Hallo again! Thank you so much for all your wonderfully nice reviews! I love you guys! OK, so this chapter is about Disneyland! Yay! I've never actually been to Tokyo Disneyland, but I used to go to Disneyland California just about every day when I was a little girl. :) It's like my home. I want to go work at Tokyo Disneyland one summer while I'm in college! Yay! And, just like Momiji, Splash Mountain is my favorite ride! I hope you all have fun reading this!

Oh, and just a plug, I'm writing another story now called 'Quand on se retrouve encore.' It's AyamexRitsu. I know that's an unusual pairing, but I think it's real cute. So, if you like the parts with Aaya in this story, please check it out. Bitte?

"Come on! Come on, Haru-kun! If we don't hurry, there'll be a long line!" Tugging on his boyfriend's arm, Momiji's eyes flew from side to side. "Schnell! Schnell! Are you sure you know where we're going?" Pausing, he eyed the taller boy with a suspicious smile.

Haru chuckled, reaching to adjust the "Mickey Ears" that sat perched atop the rabbit's golden tresses. "I'll find it."

"But Haru-kun!" Momiji sighed emphatically. "We have to get on Splash Mountain soon, or it will get too crowded! Are you sure you don't need a map?"

"I'm sure," He replied with a simple tone. "We'll find it." Watching the smaller boy as he danced around in his euphoria, Hatsuharu's heart fluttered. 'He's so cute,' the cow mused, mentally tracing the boy's movements. 'Thank you, Ayame. I'm so glad I could give this to Momiji. He looks so happy today. Even more so than usual.'

"And after Splash Mountain, I want to go on the Haunted Mansion, and Space Mountain, and the Pirates of the Carribean!" Momiji bantered, his voice brightening with every word. "You like roller coasters, right, Haru-kun? I think they're so fun! A boy in my middle school class went here, and he said that Splash Mountain is the best! But, most of all, I want to see Mickey Mouse! I want to meet Minnie, too, but I can't hug her! I can't wait to meet them! This will be so fun!"

Scanning the scenery, Haru groaned when he failed to spot the brown outline of Splash Mountain. "I think we need to turn around, Momiji-kun."

"Warum? Are we lost?" Momiji giggled, clasping the white-haired boy's arm. "I told you so! I told you so!" His fingers trailed over Haru's skin, coming to rest as they intertwined with his boyfriend's hand. "It's OK! I'm just happy that I'm here with you!" Skipping, Momiji continued to chat about the day's plans, pulling on the taller boy in his excitement.

His mind entranced by the other boy's touch, Haru at first failed to notice the stares being hurled in his direction. But, as the dizzying rush faded away, the probing glances pierced through the blur. 'I wonder what they're thinking about us?' His stomach dropped, sweat trickling down his back. 'No. I promised Momiji that I'd be better about this. He obviously doesn't care, so why should I?' Regaining his composure, Hatsuharu read the sign in front of him. "Look, Momiji-kun. We're here."

"Wow! Look at that drop! Es ist sehr hoch! Doesn't it look exciting?" Dashing toward the queue, the blonde quickly found a place for himself and his companion. "The line isn't too long. We should get on really soon!"

Haru nodded, gazing into the rabbit's hopeful eyes. Patting Momiji's shoulder, he smiled as he noted the blush on his boyfriend's cheeks. "I really hope you have a good time today."

"We'll both have a good time!" Momiji corrected him. "I want you to have fun, too. We can do whatever you want after this!"

Hatsuharu heard a giggle arise from somewhere behind him. "Look at that. Isn't that sweet? He brought his little brother to Disneyland," a woman in the line pointed out. "And he hardly looks like the type that would do something like that! I mean, look at that hair. And those clothes. I guess I shouldn't judge him by the way he looks. He must have a good heart to treat his brother so kindly."

'Little brother?' Haru bit his lip. 'Surely they can't be talking about us. Momiji and I are the same age. He may look a little younger than me, but not that much younger! Why would they think that?' His stomach churning, he kept his attention on Momiji in hopes of blocking the conversation from his mind.

"I know," another woman added. "They're adorable. Especially that little boy! Do you think they're Americans?"

"I think the little kid was speaking German," the first woman continued. "Wherever they're from, that blonde hair is so precious! And those wide eyes! How old do you think he is? 5, maybe 6?"

'5? 6?' Haru's skin flushed. 'I've been kissing a boy that can be mistaken for a kindergartner? And he turns me on, too! Does that mean I like little children? No, surely that's not true!' Reaching his shaky fingers to caress Momiji's back, a tingling sensation surged through his nerves. His heart drove him to continue, fire blazing in his veins as he explored the tender surface. 'I must be a twisted, sick pervert! This isn't normal! It just can't be right!'

"Haru! Look! Look!" Momiji whipped around suddenly, waving his arms in a frenzy. "It's Mickey! Over there! Ooh! Ooh! Can I go see him? Please? Please?"

Attempting to silence his nagging conscience, the cow mustered a natural smile to mask his inner turmoil. "You can go see him, if you want. I'll hold your place in line."

