OK everybody, this chapter is a little edgy and might deserve a M rating (but I'm not sure, so we'll just pretend it can stay T.) I hope this doesn't bother anyone:) I know that Momiji is a little OOC, but remember, he doing everything on Ayame's advice because he's desperate for Haru's attention! Well, I hope you all enjoy this! Read and review, please please? (I'm almost at 100 reviews! Yay!)
Just a note to my reviewers (I think King Harold was the one who asked.) Shuichi does get gang raped on the orders of Taki from ASK. (He wants to sell pictures of the rape and ruin Shuichi's reputation. What a jerk!) It happened in the third manga and also on the second disk of the anime I think. Yuki was very distraught. :( I probably shouldn't be giving this all away, though!
"Oh, Haru, Momiji! I wasn't expecting you to arrive so early!" Ayame threw open his arms in a fluid motion, offering the boys a shining smile as they passed through the kitchen. "My dear Hatori is with Akito right now, but if you'd like, I could entertain you with a passionate tale of our romance!"
"No thanks," the cow muttered, his voice sounding hollow as he moved forward.
The snake's eyes widened in exaggerated concern. "Oh my! Are you crying, little cow?" Shooting Momiji a questioning stare, he caught sight of the redness in the blonde's eyes, as well. "Oh poor sweet bunny-kuns! Please don't tell me that you boys broke up! That would be positively dreadful!" He wrapped the rabbit in a tight embrace. "Whatever the problem, I know I can solve it for you! Just ask me to do it, and I'll weave some of my magic!"
Momiji watched as Haru disappeared down the hallway and into his bedroom. Instantly, the small boy crumbled, "Aaya, it was terrible! These boys at school were making fun of me, but I really didn't care that much! Then Haru came, and he turned black and hurt them really badly!" Trembling, Momiji slid numb fingers into his blouse and clutched a familiar metal necklace. "He thinks that we shouldn't be together because people laugh at me! But I love him! I'm really happy with him now! I don't want this to end!"
Ayame'e eyes widened, distraught at seeing the usually sunny blonde looking so wounded. The snake forced a positive shift in topics. "Oh, but Momiji-kun, he saved you! He risked his life to protect you in a dreamy display of chivalry! Can't you see it?" He matched his romanticized story with motions, pulling the smaller boy closer to him in a crushing embrace. "That proves he loves you!"
"I guess you're right," Momiji attempted a smile. "It's just that sometimes he seems so happy! But other times he acts like he doesn't want to be my boyfriend! I just don't understand!"
"Dearest bunny-kuns," the silver-haired man ruffled Momiji's blonde tresses, meeting his younger cousin's gaze. "I know a way to make your little boyfriend very very happy!" He flashed a mischievous grin. "You know that I specialize in igniting passion in strained relationships, of course. I'll make it so Haru-kun could never think of leaving you!"
The rabbit replied hopefully. "Wirklich?"
"Oh, yes!" The green-eyed Sohma danced with delight. "Just come with me, my sweet Momiji-kun! Quickly! Quickly!" Snatching the blonde's hand, Ayame led him into Hatori's bedroom, locking the door behind them.
'Oh, shit!' Haru's fingers tore through his disheveled locks, trying vainly to silence the throbbing in his head. 'What do I do now? Everything's falling apart, and I don't know how to save Momiji anymore.' Slumping across his bed, he buried his head in a starchy pillow, attempting to block out the memories forever. 'Being here, I just can't stop thinking about that night I let him kiss me. If I'd only said 'no', things would be so much easier right now.'
Feeling anger bite at his heart, he tossed the pillow against the wall. 'But I'm weak! Stupid and weak! I can't control myself!'
"Haru-kun?" A soft knock rattled at his door, the familiar voice soothing the self-loathing within Haru's body. Momiji. Once again, he wanted to be near him, even if he knew it was wrong. Haru was weak. "Haru-kun, can I come in?"
The cow cleared his throat, attempting to mask some of his pain. "Yes," he answered remorsefully.
As the white-haired boy watched the door creep open, he nearly fainted with shock. At the threshold of his room Momiji stood, clad in only a lacy neglige nightgown, with a flustered look in his eyes.
"Haru-kun," Momiji whispered, blushing even more deeply as the white straps slid precariously from his shoulders. Taking a deep breath, the rabbit recited in an awkward voice, "I want you. Please take me."
