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Summary: This may be out of order in whatever way, but hey, its my story, I get to decide how it goes. ;-) Sorry if it takes a while for me to get it posted, but I've been writing it in whatever time I get between classes and stuff and I'm laptop less so its all scribbled down on paper and I've actually gotta find time to type it all up. But hopefully I'll find enough time somewhere. =) Happy Reading!
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Revelations & Explanations
"I didn't realize you spoke French." Tommy said as he followed Kimberly up to her room.
"You sort of have to if you're going to live here. I took it for 2 years in high school, then picked up the rest when I moved.
"Oh! Well you're good at it! You sound like a native."
"I wish! I'm still learning, but its easy for the most part." she said as they reached the top of the stairs, and walked down the hall.
"Wow! Things really haven't changed too much, have they?" Tommy asked as they entered Kimberly's room. "This looks a lot like your room back home."
"Yeah, kind of." Kimberly said flopping down on the bed.
"So, I guess all that's really changed then, is us . . . . ."
"Pretty much . . ."
"So . . . . . Are you going to tell me what happened to make you not love me anymore?"
"Its complicated Tommy . . . And I can guarantee, its not what you think . . . . ."
"So explain it to me."
"Do you have to know?"
"Don't you think that I deserve an explanation of some kind?"
"I guess so . . . But it doesn't make it any easier."
"So just tell me." Kimberly signed as she looked don at her lap, and closed her eyes.
" . . . . . . . . . Remember when you flew to Florida for Thanksgiving? And how happy I was to see you?"
"How could I forget? That was the first time we ever made love . . . . ."
" . . . . .And then I flew out for Christmas, and we made love again . . . . ."
"Those were good times . . ." Tommy said with a warm smile.
"I knew I loved you, the day I met you . . . . . And making love with you . . . . . It's the best thin we've ever done . . ."
"So why aren't we together then?" Tommy asked innocently. "If you love me, then why won't you be with me?"
" . . . . . . Its because of what happened after that . . . . . . . . . .When I flew out for Christmas . . . . . I was about 2 weeks late on m period . . . But I'm stupid, and I thought that it was just all the stress getting to me . . . But then when I flew back to Florida, I was even later . . . . . So a week or so later, I decided to go see a doctor. I thought for sure it was all just stress . . . . . But then he told me I was 2 months pregnant . . . . . . . . ."
" . . . . . Oh Kimberly . . . . . . I'm so sorry! I had no idea! I never meant for that to happen!"
"I was happy Tommy! Remember when I asked you if you thought that someday, it would be our family around the Christmas tree? . . . . . I was so happy! I couldn't wait for next year! . . . . But then 10 days later . . . . . I . . . . . I had a miscarriage . . . . . . . . ." Kimberly said as tears began streaming out of her eyes.
"Oh Man!" Tommy said reaching for her, as his heart broke. "Oh Kimberly . . . . . Baby, I'm so sorry . . . . ." Tommy said as tears rolled down his face also.
" . . . . . . I . . . . . . I had been trying to call you since I saw the doctor . . . . . But we just kept on missing each other . . . . . . . . . .But then . . . . . . I just . . . . . I felt horrible . . . . . I couldn't do it anymore . . . . . So . . . . . . . . . So I wrote the letter . . .. . And I made my roommate send it a few days later . . . . ."
"Oh Honey . . . . . . . . . I am so sorry . . . . . I should have come after you when my heart told me to . . . . . But for some stupid reason, I didn't . . . . . . . . Kimberly, I am so sorry!"
" . . . . .I . . . . . I didn't know what to do . . . . . . . . . . One minutes, I was incredibly happy . . . . . . . . .And then the next, our baby was gone . . . . . . . . ." Kimberly sobbed. " . . . . . . . . . I . . . . . . . . I lost our baby . . . . ."
"Kimberly, I am so sorry!" Tommy said again as he held her close. "I just wish you had told me."
"I couldn't Tommy . . . . ." she said as she pulled away a little bit. "I . . . . . I was devastated for months! . . . . . . . . . And then when I finally got up the guts to call you again, your dad said you ere out with Kat . . . . . . . . . . I just . . . . . I just couldn't do it . . . . ."
"How come you told Jason and not me?"
"Jason stayed with me after he lost his powers . . . . . . . . . . He was there when I woke up crying in the middle of the night . . .Trini was too . . . . . . . . "
"And you made them promise not to say anything to me . . . . ."
