TO ALL REVIEWERS: A/N NOTE TO REVIEWERS TO COME ON THIS SATURDAY,SORRY,BUT
WRITING PERSONAL NOTES TO ALL IS REALLY TIRING! ANYWAY THANKS FOR YOUR
WONDERFUL REVIEWS!!!!!!...I THINK YOU GUYS WILL HATE PARKINSON EVEN
MORE.COS' NOW I HATE HATE HATE HER.
******DRACO************
I still cannot believe what Pansy did.I'm back in the Head Room,she is lying on the bed,sleeping peacefully.Its hard to believe that barely an hour ago she wanted to kill herself,and I went down and pleaded with her,lied to her,everything I did was fake.
I told her I loved her,when I loved another,I swore and promised her,when inside I have broken the promise.I saw Hermione being helped away by Smith.My heart dashed and broke into pieces,every thing good about that day went out of the window,trashed,finished.
How could I hurt her again..She'll never trust me again,she never ever will trust me again.Sucide..Hah.Such a stupid trick yet I,Draco Malfoy,fell for it.
To see Smith's arm around her guiding her was tortourous.At one point I wished the floor would just swallow me up.The professors did nothing but comfort Pansy,yet only McGonagall and Dumbledore noticed my pained expression,because I was unwilling.
Unwilling to love Pansy,unwilling to commit to her.I married her yes,and was touched.But I am an idiot.I should have never left Hermione,stuck to her,and never let Smith come near her.I failed in all three aspects.Firstly,I broke off with her,wanting to protect her,but in reality,hurt her more that a Cruciatus Curse would.Secondly,I didn't stick by her when she had my only son Elan,nor when she went through being an outcast,being ostracized.No one was really there with her except Gregory Movan Smith,the third area where I failed.He got close to her after she made friends with him.He loves her.I can see that,he cares for her,Elan treats him like a father.
He had everything I wanted.Hermione,Elan everything.How could I stand there and just watch her being wrenched away from me?But I did.I let him get closer with every failure I made,with every blunder and every shrewed manner,he took her slowly away.
She came right back to me,but now she is again,long gone from me.What will I do...What can I do?I love her and Elan more then anything in the world.I know she does,but Pansy is that metal wall inbetween us,while I fight to get over it,she doesn't.I'm weak.I let emotion get to me,I should never have given in,and love Hermione with all my heart.
Pansy turns now,tossing a little,then suddenly her eyes opened.
"Draco,why aren't you sleeping?" she asked,before placing her arms around me.I smiled wanly,not wanted to disrupt her and agitate her,or not she might just slit her wrists.
"No,its nothing Pansy,d-dear.."I spat the word out,shivering at the thought,Snape had pulled me aside,whispering that Pansy needs my care more then ever and ignited the guilt inside of me,just tonight I told myself,just tonight I'll be nicer.
Pansy perked up at the sound of the d-word,something which I'm sure I will use every damn day if I had Hermione."Oh..Go sleep though,tomorrow's another day."she said softly,before kissing me lightly on the lips.I didn't respond,but she just went ahead and slept.
The touch of her lips made me feel fury inside,made me yearn for Hermione even more.I couldn't hate Pansy,but I could resent her.I do,and will always because of the seperation from Hermione,because of my son bouncing on Smith's knee.
*****NEXT MORNING******
I woke up once I saw the sun shine,I hadn't slept a wink all night.Pansy was sleeping soundly,but looks could be decieving,still,I got out of bed,wrapped my robe around my shoulders and walked to the bathroom.
By the time I finished washing up,Pansy was already up.She was sitting on the bed,with her robe around her shoulders,reading Witch Weekly.She looked up and smiled as I walked in.I smiled wanly,before asking her;"Are you going down to breakfast now or do you want me to wait for you?" I asked civilly.
"Oh,go ahead first,I'm still reading this wonderful article in Witch Weekly."She said,smiling widely.I nodded curtly and walked off,musing about the one I cannot have.
As I entered the great hall,I saw her sitting with Elan at the Gryffindor Table,Elan was eating slowly.Since it was only 7 in the morning,the entire school still seemed to be in a slumber except the three of us.A family.As that thought crossed my mind,a smile lit my face up.I walked over,knowing that I was safe because Pansy was showering,and sat down.
Immediately Hermione's eyes flicked towards me,her eyes were emotionless,and her face calm.Elan smiled and waved at me,something which I returned."What do you want Malfoy?" she asked,her voice cold."I need to talk to you privately Hermione." I said clearly.
Hermione glared daggers at me,but still asked Elan to eat while she talks to me privately.
"What's his full name?" I asked out of curiousity.She looked at me,eyebrowns raised,but replied."Elan Alexand're Smith,and whats that to you?" she retorted.
I was hurt."Not Malfoy?" I asked,this time I was a little apprehensive about the response.Hermione looked at me straight in the eye."Smith is a cover up.Its written as Elan Alexand're Draco Malfoy.Happy now?Can I leave?" she said,admitting it.I smiled,"Wonderful name." I replied,dreamily."Well,are you done yet Malfoy?Can I leave?And besides,even though Malfoy is his name,I have long taken that his father is dead."she said coldly,her words were stung with scarsm.I flinched.
"I know I hurt you time and time again,and that you are definitely not pleased about what happened yesterday night.But Hermione,I might have sworn,but I truly didn't believe that vow,nor really take it seriously.It was just too sudden,I just wanted to get her down from the tower."I said,pleading and explaining.Hermione looked slightly mollified,but it didn't stop her from retorting.
