I'm not sure weather or not I even need to add this chapter on, but some of you seem confused about if this has ended or not. Well, this story is never gonna have a clear end, as it's not the kind of story everyone is gonna live happily ever after in. But THIS chapter will be its end. (Unless I decide to do a spin-off when I'm shit bored). The last chapter seemed so final because I added the commentary to it- but this chapter will tie up all the loose ends in my outlandish plot line!

I hope you enjoy this stories end, and please review!

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3 Months have past…

Bryan

"Can you take another step Bryan?" The nurse asked with Bryan leaning on her shoulder.

Bryan put out his left foot to take a step, but stumbled and fell into the nurse's out stretched arms.

"I'm really sorry, Miss. But I really am trying!" Bryan sobbed into her shoulder.

"It's alright, Bryan! No one is saying you aren't trying. And please, call me Ivy, I'm only 3 years older than you- it feels weird being called 'Miss'!"

Bryan tugged on the fabric at her back, and she held him in return.

"Bryan, can you really not remember anything from before? Like where you were born, your family, your friends…"

"I have nothing. I have no memory of my past." Ivy held him tighter. "Except…"

"What is it? You can remember something?"

"Red." Bryan stated.

"What about red?"

"There is a person- Red- who saved my life. They brought me back here."

"Bryan, I'm sorry to have to crush this memory, but there is no 'Red'. You were saved by the doctors, and brought here by the medics." Ivy whispered.

"No. There is a Red. My memory of him brought me back from death." Ivy slipped out of their embrace to find Bryan was standing by himself.

"Bryan you're standing…"

"I'll find out who Red is and thank them- thank them for the strength they give me."

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Bryan couldn't accept Tala's affection for him when he was younger, but as he got older and embraced his own feelings for Tala, it was already too late. Bryan ended up falling in love with the same person he had hurt so badly out of fear. In the end- Bryan was afraid of letting someone get close to him- esp. when that someone was a boy.

When you let someone get close to you, you run the risk of getting hurt. The one you love could betray you, or cheat on you, or hurt you… Trust is the most painful thing to be abused.

To stop this ever happening- many people build walls around their hearts- never letting anyone become close to them. This means you can never be hurt again- but it also means you can't ever truly be alive.

Make sure the wall around your heart has a door.

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Rei

I'm still alive…

I've yet to find out why.

Rei's door slowly opened, and in walked Max with a tray containing hot soup.

Max looked at the bed-bound Rei and sighed. Rei hadn't spoken since 3 months ago, he hadn't gotten out of bed since 2 months ago and he hadn't moved for the last month. Tubes slipped out from under Rei's covers and were held by tall metal stands.

The doctors didn't understand, but Max did.

"Got your soup, Rei. Maybe you would like to try and eat some, huh?"

Silence.

"I don't think that whatever is being dripped into you is very filling."

Silence.

Max placed the tray on the floor and sat on the side of Rei's bed. Rei looked through Max hauntingly, and Max sighed.

"Rei, he wasn't that important. He wasn't that great a person. He isn't worth this pain and suffering for. I can't bear to see you like this…"

Max stoked Rei's face with the back of his hand, and tucked his hair back.

"Tala is with Kai now, you've gotta move on or you could die!"

Good.

"Rei…" Max let the hand he'd been using to stoke Rei's face drop to his shoulder. "Rei…" He gently leaned forward and finally caught Rei's real gaze. "Rei…" Max brought his lips slowly down onto Rei's- and gave a one sided kiss to the bed-bound boy. He gave his first kiss to someone who couldn't even kiss back.

"Rei please… Please come back to us… to me…" Max rose up slightly to look at Rei, who was looking at him strongly. "Rei?" Rei let out a delayed moan and let his eyes focus on Max's lips. "You want me to carry on? Well, okay then…" Max kissed Rei again with more confidence, and smiled when Rei moaned deeply, but Rei was still not kissing back.

"Rei, I can't, this just feels too…"

Heavy hands clasped onto Max's back, bringing him back down onto Rei's lips, which kissed back with new found passion. Max's eyes widened in shock- Rei hadn't moved for so long now.

Wanting. Needing. Hands searching under shirts. Lips and tongues clashing together.

Max, you've been here with me all this time…

"Max, can I…I mean can we…"

"You mean…"

"Yeah."

"But I've never… I mean… not that I'm a virgin…no, I mean…"

"I don't care if you are."

"But Rei, won't it…it's gonna…hurt?"

"Only for a little while."

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Rejection is the main reason not many people let themselves fall in love. Rei loved Tala so much, that when he was rejected, he became completely broken.

It is easy to let yourself drown in painful emotions.

The will to carry on is hard to find, but worth the search. I'm not suggesting that 'everyone needs a reason to stay alive', more that- things will only change if you stay alive.

In tarot, there is a card called Death. While the haunting picture of the grim reaper and its title make people think that it's a bad card- the opposite is true. This is mostly a good card to draw.

Death means change. The end of something old, and the start of something new.

While the end of an old relationship might seem like death, there are also new relationships and companionships to look forward to. If we hung on to every old friend- why would we need to make new ones?