As Momiji drew closer to him, Hatsuharu's heart seemed to explode in a waterfall of pent-up emotions. The sheer white fabric left nothing to the imagination, and the cow's eyes examined his boyfriend's body involuntarily. "Momiji-kun," his conscience protested weakly, "we can't. I-."
Dismaying at the larger boy's resistence, the blonde wracked his brain for a bit of Ayame's advice. "Oh, Haru," he forced his lips into an uneasy pout, "don't you love me?"
"I, well," sweat pouring down his neck and collecting at the base of his spine, Haru reached instinctively to comfort his cousin. As his fingers met the rabbit's skin, however, they trembled with desire, breaking any vows of control as they explored the boy's back and chest.
"Hmm," closing his eyes, Momiji sighed, growing a bit more relaxed as he reviewed Ayame's instructions in his mind.
Answering the other boy's joyful expression, Hatsuharu eased his boyfriend onto the bed. 'I shouldn't. I can't!' His thought screamed, but, as he focused on Momiji's soft lips, he banished his doubts.
Their mouths clashed together hungrily, and Haru wasted no time as he nipped and sucked at the other boy's lips. Dissolving into the feeling, a dam of suppressed desires seemed to break loose and flood the white-haired boy's body. "Momiji," he moaned before plunging into the smaller boy's mouth.
Collapsing into the mattress, the blonde's face heated up with both embarrassment and desire. As the felt the larger boy's tongue caressing the corners of his mouth, he wordlessly permitted his companion to climb on top of him. "Bitte. Bitte," he gasped.
Haru's gaze blurred, his lips running over Momiji's flesh. Ears. Neck. Chest. He lost any sense of what he was kissing as his heart rushed with dizzying adrenaline. One hand tangling in the other boy's golden hair, Hatsuharu's free fingers snaked up the sheer neglige with deft ease. His hips grinding against the other's in lustful fury, he groaned as he found the evidence of Momiji's attraction.
Suddenly, the cow froze. Meeting the other boy's desperate eyes, reality hit him in a rush. "Why are you doing this Momiji? This isn't like you at all."
"Because, because," trying to catch his breath, the rabbit stammered. What would Ayame tell him to say? "Because you're sexy and you turn me on," stumbling over the new words, his tone sounded more nervous than suggestive.
"I can't do this to you," struggling to pull away, Haru dashed to the other side of the room. Looking to the floor because he knew he could not chance another glance in Momiji's direction, he tried to muster some self control. "I'm sorry," he choked out regretfully.
"But Ayame said this would make you happy!" Shattering his seductive façade, the smaller boy cried. "He promised that he knew how to make you love me again." Tearing at the silver cross around his neck with shaky fingers, Momiji hid his face. "I just wanted you to be happy!"
This was all that Haru could bear to hear. Giving Momiji once last sad stare, he ran from the room, his chest heaving with confusion.
"Haru-kun? Please come back!" Haru pushed his fingers in his ears to block out the rabbit's sobs. "Bitte! Bitte! Es tut mir leid! Please come back! Ich liebe dich!"
Surprising him from behind, silky arms captured the white-haired boy in a hug. "Dear Haru, just calm down!" Ayame tried to persuade him. "Your poor lover is crying for you! You can't just leave him!"
"You!" Whirling around, Haru stared with accusing eyes. "Just stay out of this!" A flood of black leaked into his blood like venom, and he longed for some way to bring pain to the larger man. He wanted to punish him. "I don't have to listen to you! You aren't my brother, and you certainly can't use me to replace him!"
Forcing away from his older cousin, Haru slammed the door behind him and collapsed on the outdoor steps. Consequences. Everything he did hurt someone. He was walking a tightrope between right and wrong, paying for every step he took. 'I always hurt him! I always fail!' Everything was a mistake.
He was a mistake. 'The grave's a fine and quiet place, but none, I think, do there embrace. I wrote him that note so long ago, back when I had the opportunity to protect him from harm. Why couldn't I understand the poem then? If I were to disappear right now, all this pain and lust would die with me. If only I could vanish!' Welcoming the numbing waves of sleep, he relaxed into darkness, dreaming that he would never wake again.
Momiji's German lesson #14
Wirklich- really?
Bitte- please
Es tut mir leid- I'm sorry
Ich liebe dich- I love you
Only two more chapters and the prologue left to write!