NOTE TO ALL READERS: I am so so sos osososososoososososososo SORRRY.That I
didn't update and left you guys hanging there!Apologies!I have been in a
state of mal-funtion,after my mid-year exams I was away with my
grandparents on this holiday that lasted twelve days with NO internet
acess.Really sorry.Well,here is chapter 21,followed closely by chapter 22
which I will post soon!
HERMIONE
As Malfoy-no-Draco,hugged me tight,I felt frightened.Yes,frightened.The thought of once returning to his arms,the same arms that had betrayed me almost 5 years ago,was terrifying.
Thoughts whirled into my mind,confused,betrayed,happiness,sadness,joy.Those were the clear emotions in me.I was betrayed by this dashing man,but still inside,though I told myself I would never,I knew I could forgive him.
Forgiveness is what he begged for.But could I really forgive and forget?I didn't trust myself anymore,I didn't trust my wild thoughts anymore.Why should I give up everything that I have now?When my life is finally stable,when no worry or suspicion raved my mind.Should I let that all go and return once more to a hectic and adrenaline rushed life?Should I let a man who has been by my side faithfully,silently,helping me without a motive;should I let him down?
The most important question I asked myself was: Should I rob my son of a great step-father?
As I pulled away gently from the hug,questions raged inside me.Seeing Draco's soft smile,as he watched me,I was just so confused.Emotions non- withstanding,I ran.
Hearing his fustrated yells of 'Hermione!' as I ran past old friends,as I ran past Harry and Ginny,back right up to my room.Elan and Greg were at Hogsmeade,that I knew well of.I locked the door impusively,and sat back in my bed,utterly shaken.
I cried.
I cried for all the unstability in my life,for how screwed things had turned out to be,for how disorganised my life was.I was just this wandering soul,with a young son,not knowing where to turn or who to follow.My life was what I believed to be wrecked.
As I poured my tears out in buckets,I heard a soft rapping at the door.Thinking it was Draco,I did not answer,but to my surprise,a soft gentle female voice,one so comforting and familiar,spoke.
"Hermione?Hermione,its Professor McGonagall,please open the door."
I was shocked.My school professor?Thinking that she probably wanted to talk to me about my present scheduele,I hastily wiped my eyes and opened the door.
And there she stood.Minerva McGonagall,one of the best teachers in Hogwarts,wearing her black velvet cloak,black hat and round glasses.Professor McGonagall,came in wordlessly,startled at my really matted appearance.
She took my hand and led me to the bed,where she sat down next to me,and asked: "Hermione,is everything quite alright?With Gregory and Elan?",I was surprised at her intentions,but nevertheless,I shook my head.She offered a listening ear,and I borrowed it.Afterall,after the deaths of my parents,I took to Professor McGonagall,as my 'mother'.I told her about Draco and I,about how I still hanker over his love,how I was so insecure about things now,and I also told her about my sudden desire to leave Greg.
Professor McGonagall listened carefully,remaining silent till I finished.Then she spoke.
"Hermione,honestly,I think that you should not throw Gregory's love for you away so easily.Mr.Malfoy may be the father of Elan,but he has not really played a part in Elan's life,while Greg is like the pillar in Greg's life.It may not be wise to take that pillar away from your son and place a completely ailen pillar in its place.I also cautioned that no matter how high both you and Mr.Malfoy's emotions are,take haste in the fact that his wife is pregnant.Mrs.Malfoy is nearing 5 months of pregnancy,and there is no promise that Mr.Malfoy will divorce her.Bless her baby,for its future is harsh and undecided.",Professor McGonagall paused,and she waved her wand,sending 2 cups of tea with a glass table,up to the bed.
"Another caution,Hermione.Your reunion at Hogwarts has only two days left.So make up your mind quickly Hermione.2 days may seem like its too short.But believe me,its not a short period of time at all.",Professor McGonagall finished,looking at me with her intense gaze.
I understood.
For the good of my life and my son,I told Professor that I would stay with Greg.I knew that that was the safest path for a mother and child,to take shelter under a man.Draco,no matter how much I still love him,is as stable as a ship in a wild storm.It was just too risky.
