Disclaimer: I own NOTHING! Well, actually, I do! I own AnneMarie! YAY ME!!!!!! LOL =)

Summary: This may be out of order in whatever way, but hey, its my story, I get to decide how it goes. ;-)

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Author's Note: Sorry I didn't post this weekend, but my sister got married, so I've been really busy. The good news however, is that I'm now on Spring Break, so maybe I'll actually get some time. =)

Also, if you missed the March 14th episode of "The Division", you missed a very powerful hour, promoting stopping the violence against women. All thoughout the show, they played messages from survivors and friends of victims and survivors, sharing their stories; some for the very first time. I think the most powerful message came right at the end of the show. One man said:

"I have a friend who is a rape and incest survivor. I feel very strongly that men should speak up and speak out about violence against women. The males are the perpetrators of this violence so unless its stopped at that point, or men begin to speak up and speak out about it, it will be allowed to continue."

Then it went onto the next, which I feel is the most powerful message of them all.

"The biggest mistake I ever made in my life, was keeping my mouth shut. And if you are a survivor, don't be afraid to say so. Because you will never smile honestly in your life, until the moment you do."

Then after the show, they shared a message from the entire cast:

Nancy McKeon: "Violence effects many of us. And many of our families."

Amy Jo Johnson: "1 in 4 girls will be sexually abused before she turns 18."

Lisa Vidal: "And the same will happen to 1 in 7 boys.

Taraji Henson: "Please, join us in spreading the word. That together women and men, can stop this violence."

Jon Hamm: "And if you or a loved one experienced abuse as a child, please call the Partnership Against Child Abuse at 1-800-450-2445, or go to "

Bonnie Bedelia: "Its our Lifetime commitment to you."

Home In Angel Grove

Tuesday morning Kimberly woke up to see Tommy was already gone.

"Tom?" she called softly. "Tommy ?" Kimberly slowly got up and looked in the mirror, wondering where Tommy had gone. "Tommy?" she called again.

""He's downstairs." AnneMarie said sticking her head in the door. "Do you want me to go get him?"

"No thanks. I'll go down in a minute. I'm just surprised he's already up. We didn't even get home until after 2:30."

"Its 10:30. He went running with me and David at 7:30."

"Oh . . ." Kimberly said softly.

"Sorry. He didn't want us to wake you up. Tommy said you needed the sleep."

"I did. But I would have gone with you."

"Well come tomorrow then."

"I will. I'm going to head down stairs."

"Ok, I'll meet you down there." AnneMarie said as Kimberly followed her out of the room, and headed for the stairs, to go find Tommy.

"Hey! Good Morning Sleepyhead!" Tommy said as he saw Kimberly coming down the stairs. "Did you sleep ok?"

"Uh huh." she said as Tommy pulled her into his arms, placing a gentle kiss on her lips. "You didn't wake me up."

"I was going to, but you needed the sleep. You were really wiped last night."

"I don't like waking up without you."

"I'm sorry Sweetie. I just really didn't want to wake you."

"Hey Tommy, here's that . . .Hey Kim! Its about time you woke up!"

"Jason!" she said happily, hugging him tight.

"I'm glad you're home. Are you ok?"

"Yeah, I'm fine now." she said softly, as she stepped back toward Tommy, and laid her head on his shoulder. "I didn't know we had company."

"Its just Jase. I have to go down to the track for a couple hours, so Jason said he could come hang with you."

"I can't go with you?"

"You can if you want, but I didn't think you would."

"When are you leaving?"

"In an hour or so. You and Jase can come if you want. But I've gotta do some work on my car and do a bunch of laps, so its going to be pretty boring. I just figured you would rather have fun with Jason while I'm gone."

"Do you have to go?"

"My Uncle is expecting me."

"Can I go help?"

"Help with what? You know nothing about cars or racing!"

"I just want to spend some time with you."

"You now what, you two need to talk . What time do you have laps?" Jason asked.

"3:30." Tommy answered.

