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Title: Wanting Just You - Chapter Six
Rating: K+
Author: Sabreen
Wanting Just You - Chapter Six
"Usagi-chan! Hurry UP! We're gonna be LATE BECAUSE OF YOU!" Rei screamed outside Usagi's room, waiting for her with the other girls.
"Just a minute!" Usagi replied casually.
"Usagi-chan!" Minako yelled angrily, already annoyed by the blonde's laziness.
"Geez, relax, minna! The concert starts at eight! It's not like we have to be there in twen... AAAAAAHHH! SEVEN FOURTY-FIVE! We're gonna be LATE!"
Only a blur of navy blue and silver was visible when a blonde ran out of her room, storming down the stairs and out of the house in a dead run. After a second or two, when the others understood what had just happened, they rushed after her. And what a scene it was! Four exhausted, breathing-heavily, angry, spruced up, excited teenage girls were panically screaming and running after an equally exhausted, breathing-heavily, angry, spruced up, excited teenage girl which was also panically screaming and running, shouting "I'll be late!" for the whole world to hear. But, the other girls were more concerned about the fact the blonde was running than anything else...
"Usagi-chan,WATCH OU..."
"AAAAAAHHHH!"
SCHREEEEEEEECH!
"Usagi-chan, are you okay?" Ami asked, sweatdropping. The other girls arrived, with messed hairs and red faces.
"Jeez, baka, slow down a bit!" Rei yelled at her, straightening her dress a bit.
"This is worse than the Friday gym class!" Makoto bowed, trying to catch her breath.
"Huh? Oh...I'm gonna be late!" Usagi was suddenly up in a jiffy, running down the street again.
"Oh no..." The girls almost cried. Suddenly, Minako's face brightened.
"Minna, do you think they have Yu-Gi-Oh bars in the concert hall?" She asked, excited.
"MINAKO-CHAN!"
"I was TRYING not to be late! You should be thanking me!"
"Yeah, sure, we're gonna THANK you for giving us the worst pain in our muscles that we EVER had!" Rei was so mad that her face became as red as the dress she was wearing.
"Little sacrifices have to be made for the things that we wish for!"
"Oh, don't you smartass me, young lady!"
"For YOUR informatio..."
"GUYS!" Ami interrupted them, for which the other girls couldn't thank her enough.
"Look! The concert doesn't start at eight, it starts at 9:00! We came herean hourearly!" Ami exclaimed, just a bit flabbergasted. Minako and Makoto were disbelievingly staring into the huge door of the concert hall, with mouth open and eyes wide.
"HA! We're NOT late! What do you say on THAT, miss I'm-So-Smart-So-I-Can-Give-Lectures-To-Usagi!" She arose her nose high up in the air, putting her hands on her hips, smiling winningly.
"GREAT! What the HECK are we supposed to do until then, huh? We're AN HOUR EARLY!" Rei eyed her dangerously.
"Well, actually, being an hour early isn't bad because we can-"
"I didn't ask you anything, Mizuno Ami!" Rei turned to her and threatened her with her finger. Ami just sweatdropped, analyzing her chances.
"Okay." Rei turned to Usagi yet again, preparing for another verbal assault.
"ENOUGH, Rei-chan. Let her live, otherwise you won't have anyone to yell at after you kill her," Makoto stood between them, affectingly shutting both of them up. Minako sighed in relief, happy that this is finally over.
"Hey," she said, "what will we do for this twenty minutes to kill, huh? I suggest getting some cokes and gossiping on Haruna-sensei's love life!" She looked enthusiastically at each one of them, looking for approval.
"SURE!" they all yelled. Raising their eyebrows, they looked at Ami. Her sudden enthusiasm about gossiping was sure weird...
"What? I'm a girl too!" They fell into a fit of giggles and moved towards the nearest coffee shop. Suddenly, Usagi remembered a certain fact...
"Uh, girls, I'm sorry, but I can't come with you." She spoke remorsefully.
"Why?" Makoto stated a simple question that was asked inside all of their heads.
"Well, I sorta... don't have the ticket." She blushed and bowed her head down.
"What? But you gave us all our tickets!" Rei was puzzled. She sure seemed to get over the fight quickly...
"I know. I have somewhere else to go...But I'll talk to you guys later about the concert, okay? See ya! Have fun!" She quickly turned around and ran.
Towards the concert hall.
"Usagi-chan!" Minako yelled.
"Wait! Where are you going?" But Rei was not heard as Usagi was long way away from them.
"Uh, excuse me? Excuse me?" Usagi stopped a tall woman who seemed busy with a stack of papers she was holding. She was familiar...She seemed quite kind, as even when she was interrupted in (what it seemed) a very important task, she smiled and asked the very confused Usagi for her need.
"Yes, honey, how can I help you?" Usagi smiled, finally finding someone who is willing to help her.
"Can you tell me where the back room is?" Usagi looked at her pleadingly, biting her lip in hope this won't take long. The woman just smiled.
