********HERMIONE********
I awoke,and was SO ever so relieve to see Elan,after being in the darkness for what seemed like hours upon hours but in reality was only a few hours.
I felt tears well in my eyes as I hugged Elan,Greg,Harry,Ginny,Mary and Leanne.I was so happy,so blessed.Madame Promfrey was utterly shocked by my speedy recovery and gave me a hug before leaving,whispering softly.
I found out that Parkinson didn't lose her baby,why though?I looked expectantly at Greg,who was trying to look away,pretending to be engaged in a conversation about how Parkinson deserved it.
Then I recalled a point during the activity,where Greg lagged behind,I was suprised but decided he was just a slow flyer.He was the one.He cast a protective charm or bubble around me,that cushioned my fall together with Parkinson,he prevented her from losing her baby,but that was unintentionally,he wanted to protect me.
I thanked him silently.If Parkinson had lost her baby because of me,I would have felt terrible,more then terrible,I would have immense guilt inside of me.
I wanted to see how she was,yet I didn't want to go over,so when Madame Promfrey undrew her curtians,I was quite relieved because I could see her.Then she hugged him,and he hugged her right back,there were tears in her eyes,but a smile on her lips.
My heart,whatever remained of it,smashed into little little pieces,so small,but yet so painful.He had hugged her right back.What happened to his argument that he didn't love her?Everything went out of the window.Greg noticed my expression,and just placed a comforting hand on my shoulder,Harry and Ginny suddenly were silent,they smiled comfortingly to me,and Ginny had tears in her eyes when she left,with Harry's arm around her,Mary and Leanne hugging her.
I was left there with Greg and Elan,after awhile,Madame Promfrey drew the curtian around Parkinson's bed,and threw Malfoy out,shrieking that she needed to check her again to make sure she is alright before letting her leave.I quickly looked away once the curtains were drawn,I did not want Malfoy to see me staring,why should I be staring?
I shook my head,and played with Elan asking Greg to draw the curtians.We laughed and talked,they brought true smiles to my face.I felt alot happier after they left,and the curtians were undrawn.The Malfoys were long gone already,with Malfoy helping Parkinson out.
I laid back in pillow,my head ached,I felt terrible.Inside and outside...Why would he comfort and hug her,when she almost killed me,the one he said he loved?I felt both jealous and yet envious.He cared about her.I know I have many people who care about me,but it didn't stop me from feeling envious.They were a family now with Parkinson's pregnancy.What am I to Malfoy any more?Would he ever think of me?Would he ever ever care anymore?
*******DRACO*******
I broke off after a long hug to Pansy.She really loved me.But I knew Hermione saw it all,yet she pretended she didn't,and talked to Smith and played with Elan after the Potters left.
I felt guilty.Extremly guilty.How could I hurt her again..But I could not just leave Pansy there could I?Later Madame Promfrey said Pansy could be released from the hospital,so I brought her back into the room.
She smiled and looked truly happy.
"Thanks Drake.." she says softly,her face smiling and radiant.I shake my head,"Why thank me Pansy?I didn't do anything." I replied."For forgiving me,for understanding.I just wanted to be important to you..I never wanted to harm the baby at all.." she said,her eyes were filling with tears again.
I griped her around the shoulders firmly."Pansy stop.Just don't ever do something like that again." I said and after getting a nod from her,I left quickly.I wanted to go to the hospital wing again and see her.And so I did.
The hospital wing was empty and Madame Promfrey was eating her dinner.I went to Hermione's bed,she was awake,immediately she sat up and stared at me.
"What do you want Mr.Malfoy?" she said,coldly and civilly.I sighed and sat down beside her."I'm sorry that Pansy did something like that.Are you okay?" I apologized and was really worried.Hermione's eyes blazed,but her tone was calm and polite,though traces of bitterness were found."I'm fine thank you."she replied,not looking at me,but reading her magazine.