"I may believe that Malfoy,but if Parkinson is going to be like that 24/7,then the 'reunion' is dead.Our relationship is back to hell.Dead.Period.You go back to the pregnant Parkinson and live your life with your wife,and I'll live mine with Elan." she said,refering to our blessed short reunion in the hospital wing.
******DRACO************
I still cannot believe what Pansy did.I'm back in the Head Room,she is lying on the bed,sleeping peacefully.Its hard to believe that barely an hour ago she wanted to kill herself,and I went down and pleaded with her,lied to her,everything I did was fake.
I told her I loved her,when I loved another,I swore and promised her,when inside I have broken the promise.I saw Hermione being helped away by Smith.My heart dashed and broke into pieces,every thing good about that day went out of the window,trashed,finished.
How could I hurt her again..She'll never trust me again,she never ever will trust me again.Sucide..Hah.Such a stupid trick yet I,Draco Malfoy,fell for it.
To see Smith's arm around her guiding her was tortourous.At one point I wished the floor would just swallow me up.The professors did nothing but comfort Pansy,yet only McGonagall and Dumbledore noticed my pained expression,because I was unwilling.
Unwilling to love Pansy,unwilling to commit to her.I married her yes,and was touched.But I am an idiot.I should have never left Hermione,stuck to her,and never let Smith come near her.I failed in all three aspects.Firstly,I broke off with her,wanting to protect her,but in reality,hurt her more that a Cruciatus Curse would.Secondly,I didn't stick by her when she had my only son Elan,nor when she went through being an outcast,being ostracized.No one was really there with her except Gregory Movan Smith,the third area where I failed.He got close to her after she made friends with him.He loves her.I can see that,he cares for her,Elan treats him like a father.
He had everything I wanted.Hermione,Elan everything.How could I stand there and just watch her being wrenched away from me?But I did.I let him get closer with every failure I made,with every blunder and every shrewed manner,he took her slowly away.
She came right back to me,but now she is again,long gone from me.What will I do...What can I do?I love her and Elan more then anything in the world.I know she does,but Pansy is that metal wall inbetween us,while I fight to get over it,she doesn't.I'm weak.I let emotion get to me,I should never have given in,and love Hermione with all my heart.
Pansy turns now,tossing a little,then suddenly her eyes opened.
"Draco,why aren't you sleeping?" she asked,before placing her arms around me.I smiled wanly,not wanted to disrupt her and agitate her,or not she might just slit her wrists.
"No,its nothing Pansy,d-dear.."I spat the word out,shivering at the thought,Snape had pulled me aside,whispering that Pansy needs my care more then ever and ignited the guilt inside of me,just tonight I told myself,just tonight I'll be nicer.
Pansy perked up at the sound of the d-word,something which I'm sure I will use every damn day if I had Hermione."Oh..Go sleep though,tomorrow's another day."she said softly,before kissing me lightly on the lips.I didn't respond,but she just went ahead and slept.
The touch of her lips made me feel fury inside,made me yearn for Hermione even more.I couldn't hate Pansy,but I could resent her.I do,and will always because of the seperation from Hermione,because of my son bouncing on Smith's knee.
*****NEXT MORNING******
I woke up once I saw the sun shine,I hadn't slept a wink all night.Pansy was sleeping soundly,but looks could be decieving,still,I got out of bed,wrapped my robe around my shoulders and walked to the bathroom.
By the time I finished washing up,Pansy was already up.She was sitting on the bed,with her robe around her shoulders,reading Witch Weekly.She looked up and smiled as I walked in.I smiled wanly,before asking her;"Are you going down to breakfast now or do you want me to wait for you?" I asked civilly.
"Oh,go ahead first,I'm still reading this wonderful article in Witch Weekly."She said,smiling widely.I nodded curtly and walked off,musing about the one I cannot have.
As I entered the great hall,I saw her sitting with Elan at the Gryffindor Table,Elan was eating slowly.Since it was only 7 in the morning,the entire school still seemed to be in a slumber except the three of us.A family.As that thought crossed my mind,a smile lit my face up.I walked over,knowing that I was safe because Pansy was showering,and sat down.
Immediately Hermione's eyes flicked towards me,her eyes were emotionless,and her face calm.Elan smiled and waved at me,something which I returned."What do you want Malfoy?" she asked,her voice cold."I need to talk to you privately Hermione." I said clearly.
Hermione glared daggers at me,but still asked Elan to eat while she talks to me privately.
"What's his full name?" I asked out of curiousity.She looked at me,eyebrowns raised,but replied."Elan Alexand're Smith,and whats that to you?" she retorted.
I was hurt."Not Malfoy?" I asked,this time I was a little apprehensive about the response.Hermione looked at me straight in the eye."Smith is a cover up.Its written as Elan Alexand're Draco Malfoy.Happy now?Can I leave?" she said,admitting it.I smiled,"Wonderful name." I replied,dreamily."Well,are you done yet Malfoy?Can I leave?And besides,even though Malfoy is his name,I have long taken that his father is dead."she said coldly,her words were stung with scarsm.I flinched.
"I know I hurt you time and time again,and that you are definitely not pleased about what happened yesterday night.But Hermione,I might have sworn,but I truly didn't believe that vow,nor really take it seriously.It was just too sudden,I just wanted to get her down from the tower."I said,pleading and explaining.Hermione looked slightly mollified,but it didn't stop her from retorting.
"I may believe that Malfoy,but if Parkinson is going to be like that 24/7,then the 'reunion' is dead.Our relationship is back to hell.Dead.Period.You go back to the pregnant Parkinson and live your life with your wife,and I'll live mine with Elan." she said,refering to our blessed short reunion in the hospital wing.