"I'm so sorry Tommy! I just didn't know what else to do!" Kimberly said as another tear rolled down her face. "You were with Kat, and I didn't want to mess that up . . . . ."
"So you just kept it all inside . . . . ."
"I had to . . . .. I never thought I'd see you again . . . . .And then when I did . . . . . You saw what happened . . . . . I'm so sorry Tommy! Its all my fault!" Kimberly cried. "I lost our baby . . . . . Its all my fault . . . ."
"Kimberly . . . . .I'm not mad at you, because when I think about it, you actually made things easier on me . . .With everything that was going on at the time . . . . . I'm not sure I could have dealt with one more thing. Especially not that . . .But then again, you know I would have dropped everything to be with you. We could have gotten through this together."
"I feel horrible Tommy! . . . . .We were so happy! And then just when I thought I couldn't be any happier, I was! I was pregnant with our baby. A baby we created out of love . . . And even though we were only 17, it really was perfect timing!"
"Sweetie . . . . . Maybe it just wasn't meant to be. Did you ever thing about that?"
"It felt right Tommy. It was amazing! . . . . .You gave me a present that I couldn't possibly love more! And with it came hope . . . . . And somehow, I knew that no matter what happened, everything would be ok . . " Another tear rolled down Kimberly's face. ". . . . . But now . . . . its gone! Tommy, its all over! . . . . . All that hope just disappeared like rain drops in the sun . . . . And all I've felt since then, is sadness."
" . . . . . Kimberly, I'm so sorry! . . . . . I know I wasn't there, but now that I know, I can fee,,.l the pain . . . . .And I can't help but thing of all the 'what if's' . . .You would have made the most fabulous mother! . . . . .And AnneMarie . . . . She would have been so excited! . . . . . Our baby would have been the most beautiful baby on the planet, and it would have been so loved! . . . . . And even though technically, our baby wold have been an accident, it wouldn't have been . . . . . That baby would have been a constant reminder of everything good . . . . ."
"I'm so sorry I lost our baby Tommy . . ."
"No, Kimberly don't say that . . .This isn't your fault . . . . . I know it hurts, but sometimes, things just aren't meant to be."
"I can't help it Tommy . . . . .It hurts . . . . . I lost something incredibly special to me . . .And even though I had only known for a little over a week, I was so incredibly happy! . . . I've never felt like that before . . . .I had this tiny little life inside of me, and all of a sudden all I could feel, was joy! . . . . . And then it was suddenly ripped away, and my heart just broke! And I haven't been the same since."
"I am so sorry Sweetie! I really am! If I could, I'd take away all the pain . . . . . But right now, the best I can do is love you, and help you through it . . . . ."
"I miss our baby Tommy . . . . ." Kimberly said softly as she sniffled and wiped her tears away."
"I know Sweetie . . . I'm sure we'll always miss this baby. But someday, we'll be able to have another one. We just have to wait a little longer."
"I still feel really bad Tommy . . . . ."
"I know . . . . . But if it helps, I'm going to be here for you, for as long as you'll let me."
"I'm so sorry Tommy . . . . ."
"Shhh, don't say that. Let's not be sorry . . . Let's try being happy. Its your birthday . . . How about I make you some dinner."
"Tommy, you can't cook!" Kimberly said sniffling as she wiped away another tear.
"That's what you think! Where's your kitchen?"
"Downstairs, to the right of the livingroom."
"Ok . . . Why don't you go splash some water on your face or something . . . But don't touch your hair, I really like it up like that."
"Tommy . . . .. Elisa can make something to eat."
"No way, I wanna do it. Just met me downstairs when you're ready."
"Are you sure about this?"
"Do you love me?"
"Tommy . . . . ."
"Really Kim, I need to know. Do you love me?" Kimberly sniffled as another tear rolled own her face.
"I do love you . . . I'm so sorry I hurt you."
"Shhh. Don't think about it." Tommy said putting a finger to her lips. "I love you too . . ." he said wit a smile, then kissed her gently. "Meet me downstairs when you're ready." he said getting up and moving toward the door.
"Wait, Tommy . . . ."
"Yeah."
"Thank you." Kimberly said standing up and moving toward him.
"Happy Birthday Sweetie. I love you!"
"I love you too." Kimberly said standing up on her tiptoes to kiss him. "I'm so glad you're here."
"Me too. I've missed you."
"I know. I've missed you too."
"So hurry and meet me downstairs." Tommy said kissing her again, then turning and heading down the stairs.
To Be Continued . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .
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~ Dreams of Gold