"The fate of destruction is also the joy of rebirth"- Evangelion

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Tala

"So three people were in love with you- that's quite impressive!" Dr. Hall took a long slip of lukewarm coffee, while using the other hand to flick through Tala's folder.

"I still don't know why. It's not like I'm anything…"

"Now lets not go down that old road of self-hatred again, Tala." Dr. Hall sighed and put down his mug. "Out of interest, have you been to see Bryan lately?"

"Not since he woke up a few weeks ago. I don't think I could face him awake." Tala looked down at his feet.

"You do know about his memory loss don't you?" He said carefully.

"Yeah…"

"Well I've taken him on now."

"Really!" Tala asked.

"Yes, it seems all he can remember is 'Red'." Dr. Hall raised his hand and pointed at Tala's hair. "I wonder who that could be, huh?"

"What can he remember about…"

"Nothing. And I think its best it stays that way."

"So I can't see him again?" Tala said painfully.

"No. Well, at least for a few years anyway, I'm sending him to Russia when he can walk again. Maybe being in his birth land, will jog his memory."

"I understand, Dr. Hall."

"Moving on- so how are things with Kai?" Dr. Hall smiled knowingly, and laughed when Tala turned red.

"Alright I guess." Muttered Tala in return.

"Sleeping with him?" Dr. Hall asked calmly.

"Err…" Tala wanted to die of embarrassment. "Well, emm… I guess so…"

"Is he good?"

"WHAT?"

"I'm joking, I'm joking." Dr. Hall laughed. "So are you happy now?"

Tala leaned back into his chair and smiled- "Yes"

"Have you stopped cutting now?"

"Yes," Tala almost laughed remembering some of the things he used to do.

"No more one night stands and nightmares about Boris?"

"No, never again."

"Then I think I can let you go now, Tala."

"Really!" Tala's eyes lit up.

"Don't sound too happy to be rid of me! I'd still like to make an appointment for 6 months time, just for a check up. But apart from that- you are now free!"

"Thanks!" Tala stood up ready to take his appointment card to the front desk.

"Wait a moment, Tala," Dr. Hall said seriously. "I'll make sure you know what's happening with Bryan. I'll keep you posted on his condition and progress."

"Thank you."

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There is always light at the end of a dark tunnel.

I got really close to a childhood friend when I was in year 9 (for people in the USA- that is ages 13-14). We were in a band together and would meet frequently, but I never truly knew anything about him. He was always so distant and would never talk about himself, and being so young, I didn't think anything about it.

He would turn up to band beaten up, tired, depressed or stressed out; but I just didn't think anything of it. I was blinded by my misplaced feelings for someone else- and failed to see anyone else's problems.

This guy is where my stories Tala comes from, which makes myself Kai. I only found out about (well… I only noticed) him suffering when he was already too far gone. Nothing I said or did helped him cheer up. It didn't stop the beatings from his father. And it didn't end the nightmares.

And I ended up in love with him, like the fool I am.

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Kai

Kai opened his eyes and was greeted by the soft light of the moon. He hadn't had a dream tonight.

Like to dream

He let out a wistful sigh and gazed towards the window, where his eyes met a beautiful full moon.

Cos when I dream

Kai instantly turned around finding the light mood setting, and looked longingly upon what his eyes met next. The elegant form of the Russian boy. Sleeping.

I'm with you

He slept softly and without movement on his side. The loose sheets clung to his form perfectly, giving Kai a good look at what shape his body had to it.

And you let me do things to you

And like everything else about him, it was perfect.

That I would not normally do

"Thank you god for waking me and letting me witness this scene" Kai thought happily.

You always play and you want me

Even though by now, Kai knew what to expect under Tala's clothes because of their intimacy, Tala still took his breath away when he was asleep.

You never leave my side

And every time Kai saw Tala like this- it just deepened his feelings for the red head.

You'll always be in your prime girl

Kai longed for Tala to wake up and make his dreams become real- or ever better- to pull him into the dream world, where they were the only two people who mattered or even existed.

Just how I remember you

How could he have ever over looked Tala? How could Tala capture his heart like this with out even trying- purely by just being himself? How could he feel this strongly and Tala return his love? Why were the dreams so happy now Tala slept in the same bed?

Lick my wounds

"I love you, Tala." Kai whispered. Tala dreamt about his past at the abbey, about Boris, about Ian, Spencer and…Bryan. He pondered over what Dr. Hall had told him about Bryan and his own condition. And about Kai…

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"Are you happy now?" Came an unknown voice.

"Yes," replied Kai.

"Yes," said Tala.

"Yes," laughed Max.

"Yes, thank you." smiled Rei.

"Yes, as long as I take everyday as it comes, and face the world with honor. Then I can be free…"

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THE END!

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...cries... it's over…. I'm gonna miss writing this! I really hope you enjoyed this story and that you could understand the points I'm trying to make. (probably won't as I ramble a lot.) I'll make sure I start a new epic (heh heh) soon! Please review!

Thank you so much for reading!