Chapter 4: Guilt, Sorrow and a New Name.

The Next Day in Susumu's Room-

"Idril, wake up, we need to fix your ankel." Someone said, waking me up.

"Nnn..." I said, opening my eyes to the new day.

"Oh come on sleepy head, you cant stay in bed all day." Susumu said, shaking me violently.

"Ah hell..." I said then flung my body up, my ankel hitting the side of the wall.

"OWW!" I screamed.

"Idril! Still!" Ayumu yelled at me as she came in with a huge thing of sake.
"I need to put this on your wounds, now hold still!"

"Okay Okay!" I yelled holding in the pain from my ankel.

As Ayumu did what she does with wounds, Susumu stood outside.

"Ow! Come on be gentle!" I yelled again, feeling the sake. It felt like alchohal.

"Hold still a lil longa." Ayumu said spilling some sake.

I held still till she finished.

"As you know Im Susumu's elder sister, the names Ayumu." Ayumu bowed her head a little.

"Nice to meet ya." I said.

"There is something I wanted to ask you though." Ayumu said to me.

"Yes?" I asked.

"You like him dont you?" She looked to the side at the door.

"Yea..." I saId blushing a little.

"Ill tell ya one thing, hurt him once, you'll live. Hurt him twice maybe you'll live, hurt him three times, he will kill you. He's done it before, not to girls but to guys." Ayumu informed me.

"To guys?" I raised an eyebrow.

"Yea, to his enemies or his companions." Ayumu stated. "It is how he works and Hijikata has said he could."

"Oh..." I said.

"Idril! Come on!" Susumu yelled from outside.

"Coming!" I yelled back, Ayumu looked at me worriedly.

"I told him I would never do it again, and Im gonna try my best to keep to that." I said to her.
She looke dat me again then I ran out of the room to Susumu.

"I wonder if anyone can keep to that promise." Ayumu said, looking at me run.

Outside-

"What is it?" I asked Susumu, who was leaning against a beam.

"Look" He moved his head to the side, there was a whole pile of snow and Soji and some of the kids from the neighborhood were playing in it.

"Heh, looks like fun, but with my arm like this, I cant even hold a bottle up, let alone go on more missions..." I said, putting a hand on my bad arm, Susumu looked at me, he felt no guilt for what he did, but I felt he did.

"Dont worry about the missions." He said, breathing cold air.

"Hey, you wanna go to my old place?" I asked, looking up at Susumu.

"Uh..sure.." He looked at me.

"K, follow me." I did the tiger seal then disappeared to a near by roof, Susumu doing the same. When I saw him walk by me, I dashed to another roof, heading out of town.
When we got out of reach of the town, I went a little farther, find a largely built house. Susumu followed me inside of it and I shut the door behind me.

"It's big." Susumu said looking around.

"Yea, it was my family's.." I said walking over to the couch.
"My father liked American stuff."

"I can see that." Susumu followed, he plopped on the couch, he seemed to like it cause of the fluffiness to it.

"You like it?" I asked, smiling at him.

"Yea, its comphy." Susumu looked at me then looked sad.

"Hm? is something wrong?" I looked into his eyes. His eyes were darkened and saddened, he looked at him then opened his mouth to say something but nothing came out.
"Susumu...your scaring me, please say something..." I asked, I moved a hand to his but he pulled away.

"Please, dont touch these tainted hands, I dont want your beautiful skin tainted from them." Susumu said to me, his eyes looking down and to the side.

"Susumu...what are you talking about?" I asked, my eyes shaking a little, I reached out for his hand again but he slapped it away.

"Please..." He said, my hand finally getting ahold of his.
"You dont want to be with someone like me, someone who would hurt you." His clouded black eyes looking into my blue ones.

"But I dont care...I dont care if you've killed people or have hurt me, Im wiling to risk my life for you, I..." I leaned closer him doing the same, our lips touching, tounges rolling over one another.
As we kissed, he put his hand on the back of my head, running his hand through my golden blonde hair. My hands went around his body, hugging him.
When we broke from the kiss, wet drops of water started going down my neck. My eyes went to the side, I pulled away to see Susumu crying.

"Please dont cry..." I spoke quietly, I put my arms around him, his head leaning on my chest.
"When your sad, listening to the sound of someone's heart, can help comfort you."

Susumu just cried into my chest, it getting softer and quieter.

"Do you feel better?" I asked, leaning my head on his.

He just nodded his head. He eventually lifted his head up and looked at me, his eyes like puppy dogs.
"Thank you, love."

"Your welcome." I said then layed my head on his again.

"Your acting like my mother..." Susumu softly said, putting his arms around my waist and pulling me close.
"I think...that's why I love you so, because you care for me and dont care about the concequenses."

"Ive never cared about concequeses before, so Im not gonna start now." I said closing my eyes slightly.

"Idril, let me look at your arm..." He looked up at me, I nodded. Taking my left arm, and gently undoing the wrappings and putting them to the side. My arm was badly scared from the kunai and was still bleeding a little.
"Does it still hurt?" He asked, looking at my arm still.

"Yes, just a little." I winced.

"Im sorry...I promise...I promise I wont ever do that again." Susumu looked at me sadly.

"It's alright...but you might have to again..." I said to him.

"Yea..." He said.

"But Im used to it so dont worry." I smiled slightly.

"I know, but I still feel horrible." Susumu said.

"I will stay by your side forever, not matter what happens." I said then leaned back onto the couch, Susumu leaned on my stumach and chest.

"Sleepy?" He asked me.

"Yea, just a bit." I said then pushed him off and layed on him.

"Heh, am I comphy?" Susumu smiled then laughed a little.

"Yeah." I smirked then closed my eyes and cuddled close to him. He put his arms around my body, holding me close to him.

"We both deserve some sleep today, just sleep, my love." Susumu looked down at me and smiled.

"Okay, night Susumy..." I said smiling then falling asleep to his chest going up and down from him breathing.

"Heh, Ayumu's gonna get a kick out of that name." Susumu smiled then closed his eyes, falling asleep as well.

That Night-

As the moon brightly shinned in the sky, the who ninja lay asleep on the couch.

Shinsengumi, Hijikata's room-

"I didnt want to hurt him, but I couldnt resist." Hijikata looked at the moon from his room.

"Mr. Hijikata, did you like it?" Soji asked, looking at the long black haired man who sat before him.

"You know, part of me did, and Im sorry Soji." Hijikata looked back at Soji who was just smiling a little at him.

Thanks and Review please! Ill try to have 6-7 up by this weekend!