"Ok. I'll be at the track around a quarter after. I'm gonna stop by the youth center to drop some stuff off on my way, you guys want smoothies?"

"Please?" Kimberly asked.

:"Sure. I'm gonna get out of here. I'll see you guys later."

"Thanks Jase!"

"You're welcome Kimberly. But we're talking later."

"Ok. Bye Jase."

"See ya later." he said, then turned and left.

"I'm fine!" Kimberly said as Tommy turned to face her, once Jason was gone.

"Yeah right . . . Jason and I both know you better than that! Tell me what's wrong."

"Nothing. I just woke up to see you gone, and I didn't like it You promised you wouldn't leave me alone."

I'm sorry Kim. I had to go run this morning. AnneMarie, David and I go every morning. But we made sure all the doors were locked before we left, and I checked on you as soon as we got home. Kimberly, come on. What's really wrong?"

"Nothing. I just want to spend some time with you."

"Ok . . . . . Why don't you go take a shower, and I'll make you some breakfast."

"I'm not hungry."

"You haven't eaten sine 4:00 yesterday, eastern time. Its been almost 24 hours. You need to eat!"

"I'm not hungry."

"How about orange juice and some fruit."

"Tommy . . ."

"You need to eat something."

"I'll eat later."

"Go take a sower, then meet me in the kitchen for breakfast. And no excuses."

"Come with me."

"Kimberly . . ."

"Please? Just come with me?"

"Only if you promise to talk to me."

:"I'm ok . . .Really Tommy, I just don't like being away from you."

"You're safe here! You know that!"

"Just come with me."

"Ok . . . I give up. But you're eating when you're done in the shower."

"Ok . . . but there's one more thing I want."

"And what would that be?"

"Just those 3 little words I haven't heard today . . ." Tommy smiled and kissed her forehead.

"I love you baby."

"I love you too." Kimberly said kissing him, then hugging him tight.

"Honey . . . As much as I like holding you, you really need to go get ready."

"I wish you could take a day off."

"I took 2 weeks off to spend with you in Paris."

"That was 6 months ago."

"Kimberly, you know I would spend all day holding you if I could. But we're not in high school anymore. I have racking and karate classes. I really can't just decide I want the day off at the drop of a hat. I had to grow up and learn some responsibilities other than being a ranger and flirting with you. So please, can we go get ready?"

"Can we do nothing together later?"

"Sure."

"Ok . . . Walk me upstairs." Kimberly said reaching for Tommy's hand, and dragging him up the stairs.

A couple hours later Kimberly sat on a stool next to Tommy, watching him work on his stock car, down at the track.

"Sweetie, hand me that wrench?" Tommy asked, holding his hand out toward her. "Thank you!"

"Will you remind me to call my mom when we get home?"

"She called this morning. Didn't anyone tell you?"

"No . . . But I'll call her later."

"I think David took the message."

"Oh . . .Where is he today?"

"I'm not sure. But he said he would be back a little later. He had something to take care of."

"What is AnneMarie doing today?"

"She's at Amanda's house. They said something about seeing a move later on."

"Oh, sounds fun."

"Amanda is a good kid."

"Ok, you just sounded completely old!"

"What do you mean?"

"You called Amanda a kid."

"So . . ."

"It just makes you sound old."

"Ok."

""You're 21 and calling AnneMarie's friends kids. Tommy, we're not that much older than them." Kimberly said laughing.

"You know . . ." Tommy started as he stopped what he was doing and set his tools down. "This is he first time I've see, or even heard you laugh, in months!"

"What?" Kimberly asked confused.

"Seeing you laugh like that just reminded me of something." he said with a bright smile. "I love you!"

"And I love you too." she said happily.

"I'd kiss you, but I"m covered in grease and oil."

"That's ok. You can kiss me later."

"You should laugh more often. It makes your eyes sparkle."

"Really?"

"And that's not even mentioning how much I love it. Its good to see you happy again."

"You know, I do feel happy here. I was so afraid to come home again, but I'm really glad I did."