"But Haru-kun," Momiji's eyes softened in concern. "Don't you want to see him too?"

"It's OK," he replied in a generous voice. "You can tell me all about him when you get back."

"OK!" Laughing, Momiji jumped up to hug his white-haired boyfriend. The rabbit did not notice Haru's tense arms, nor did he feel the cow shiver as he returned the embrace. Withdrawing his grip, Momiji offered a carefree grin before hurrying out of the line.

Watching the smaller boy disappear into the crowd, Haru sighed. 'Why was I so blind? I've always known that he is innocent, but I ignored how childish he looks. What is it that attracts me to him?' His head throbbed as he felt the women's eyes on his back. 'Why am I the last one to realize how sick I am?'

The women's laughter sliced through his thoughts. "That was so cute!" One of the women exclaimed. "If only my sons could act like that!"

"Excuse me, sir?" The other woman nudged Haru's arm. "Excuse me?"

Turning around nervously, Haru tried to smile. "Yes?" He pretended that he had not heard their conversation.

"I just wanted to tell you that I think it's wonderful how you treat your little brother." She explained, nodding her head to emphasize the statement. "I think it's really sweet that you're so affectionate in public. Most young men your age would never be so kind to a little kid. He really loves you, you know."

Hatsuharu's heart contracted painfully. 'If only you knew,' he answered silently, dropping his stare to the ground. His secret dreams of Momiji haunted him, and their kisses played over and over in his mind. "Yes, I know," he managed to squeak out.

"Here I am!" Momiji surprised his boyfriend, lunging onto the other boy from behind. "I got to see Mickey!"

"Really?" Haru took a deep breath, forcing his muscles to relax. But he could barely look at the rabbit without feeling confused and guilty. "I'm glad you're back. It looks like we're almost there." He turned away from the women, hoping to expel their comments from his mind, wishing that he could forget everything and have a happy relationship with his boyfriend. "We should be on the ride very soon," his voice lightened slightly.

Momiji's eyes sparkled as he surveyed the loading platform in front of him. "I can't wait! This will be so much fun!"

"Yeah," the taller boy nodded, feeling drastically less enthusiastic than his smaller cousin as the couple inched toward the log-shaped boats. 'What can I do? I can't let him see how upset I am over this. Not today. Not while he looks so happy! He can't help it that he looks like a child. I'm the only one to blame. If I'd controlled my lust, this wouldn't have happened. It seems like every option I'm left with will end up hurting him.'

Climbing into the floating vehicle, Haru slid his hand warily around Momiji's waist and eased him into the other seat. Looking back at the queue, the white-haired boy grimaced at the women's stares. 'Maybe they're the only ones that see Momiji as a child. Other people know that we're the same age! He doesn't really look like a child,' Haru argued internally. 'He can't look like a child. I just can't be that twisted.'

As the boat started to move, the blonde clutched the other boy's knee. "Look! It's a bunny rabbit! And he's singing!" Momiji giggled as they entered a dimly-lit tunnel.

Momiji's caresses elicited pleasurable shivers throughout the cow's body. Trying to banish his unease, Hatsuharu lost control of his arm as it wrapped around the smaller boy's shoulders. In the dark, it seemed so much easier to nuzzle his boyfriend's hair and kiss his cheek, because without light he could not be reminded of the smaller boy's childish appearance. In the dark, he could forget. "Here we go," He whispered into the other boy's ear. Feeling the warmth of Momiji's body soothed his fears for a time.

"Ooh! Ice cream!" The blonde flounced forward, his feet treading lightly across the concrete path. "I want some!"

Wiping the sweat from his brow, Haru readjusted a lock of white hair. He opened his wallet, smiling at the smaller Sohma. "Sure. I'm buying. This is a date, after all."

"Danke!" He replied, kissing his boyfriend on the cheek before turning to place his order. "Do you want anything, Haru?"

The cow shook his head, squinting in the sunlight. "No, just get me a bottle of water."

"OK!" Grinning widely, Momiji addressed the woman behind the metal cart. "Excuse me? I'd like an ice cream sandwich, please?"

She responded in a sweet voice. "OK." Reaching into the ice chest, she extracted a small plastic package. "And your older brother? Does he want anything?" She eyed Hatsuharu from his position behind the smaller boy.

'Not again! Please, don't tell me he looks like a little boy.' Haru bit his lip, unable to meet her gaze. "Oh, uh-," he tried to conceal his shame.

"He's not my big brother!" Momiji erupted in giggles, flashing the taller boy a smile. "He's my boyfriend!"

"Oh!" The vendor's eyes widened as she assessed the couple. "That's, um, nice." She shot Haru an inquisitive glance. "Well, then, what would your boyfriend like?"

Hatsuharu's heart raced, his muscles tensing under her stare. 'She thinks that he looks like a child, too. Why am I the only one who can't see him that way?' His vision blurred. 'At least I hope that I don't see him as a child. Because if I do, I don't know if I can live with myself.' Reaching a trembling hand to Momiji's shoulder, he managed to whisper, "Momiji-kun, I'm not feeling very well. I think I need to sit down."

