Chapter 4
Tim walks to the front door and knocks. Jill answers in her ratty old bathrobe. She is surprised at her visitor and a little flustered to have him standing in front of her. They hadn't seen each other since she ran out of the restaurant; they had talked on the phone briefly when he would call to talk to the boys. He ached to hold her in his arms and tell her how much he loved her; she looked beautiful even in her bathrobe. Shaking those thoughts away he said "Jill, we need to talk." Jill was distracted by how wonderful he looked and took a while to answer, "What about." "Can I come in? This isn't really something we can talk about in the doorway." He asked. "Sorry, sure, come on in." She replied. "What's up?" Jill asks. "You look good." Tim said back. "Tim why are you here?" She asked but thinking the same thing about him. "Something has come up and I thought you should hear it from me first." Tim says. "What now?" Jill asks. "Jill I just want you to know how terrible I feel and how I know this whole thing has torn you up and I know that you may never forgive me or trust me again. The thought of that just rips me up inside because I have only ever loved you and I know I will never love another." Jill interrupts him "Tim what is this about." Tim continues "Well there seems to have been another development from that horrible night. It seems that, well I guess I should say, you know sometimes." Trying to speed things up Jill says "Tim what are you trying to say?" Again Tim continues "There is no easy way for me to say this Jill, so I am just going to come right out and say it Kelly is pregnant." Speechless and shocked Jill turns away from Tim to hide her feelings. Tim knows that she is upset and says "Jill, are you ok?" She looks back at him with tears in her eyes and says, "Are you sure it is your child?" Tim replies "That is what she said. Why would she lie to me?" Jill asks, "I just want to know how is that possible you had a vasectomy." "I guess they are not 100 foolproof. Wasn't that one of the possibilities the doctor told us." Tim says. Jill looks at him bewildered and says "Are you sure you can trust her? Tim I have been thinking a lot about what happened and I find it extremely strange that you don't remember anything. I know you remember kissing her and laying her down but that is as far as your memory goes." "What does that have to do with anything." Tim asks. "Nothing, I guess I was just thinking and hoping that maybe nothing really happened but with this new development I guess that is no longer a possibility." Jill says. Tim looks at her and wonders if what she is saying could be true. Did Kelly just make up the whole thing, but he was in her bed and he was naked. Of course he doesn't remember anything after saying I love you so much Jill but why would anyone make up something like that. Kelly knew it would destroy his marriage. When Tim looked at Jill he saw her staring back at him, he could feel the love coming from her. She sees him looking at her and turns away embarrassed that she was caught staring. Tim walks over to her and puts his hand on her arm, she slowly looks at him and he can see the tears forming in her eyes. "Please don't cry Jill." Tim says and continues "I know this will all come out ok and we will be together again." Jill says, "I wish I could be that confidant." Tim wraps his arms around her and she melts into him, he has wished for this moment for the last month and here it was. Jill pulls away and says, "I think it is time for you to go now, before I do something I might regret." Tim tries to give her a kiss but she turns her head. He then turns to leave the house and says, "I am going to get you back. I promise." After he is gone Jill says to herself "I'm not so sure that I can let that happen anymore."
The next day Kelly is surprised with a visit from Tim. "You have finally come to your senses have you." She says. Tim looks at her and says "I am not sure how many more times I can tell you I love my wife and I will get her back. There is one thing though that I have been thinking about, it is impossible for me to have fathered your child. I had a vasectomy last year." Shocked Kelly says, "Well those are not always foolproof. Right?" Tim says, "You should know if the baby you are carrying is mine. Another thing that is bothering me Bits and pieces about that night keep coming back to me and I was wondering why would you continue to make love to me when I called you by my wife's name?" Looking flustered Kelly says, "What are you talking about?" Tim says, "Well I have a memory of telling Jill how much I loved her. But Jill wasn't there it was you and then the next thing I remember is waking up without my clothes on in your bed." Getting angry Kelly says, "Whether you like it or not you are the father to my child what you do about it is your choice." Realizing that he has made her angry Tim apologizes and before leaving he says, "I have a responsibility to this child and will support it any way I can." After he leaves Kelly looks out the window and to herself says, "Oh Tim if you only knew."
That afternoon at work Al confronts Tim with what he overheard the day before. Al says "Tim, I wanted to talk to you about this last night but you came home so late. I overheard your conversation yesterday with Kelly. I want you to know that although disappointed that you did that to Jill I will help you through this in whatever way you need." Al gives Tim a hug and Tim makes a grimace face and pulls him off. Tim says, "Al you don't know the whole story." Since Al knew about Kelly he decided to confide in him what had happened that night in Chicago. It felt good to have someone else know the true reason that Jill and he had separated.
Tim was driving to home from work that night but all he was thinking about was that night in Chicago. How could he have done that to Jill? He keeps flashing back to the dinner and the drinking. The walk up to the room. The flirting going on between the two of them. The kiss at the door. The laying her down on the bed. Telling Jill how much he loves her. Then nothing until the next morning. What happened in between, he knows what he was told happened but why can't he remember. Not realizing where he was going until it was too late, all he saw were the headlights from the other car, all he heard was the crash of metal on metal and then he was unconscious.