Some risk it all for the sake of love,I admire that.Because I know that I'll never be able to risk it all,for the sake of love.
HERMIONE
As Malfoy-no-Draco,hugged me tight,I felt frightened.Yes,frightened.The thought of once returning to his arms,the same arms that had betrayed me almost 5 years ago,was terrifying.
Thoughts whirled into my mind,confused,betrayed,happiness,sadness,joy.Those were the clear emotions in me.I was betrayed by this dashing man,but still inside,though I told myself I would never,I knew I could forgive him.
Forgiveness is what he begged for.But could I really forgive and forget?I didn't trust myself anymore,I didn't trust my wild thoughts anymore.Why should I give up everything that I have now?When my life is finally stable,when no worry or suspicion raved my mind.Should I let that all go and return once more to a hectic and adrenaline rushed life?Should I let a man who has been by my side faithfully,silently,helping me without a motive;should I let him down?
The most important question I asked myself was: Should I rob my son of a great step-father?
As I pulled away gently from the hug,questions raged inside me.Seeing Draco's soft smile,as he watched me,I was just so confused.Emotions non- withstanding,I ran.
Hearing his fustrated yells of 'Hermione!' as I ran past old friends,as I ran past Harry and Ginny,back right up to my room.Elan and Greg were at Hogsmeade,that I knew well of.I locked the door impusively,and sat back in my bed,utterly shaken.
I cried.
I cried for all the unstability in my life,for how screwed things had turned out to be,for how disorganised my life was.I was just this wandering soul,with a young son,not knowing where to turn or who to follow.My life was what I believed to be wrecked.
As I poured my tears out in buckets,I heard a soft rapping at the door.Thinking it was Draco,I did not answer,but to my surprise,a soft gentle female voice,one so comforting and familiar,spoke.
"Hermione?Hermione,its Professor McGonagall,please open the door."
I was shocked.My school professor?Thinking that she probably wanted to talk to me about my present scheduele,I hastily wiped my eyes and opened the door.
And there she stood.Minerva McGonagall,one of the best teachers in Hogwarts,wearing her black velvet cloak,black hat and round glasses.Professor McGonagall,came in wordlessly,startled at my really matted appearance.
She took my hand and led me to the bed,where she sat down next to me,and asked: "Hermione,is everything quite alright?With Gregory and Elan?",I was surprised at her intentions,but nevertheless,I shook my head.She offered a listening ear,and I borrowed it.Afterall,after the deaths of my parents,I took to Professor McGonagall,as my 'mother'.I told her about Draco and I,about how I still hanker over his love,how I was so insecure about things now,and I also told her about my sudden desire to leave Greg.
Professor McGonagall listened carefully,remaining silent till I finished.Then she spoke.
"Hermione,honestly,I think that you should not throw Gregory's love for you away so easily.Mr.Malfoy may be the father of Elan,but he has not really played a part in Elan's life,while Greg is like the pillar in Greg's life.It may not be wise to take that pillar away from your son and place a completely ailen pillar in its place.I also cautioned that no matter how high both you and Mr.Malfoy's emotions are,take haste in the fact that his wife is pregnant.Mrs.Malfoy is nearing 5 months of pregnancy,and there is no promise that Mr.Malfoy will divorce her.Bless her baby,for its future is harsh and undecided.",Professor McGonagall paused,and she waved her wand,sending 2 cups of tea with a glass table,up to the bed.
"Another caution,Hermione.Your reunion at Hogwarts has only two days left.So make up your mind quickly Hermione.2 days may seem like its too short.But believe me,its not a short period of time at all.",Professor McGonagall finished,looking at me with her intense gaze.
I understood.
For the good of my life and my son,I told Professor that I would stay with Greg.I knew that that was the safest path for a mother and child,to take shelter under a man.Draco,no matter how much I still love him,is as stable as a ship in a wild storm.It was just too risky.
Some risk it all for the sake of love,I admire that.Because I know that I'll never be able to risk it all,for the sake of love.