I couldn't take it.She didn't trust me anymore.She doesn't believe me.I pushed her magazine down softly,causing her to glare right at me."Hermione,come on,I never expected her to do something like this-"I was interrupted. "So you are okay that she tried to kill me then Malfoy?Whats her wonderful explanation then?" she said this time not bothering to hide her anger.
"Hermione,the explanation is not wonderful.Nor is it reasonable,she says that she just wants to be important to me.Meaning she just did it for attention sakes.I still love you.I hope you do know that." I said,explaining.Hermione's eyes softened,but they became cold and bitter again.
"I may have almost fallen for your explanation if Parkinson wasn't pregnant.Now she is,what ever are you going to do Malfoy?Maybe that hug explained it all." she replied coldy.Fallen?She still is in love with me.
That stunned me.She still loved me.I was elated!
"Hermione!You still love me don't you?" I asked,griping her around the shoulders.She looked up,her eyes were teary."I did love you.Did.Malfoy,Did.Then that hug threw it all away.." she said calmly,before she told me that she needed rest..I was rooted to the spot.
'I did love you.Did Malfoy.Did.THen that hug threw it all away..',her words rang in my ears.I never realized the true extend of the pain I inflicted on her till those words came out of my mouth.What would I do?I still loved her.I didn't leave.
"Hermione,what could I do?She was traumatized,and hugged me.I felt touched and I just hugged her.Please understand that I still love you." I said.She looked me in the eye."Malfoy,touched is not a good word to use in front of me.Do you imply that she has gone through much more then me?Do you know the feeling of being ostracized when I had Elan?Do you know the awkwardness of being asked 'Where's the father' everytime people see Elan?Do you know the pain I went through,when I was in labour?With no one beside me.Malfoy,I have gone through hell alone.And I foolishly thought maybe Malfoy will take me back during that night chat we had.Then everything when out of the window.Touched Malfoy.Touched.."she laughed bitterly.
I couldn't reply.I was stumped.Her gaze made me feel so unworthy."Please 'Mione.I'm sorry for everything.But I did it to protect you from Voldermort.And I was going to break the relationship but....
I awoke,and was SO ever so relieve to see Elan,after being in the darkness for what seemed like hours upon hours but in reality was only a few hours.
I felt tears well in my eyes as I hugged Elan,Greg,Harry,Ginny,Mary and Leanne.I was so happy,so blessed.Madame Promfrey was utterly shocked by my speedy recovery and gave me a hug before leaving,whispering softly.
I found out that Parkinson didn't lose her baby,why though?I looked expectantly at Greg,who was trying to look away,pretending to be engaged in a conversation about how Parkinson deserved it.
Then I recalled a point during the activity,where Greg lagged behind,I was suprised but decided he was just a slow flyer.He was the one.He cast a protective charm or bubble around me,that cushioned my fall together with Parkinson,he prevented her from losing her baby,but that was unintentionally,he wanted to protect me.
I thanked him silently.If Parkinson had lost her baby because of me,I would have felt terrible,more then terrible,I would have immense guilt inside of me.
I wanted to see how she was,yet I didn't want to go over,so when Madame Promfrey undrew her curtians,I was quite relieved because I could see her.Then she hugged him,and he hugged her right back,there were tears in her eyes,but a smile on her lips.
My heart,whatever remained of it,smashed into little little pieces,so small,but yet so painful.He had hugged her right back.What happened to his argument that he didn't love her?Everything went out of the window.Greg noticed my expression,and just placed a comforting hand on my shoulder,Harry and Ginny suddenly were silent,they smiled comfortingly to me,and Ginny had tears in her eyes when she left,with Harry's arm around her,Mary and Leanne hugging her.
I was left there with Greg and Elan,after awhile,Madame Promfrey drew the curtian around Parkinson's bed,and threw Malfoy out,shrieking that she needed to check her again to make sure she is alright before letting her leave.I quickly looked away once the curtains were drawn,I did not want Malfoy to see me staring,why should I be staring?