"Yes, I do," she was suddenly interrupted with someone calling her. Usagi's heart went light with her words.
"Hisako-sensei, we need you a bit over here!" Some man was waving at her.
"Just a second!" She turned back to Usagi. "But, I'm afraid you have to have a pass to go there. Sorry." Usagi again became disappointed.
"Do you maybe know where to find Chiba Mamoru?" She was sceptic, but hey, wasn't he the big man around here? And, she was right. Recognition flickered on the woman's face and she pointed at a corridor.
"Ahh, yes, Mamoru-san. You go down this corridor, to another corridor which is the third on the left, and down the half of it to the doors on the left, and through that doors you go to the right hall, and hopefully you'll run into him somewhere there because you're not allowed to go any further than that." She smiled. "Excuse me, but I have to go now." And she left, leaving Usagi completely awestruck and puzzled.
Ten minutes later -
"Uh, um, this corridor, right? She said... hmm... left... left... right. Right. Okay." She pushed a door open and ended up in a room full of broomsticks and bottles of stain-removers. The room smelled remarkably like chlorine.
"Umm... this doesn't look like an office."
Click.
The door closed.
The lights went out.
She was stuck.
Looking horrifically to the direction she thought that the doors are in, she started to shake. She had absolutely no choice. She flew to the doors, tripping on a can of paint and hurting her knee. But she arose and ran to the door as fast as she could, tears already forming in her eyes.
"AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! HELP ME! I'M STUCK IN HERE! HELP ME! HELP ME PLEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAASSSEEEE!" Tears were now freely falling down her face as she banged on the doors desperately, weeping loudly.
"TASUKETE! ONEGAI! I DON'T WANT TO DIE IN HERE! HEEEEEEEEEEELP MEEEEEE! MAMOO-CHAAAAN!" As nobody answered the doors, she stopped yelling and gathered her composure, sitting next to the doors and hugging her knees, but still crying hard.
"Help me..." she moaned, "Mamo-chan..." she buried her head into her knees, squeezing them in fear...
Mamoru sighed and hurriedly started to walk towards his coffee room to relax a bit and wait for his bunny. He smiled at the thought of holding his Usako close to him while the Three Lights sing in the background... he could hardly wait for it.
Suddenly, the perfect silence was interrupted by a silent, faraway screaming and banging on the door. He frowned... he concentrated on it...
"It comes from the janitors' depository..." he slowly made his way towards it, "but all the janitors have keys, they couldn't possibly get locked inside... and besides, it's not one-way lock. You can't get locked inside except if you don't do it with keys... right?" He entered an empty corridor. The screaming and the banging was heard well from here.
He ran towards it, listening... it was a girl. And then...
He froze.
Didn't he just hear...?
A soft moan then echoed through the emptiness...
"Help me... Mamo-chan..."
Realization dawned onto him hard. His eyes widened and the adrenalin rushed through his body, panic rising and taking control of his limbs.
He ran as quickly to the doors, pulling them open with all of his strength. They weren't locked; they were just a bit rusty. Quite a lot rusty, is better to say. The doors opened with a large squeak, and the scene made his heart melt in sadness and awe.
His Usako was sitting on the floor, with a beautiful outfit that was now wrinkled and messy, with her eyes hopelessly staring into the darkness, but quickly raising her gaze to him. her arms were folded in front of her, on her knees and her lips were hidden from him, as she put her chin on her knees and her arms over her chin and mouth. Her eyes were red and puffed and her bangs messy and damp. She was visibly shaking with fear.
He couldn't stand looking at her like that anymore. It was too torturous to stand... He fell on his knees and embraced her powerfully, strongly, like nudging her to fall apart in his arms. He held her strongly, caressing her hair, brushing his lips on her temple. A tear managed to find its way through even when he had his lids closed tightly. He could sense her fear and the feeling of lost hope. He encompassed her so she was submerged in his warm body that held comfort for her, not letting her feel scared again.
All this was exchanged between them without one word spoken. But, they felt the need to say something. Mamoru didn't dare to break the silence, he just lay soft kisses of comfort upon her forehead and temple.
But she had to...
"I... I was so scared..." she gulped, murmuring through his shirt, "I felt like I'm gonna die here because nobody's ever gonna find me... It doesn't seem so terrible, but.. but... it IS! I thought how I will never see my parents, or my brother, or my friends or YOU again! I just couldn't get myself together and think straight! I'm sorry..."she moaned and her voice betrayed her.
"Shhh, no, you don't have to be sorry, Usako, no, shhh... It's understandable that you got a little panicked there, there's no one who wouldn't..." She gripped him a little tighter and looked up at him gratefully. He melted at the scene of her immensely blue eyes, now soaked with crystal tears in them. Her gaze told him much more than thousand pictures, than millions of words... he embraced her tighter and started to caress her back.
