one-shot. personally, i always thought that kyo and kagura belonged together. does anybody else think that?
Changing.
It's what I've spent the last four years doing. And other things around me have been changing as well.
He has a girlfriend.
But not Tohru, which I'm both relieved as hell about and a little dissapointed.
Nope, another girl. I guess Tohru just opened him up enough to start with that kind of life. That night, she opened the doors of his life.
And I'm grateful.
I'm not like, jealous bitch girl or anything anymore.
I've been changing, remember?
I've been learning self control. It's hard. But worth it.
I now have the ability to be around him without losing it.
I can hide my feelings.
I can be 'just friends'.
I'm learning. I'm accepting. That he'll never accept me, and that's ok now.
I'm happy that he's found some one else that will care about him, and that he can care for likewise.
I'm happy that it was Tohru that helped him, because he got the acceptance he needed, and now he's alright.
Yeah, now I'm happy.
At least, that's what people think. That's what they see, when they talk to me. That's what I show. And I am happy, and proud, and...ok...
But my feelings for him haven't changed.
I still love him, with all of my heart.
I still cry all the time because he either can't see that I feel so strongely about him, or he really just doesn't feel the same way.
I feel bad all the time because I'm lying to my boyfriend when I tell him I love him the most.
I feel aweful when I feel angry at Tohru, because I know that she meant the best, and I know that that was what needed to happen.
But I still love him.
I don't think I'll ever really stop loving him.
And I wish he could see that.
But he can't.
And so, from now on, people will think that I'm ok, and that I'm over him, and I won't correct them.
Because I love him.
Because I love him...
one day, i hope i can make a long story about them. but for now, just a one-shot. please review.