I shook my head,and played with Elan asking Greg to draw the curtians.We laughed and talked,they brought true smiles to my face.I felt alot happier after they left,and the curtians were undrawn.The Malfoys were long gone already,with Malfoy helping Parkinson out.
I laid back in pillow,my head ached,I felt terrible.Inside and outside...Why would he comfort and hug her,when she almost killed me,the one he said he loved?I felt both jealous and yet envious.He cared about her.I know I have many people who care about me,but it didn't stop me from feeling envious.They were a family now with Parkinson's pregnancy.What am I to Malfoy any more?Would he ever think of me?Would he ever ever care anymore?
*******DRACO*******
I broke off after a long hug to Pansy.She really loved me.But I knew Hermione saw it all,yet she pretended she didn't,and talked to Smith and played with Elan after the Potters left.
I felt guilty.Extremly guilty.How could I hurt her again..But I could not just leave Pansy there could I?Later Madame Promfrey said Pansy could be released from the hospital,so I brought her back into the room.
She smiled and looked truly happy.
"Thanks Drake.." she says softly,her face smiling and radiant.I shake my head,"Why thank me Pansy?I didn't do anything." I replied."For forgiving me,for understanding.I just wanted to be important to you..I never wanted to harm the baby at all.." she said,her eyes were filling with tears again.
I griped her around the shoulders firmly."Pansy stop.Just don't ever do something like that again." I said and after getting a nod from her,I left quickly.I wanted to go to the hospital wing again and see her.And so I did.
The hospital wing was empty and Madame Promfrey was eating her dinner.I went to Hermione's bed,she was awake,immediately she sat up and stared at me.
"What do you want Mr.Malfoy?" she said,coldly and civilly.I sighed and sat down beside her."I'm sorry that Pansy did something like that.Are you okay?" I apologized and was really worried.Hermione's eyes blazed,but her tone was calm and polite,though traces of bitterness were found."I'm fine thank you."she replied,not looking at me,but reading her magazine.
I couldn't take it.She didn't trust me anymore.She doesn't believe me.I pushed her magazine down softly,causing her to glare right at me."Hermione,come on,I never expected her to do something like this-"I was interrupted. "So you are okay that she tried to kill me then Malfoy?Whats her wonderful explanation then?" she said this time not bothering to hide her anger.
"Hermione,the explanation is not wonderful.Nor is it reasonable,she says that she just wants to be important to me.Meaning she just did it for attention sakes.I still love you.I hope you do know that." I said,explaining.Hermione's eyes softened,but they became cold and bitter again.
"I may have almost fallen for your explanation if Parkinson wasn't pregnant.Now she is,what ever are you going to do Malfoy?Maybe that hug explained it all." she replied coldy.Fallen?She still is in love with me.
That stunned me.She still loved me.I was elated!
"Hermione!You still love me don't you?" I asked,griping her around the shoulders.She looked up,her eyes were teary."I did love you.Did.Malfoy,Did.Then that hug threw it all away.." she said calmly,before she told me that she needed rest..I was rooted to the spot.
'I did love you.Did Malfoy.Did.THen that hug threw it all away..',her words rang in my ears.I never realized the true extend of the pain I inflicted on her till those words came out of my mouth.What would I do?I still loved her.I didn't leave.
"Hermione,what could I do?She was traumatized,and hugged me.I felt touched and I just hugged her.Please understand that I still love you." I said.She looked me in the eye."Malfoy,touched is not a good word to use in front of me.Do you imply that she has gone through much more then me?Do you know the feeling of being ostracized when I had Elan?Do you know the awkwardness of being asked 'Where's the father' everytime people see Elan?Do you know the pain I went through,when I was in labour?With no one beside me.Malfoy,I have gone through hell alone.And I foolishly thought maybe Malfoy will take me back during that night chat we had.Then everything when out of the window.Touched Malfoy.Touched.."she laughed bitterly.
I couldn't reply.I was stumped.Her gaze made me feel so unworthy."Please 'Mione.I'm sorry for everything.But I did it to protect you from Voldermort.And I was going to break the relationship but....