing some remorse for this act, but Tala doesn't like him like he used to- or so he claims. I think Tala would be better off living away from Bryan, even if it was only for a little while. I refuse to believe that he has ever fully gotten over him. Personally, I'm also worried that Bryan is starting to develop feelings for Tala (see notes on recent suicide attempt). While I think Tala has gotten to a point where this wouldn't affect him (see notes on love interest), I'm worried that due to his violent past- should Bryan be turned down by Tala- Tala's life would again be in danger.
The Abbey: Tala claims to have been brought up in an abbey, in his homeland of Russia. Because the stories he tells about what happened there are so horrible- I'm forced not to believe them. I'm unsure why Tala would lie about his childhood- so this could still be true. Whether the abbey was real or not, I believe that Tala was sexually abused as a child. Tala seems to have a large amount of sexual partners, thinking that this might end his loneliness- even though he claims to dislike sexual activity. He believes that by letting someone sleep with him- that person will never leave him/ become his friend. I directly link this idea of Tala's to an adult telling him to sleep with him or he'll leave.
Love interest: Tala speaks strongly about his love for a friend called Kai (conformation of homosexuality). I'm pleased that Tala could make not only a genuine friend, but as Kai is also a homosexual, Tala doesn't feel as ashamed about his sexual preference anymore. Even though Tala hasn't made it clear yet if Kai knows this fact about him. I'm not sure if Kai loves Tala in return- but at least they are close. Tala denies any sexual activity has taken place between them. If they do become a couple- I believe most of Tala's mental condition will be solved. However- should Kai turn Tala down- I fear he will most likely try to kill himself again.
Recent suicide attempt: Tala was brought to me after this event, and it took a whole week till he was ready to talk about it. Here are the nights proceeding according to Tala.-
20.00: Walks in with a girl he picked up from a night club. Bryan mocks him for lying to himself.
20.02: He sleeps with the girl.
20.30: The girl leaves- leaving Tala on his own in his room. Bryan calls up "did it feel good?", when he sees that the girl is leaving. For the following hour, Tala considers Bryan's statements, and decides he will kill himself.
21.30: Tala slits his wrists.
21.31: Tala gets a text message from Kai asking him to a film. Tala panics and tries to stop the bleeding.
21.32: By chance, Bryan hears Tala's sobbing as he walks past his room. He enters the room and yells at Tala for what he's done. He uses the bed covers to bandage up Tala's wrists, and carries him to the local hospital only a mile away.
21.45: Tala goes into hysterics, claiming that he wants to die. This makes the wounds bleed heavily. Panicking, Bryan kisses Tala- and the sudden shock makes him faint.
10.50: Tala wakes up in hospital finding Bryan asleep in the chair next to him.
10.51: He wakes Bryan up.
10.55: Tala asks about the kiss, and Bryan denies it happened.
10.56: Bryan leaves.
Tala wanted to die because he felt he had no one to help him deal with his mental condition. I'm concerned that he still feels this way. I would like to treat Tala's illness with Prozac- maybe even lithium- but Tala refuses to take it. He's recently admitted that he self harms. When asked why he does it, Tala gives no reply. It is my belief that Tala does this just to feel the same intensity of sensation he once experienced in the 'abbey', or from his abuse.
I would like to continue seeing Tala every Saturday. I will decide his treatment in due course.
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Bryan flung the folder across the room. He felt his heart beating madly in his chest and the urge to rip everything around him to shreds.
What the fuck was that?
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Hey! That was heavy. Sorry about that. But I couldn't think of any other way of letting you know about the suicide and Bryan without random flashbacks and retellings! Please review!
Oh, and thank you very much Blackartofchaos, Darkslight, CyborgRockStar and Dark-anime-slave for reviewing so often. I really look forward to your reviews! It's nice to know I have a following! I'm trying to get through your stories now!