"You seem like you're feeling a lot better now."

"I am . . . Its weird though, this morning, I was kind of freaking out when I woke up and you weren't there. But now, I really like being here with you."

"I like having you with me. And I like seeing you happy again. And even though I've always loved you, this happy perky Kimberly, is the one i love he most."

"Its weird how things change, isn't it?" Kimberly asked as Tommy went back to working on his car.

"What do you mean?"

"I don't know . . . Things are just so different now."

"And you never thought you could be happy here, did you?"

"I always thought it would be horrible. But its home."

"Which is why I like it here so much. No matter how much I travel, or how much I love other cities, nothing beats Angel Grove!"

"Nope! I'm not sure what it is about this place, but it makes you glad to be here."

"You should go see Ernie. He's running the youth center with Adel and Jerome."

"Who's Jerome?"

"Lieutenant Stone. He goes by Jerome now."

"Oh . . ."

"Ernie misses you."

"I thought he was over seas with the arms?"

"He was. But he said there's no place like home, so he's back."

"Interesting."

"I heard Aisha is even coming back soon."

"Really?"

""I talked to Tanya last week and she said Aisha was doing great and loving Africa, but she misses her family and friends, so she wants to come home."

"Awesome! I wonder when she's coming."

"Talk to Tanya. But I'm sure there will be a party. Aisha wouldn't accept anything less."

"I can't believe she never came home before."

"Well, last I heard, she really loved Africa."

"Aisha has always loved working with animals. I don't think she'd ever come, if it weren't for her friends."

"Probably."

"We should se if Trini and Zack can make it back while Aisha is here. It can be like ranger reunion. We can even call Kat."

"You don't even like Kat."

"Says who?"

"Yeah right!"

"I like her. Just not with you!"

"Uh huh!"

"I really do like her Tommy. She's nice. But she can stay away from you or I can rip her eyes out!"

"No clawing of eyes."

"Only as long as she stays away from my man. Then I'll stay away from her."

"Whatever you say Kim."

"What? You don't believe me?"

"Kat and I are long over I just wish you would leave it alone. I"m with you now, so there's nothing to worry about. Kat doesn't even have a chance, ok?"

"Yeah well, that's your opinion. But I don't trust her."

"Kimberly, come on."

"I trust you. You should be happy."

"Katherine isn't as bad as you seem to think she is. She's got some pretty great parts."

"Excuse me?"

"What?"

"Since when are you her big bad defender?"

"I'm not, I'm yours."

"So why are you defending her?"

"I'm not. I'm just saying that you have nothing to worry about. But I still don't think yo should rag on Kat. She would never do that to you."

"I find that pretty doubtful, but whatever!"

"Don't invite Kat. I'm sure she's too busy in London anyway. And we don't need a cat fight on our hands."

"Tommy, I want Kat there. She was a ranger. She at least deserves to be invited."

"I just don't want you two fighting over me."

"There's nothing to fight over. I already won."

"Just make sure you remember that."

"You never told me though, why did you and Kat break up anyway?"

"I told you. You liked it too . . Anyway, when do you want to have this party?"

"Oh, that was smooth Tommy! Really smooth! Just go and change the subject, I see how it is. And I don't remember you telling me why you two broke up, so why don't you tell me again, since you think I liked it so much."

"I know I told you Kim."

"Well I don't remember, so tell me again."

"Do we have to get into this right now?"

"Yes we do!"

"Why?"

"Because you're not telling me something."

"There's nothing to tell Kim."

"Then tell me."

"Why?"

"Because I need to know." she said as Tommy signed and set down his tools. "Do you thin I'm going to be mad at you?"

"Its not that . . . . ." Tommy said as he turned to face her. "Its just not what you think it is."

"So enlighten me."

"Kim . . . . ."

"Tommy . . . . ."

"Its complicated . . . Kat is in London dancing professionally, and I'm here with you."

"Kat doesn't know, does she?"