The rabbit's eyes glittered with concern. "Oh no! Are you OK? Bist du krank? Please get feeling better!"

Haru's shoulders slumped as he tried to reassure his cousin. "I'm fine. I just need to rest. Come over when you finish paying." After Momiji acknowledged his request, he hurried to a nearby bench.

'Oh shit,' The white-haired boy groaned internally, slumping over the wooden seat. 'Oh my god. What's wrong with me? I've taken advantage of a little, naive child. And I dismissed my qualms because it felt good to me, and because I thought he was happy. But he won't be happy when he realizes what I've done to him. He can't be happy with someone like me.'

Haru's stomach contorted in pain, and he rested his head between the palms of his hands. The sun sliced into the back of his neck, causing his brain to throb violently. 'Pedophile.' He remembered shamefully. 'Taki called me a pedophile, didn't he? But I ignored him because I was angry and didn't want to believe him. I should've just listened to him. Then none of this would've happened. I wouldn't be stuck in this painful position. Now I can't reject him without hurting him. Now I'm forced to satisfy my own perversion.'

Moaning under the weight of his regrets, Haru sighed. 'The truth is, I can't break up with him because I don't want to. How selfish! Even though I know that I shouldn't be doing this to him, I'm too weak to stop myself. I'm lusting after him, even now. Even though I realize that he looks like a child, I still want him. I'm sick.' His vision swirled with half-formed tears. 'I'm really sick.'

The bench rocked as Momiji took a seat. "Haru-kun?" He whispered in his ear, sliding a meek arm around the other boy's shoulder. "Did something bad happen?" Momiji eased Haru's hands away from his face, handing him the water and searching his eyes for some sort of answer.

Shuddering at the contact, Haru caught Momiji's tiny fingers and moved away from the rabbit's body. The bench squeaked as he hurried to reposition himself. "No. I'm fine." He insisted quietly.

"You don't looks like you're fine!" Momiji argued, ignoring his boyfriend's body language as he scooted closer to him once more. "Please tell me! I don't want you to be sad!" He tried to wrap Haru in an awkward embrace. "You can talk to me."

Haru turned away from the other boy, staring at his reflection on a nearby trash can, studying the disgust that lined his face. "Don't worry about it. It isn't your problem."

"Haru-kun!" Momiji sobbed suddenly, burying his head against the black cloth of his boyfriend's shirt. "I love you more than anyone else in the whole world! If I did something that made you mad, I want to know!"

The white-haired boy's heart melted at the sound of the rabbit's cries, giving him the strength to push some of his doubts aside. 'I can't be like this to him! I can't do anything to hurt him. Even if I know it's wrong and gross for me to want him, maybe I should continue, just for a little longer? I need to keep him happy while I sort out my fears.' He flashed a gentle look. "Really, it's OK. I think the heat just made me dizzy." He wiped the tears away from Momiji's sticky lashes, letting another finger trail down to the blonde's lips. "It wasn't anything to do with you," he lied. "Please don't cry."

"Are you happy that I'm your boyfriend?" Momiji questioned, seeming to have some intuition into the cause of Haru's sudden outburst.

"Of course!" The taller boy hurried to respond. And inside he knew that he was being truthful. Most of him cherished every moment spent with Momiji, but sometimes his other side, the side plagued with guilt and regret, protested too loudly. ' I am happy. And that makes me fear the attraction I have to him. But the fears aren't strong enough to stop me.' Taking a deep breath, he let his lips brush lightly against the other boy's ice cream-coated mouth. Flicking his tongue over the soft surface, he cleaned up the sweet substance, losing himself in the warm caress. "I said 'yes' to you, didn't I?" He reminded the boy, whispering against his lips.

"Hmm," Momiji grinned, a bright blush painting his cheeks.

Pulling backwards in order to watch the rabbit's eyes, Haru reached behind his head and unclasped one of his necklaces. Holding the black chain in his hand, he surveyed the metal cross before draping it around Momiji's neck. "I want you to have this, so you can remember today and all the time we've spent together."

"Wirklich? I can keep it?" His face lighting up with joy, the smaller boy held the treasured charm against his heart. "Thank you! Ich liebe dich forever and ever!"

Nodding, Hatsuharu rose to his feet and offered a hand to his companion. "What do you say we find some more roller coasters?"

"Yay!" Momiji shouted, leaping from the bench with rekindled vigor. "Let's go!"

Watching the rabbit's happy smile, Haru shook his head. 'I love him. I know it's true. I love him and I want to be with him. Even if that makes me a freak, or a pedophile, or a rapist, I can't deny how I feel about him. I just don't know what I should do. Why am I so stupid?'

Momiji's German lesson #11

schnell- fast!

Warum?- Why

Es ist sehr hoch- It's so high!

Danke- Thank you

Bist du krank?- Are you ill?

Wirklich?- Really?

Ich liebe dich- I love you...of course :)

See ya all next chapter!