"We both agreed that it wasn't fair to be together, yet so far apart . .. So we decided it would be ok to date other people."

"Uh huh . . . . . So that's why you don't want her coming to the party . . .You never officially broke up, but you're sleeping with me . .."

"Kimberly, its not like that."

"Uh huh . . . . ."

"Kimberly, look . . . . . I love you . . .I've loved you sine the second I laid my eyes on you . . . .And yeah, I dated Kat. But no matter how close we got, or what we did . .. Call me crazy, but when I kiss you, I get this strange yet completely amazing feeling that runs ramped through my body. And I never had that with her. Kissing her just never felt as good as kissing you."

"But you did have feelings for her."

"Of course! I'm human, and she's beautiful! And I always thought that someday, maybe I wouldn't miss you so much, or wish it was you I was kissing . . .Or there are the times when I would be with Kat, holding her and kissing her, and things would start to get a little out of hand . . . . . Every time, I wished and imagined it was you."

"You slept with Kat, didn't you?"

"Almost . . . . . I was stupid and thinking about you, and then she said my name, and somehow it almost sounded like you . . . But then I pulled away for a second to look at her before things went any further, and all I saw was you. It was Kat sitting there with me, but then I could have sworn I saw you there too, and I just couldn't bring myself to be with her. She started kissing me again, and ran her hands up my chest, but it just didn't do to me, what you do, so I left . . ."

"You walked out on your girlfriend?"

"I had to . . .We were sitting in her room, topless, and all I could think about was you . .. Kat is beautiful and sexy, and she loved me and would have given up London to be with me, but having sex with her just didn't feel right . . .I just couldn't love her the way I love you."

"So what happened after that?"

"I flew home for the red ranger thing, hen jumped on the first flight to Miami, to go see you."

"That's the day we got in that fight . . .Just hours after you almost had sex with Kat . . ."

"I had to see you again. I had to see if I still had feelings for you, or if I was just being unfair."

"When is the last time you talked to Kat?"

"Right before the accident . . . . .We agreed our relationship was really hard on both of us, so I told her to go out and have fun without me. Even if it was with another guy . . ."

"Was she ok with it?"

"No! But I convinced her to at least be sure she loved me, and that there wasn't anyone else she wanted to be with, and I wold be here if she needed me."

"And that was it?"

"I haven't seen her, no. And she hasn't called for a while either. All I usually get, is an e-mail, telling me how she's doing."

"Oh . . . ."

"I don't love her Kimberly. The only girl I love, is you! And its enough that I'm a guy because sometimes, I have such strong feelings toward you, that its all I can do to not grab you, kiss you, and carry you off to bed . . . But I think that's good! I've never felt that way about anyone before!"

"What about Kat?"

"What about her?"

"She doesn't know we're back together, does she?"

"Not that I know of."

"You need to talk to her."

"I know . . .I'm just not quite sure how to go about it . . .The only think I know, that I'm madly in love with you. And that it takes every ounce of self restraint I have to not carry you off to bed, right now."

"And you actually would do that too, wouldn't you?"

"If I thought you were ready to be with me again, yes!" Kimberly smiled gently. "But with everything you've been through lately, its best to wait . . . I love you, but I can wait until you're ready." Kimberly slowly stood up and moved closer to Tommy, gently sliding her arms around him, and pulling him closer.

"I love you too Tommy . . . . . And I think I'm ready . . . . ."

"You know, as good as that sounds, I think we should probably wait a little longer . . . Something is telling me that after what you've been through, even though you think that you're ok, part of you still isn't . . . And I don't want you to be afraid of being with me. I don't' want to touch you, and cause you to completely freeze up on me . . . Kimberly, I love you so much! But I want the next time we have sex to be better than it was the first time. I dint' want you to be scared, or afraid of what might happen. I want you to want me to touch you, to need me to touch you . . . And I just don't think we're there yet."





To Be Continued . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

Be sure to check out the March 14, 2004 episode of "The Division" for a very powerful episode, dedicated to promoting stopping the violence against women.