"Are you a bit better now?" he whispered. She nodded and they both got up, but he didn't let her go. The got out to a corridor with more people in it and he faced her again. He tipped her chin and wiped the remains of the tears off of her face, but moved her gaze to his face.
"Sure you are okay?" He looked at her intensely, looking for a honest answer. She smiled at his caring and nodded. They started walking down the messed up corridors, led by Mamoru.
"Yes, I am. I was just so panicked because I thought like 'ohmigosh what am I gonna do now' and I just wanted to get out of there as soon as possible and my first thought was that I'm gonna get locked inside forever and when they will find me I will be a rotten corpse with meat falling off of my body and that I'll never get to go out for ice-cream with you or to look at sunset with my friends or play scrabble with my family or anything! You know what I'm trying to say? And it would be terrible to die like that because it's icky and I would never get to experience so many things like climbing the tallest tree in my yard or go saving the dolphins or to go swimming in the sea with those weird algae! It would be horrid!" She said all that in one breath and so quickly that he could barely keep up with her. She changed from the little crying form from two minutes ago to a sparkling ray of joy and mindless chatter.
She just kept confusing him.
"You want to go swimming in a sea with weird algae?" He raised his eyebrow.
"Yeah, why?" She looked up at him innocently like that's a perfectly normal fact.
"Usako?"
"Yes?"
"Have I ever told you that you have a VERY active imagination?"
They entered a medium-sized room with a couch, a table with a lot of goodies on it and two large speakers. Usagi looked around her in awe as she saw how perfectly comfy the room was, and it felt just like it wanted you to lie down on the couch and enjoy it. She giggled and started to explore the room and every bit of it. Then, she saw the food table. Her eyes widened and she flew to it and started munching on the cookies and donuts, giggling happily.
Mamorusilently closed the door, looking at her with glee in his eyes. She was just like a child, playing around happily, exploring the world around her like a little duckling after it goes out of its egg. She found the treat table, and as expected, she gasped and dove to it full-force, giggling contently, grabbing more and more candy and being VERY unpolite. He chuckled, being satisfied with just watching her eating and enjoying her food completely.He bit his lip, as to stop himself from fleeing to her and kissing those little spots of chocolate cream off of her face. Shaking his head and diverting his thoughts from that kind of stuff, he went to the speakers and turned them on, fixing the volume.
"So," started Usagi, with hermouth full of cookies and donuts, "what is this?" She nodded in the direction of the couch, and then pointing to the whole room. He just chuckled and a mean gleam appeared in his eyes.
"Uh... it's a room, Odango. Duh." He sat on the couch and prepared himself for the verbal assault from his bunny, and for the ultra-adorable redness that always came with it.
And, he was right.
"I KNOW it's a room, baka! Why did youBRING me here?" She got mad at him yet again, and the oh-so-irresistible pout appeared on her face. She shot him an icy glare, but no matter how mad she would get, the warmth and the caring in her eyes didn't die out. She could never honestly hate someone,she seemed incapable. And so, knowing she still cares for him no matter how much she would get mad at him, he could tease her to his heart's content. And he decided to use that opportunity as much as he could.
"I brought you here for usto have a very nice evening. Now come sit by me." Her mindsuddenly alarmed her.
"Okay, wait a minute. Why the heck does he want youto sit by him?"
"Oh, c'mon, stop acting so panicked. He won't do anything to you."
"Well, how do you know that?"
"Look into his eyes and see if you don't trust me." And so she did. She looked into his deep blue eyes that were so clean and vivacious at the moment and they held nothing but care and... she didn't want to admit it to herself, but she couldn't lie to herself... love. She saw a need to hold someone close and care for him. She saw a deep desire inside his eyes that was burning slowly... that image scared her a bit...
"Hey, what's the matter, Usako?" His voice was deep and vivid, but his face reflected worry as she gasped and bowed her head. He got up and went to her."Hey, hey, why don't you want to sit by me?" He put his arms around her and looked to her face.She just turned her gazedown and bit her lip agitatedly, not wanting to say the wrong thing that would hurt him, but also being careful.
"You aren't afraid that I will... do something... toyou, are you, Usako?" He tipped her chin and making her look directly at him. Shebecame sad and bit her lip stronger, wanting him to understand her. He chuckled good-naturedly.
"I'm sorry," she whispered, inside yelling at her voice not to betray her.
"It's okay, butI would never, ever do something you don't like, okay? I'd never hurt you... I care for you too much... Please, don't be afraid of me..." He put her head on his chest, stroking her head and putting his head on hers. He felt her relax and embrace him back, holding him tightly.
Then, they parted just so they could stare at each other's faces. She still hada bit of chocolate smeared just above her lip, and he felt such a strong urge to kiss it away and to feel the sweet mixture of her lips and chocolate. The urge was simply too strong to resist, and before he knew what he was doing, he was bending down to kiss her and drown in her kisses...
No...
This couldn't be...
This is simply a dream and nothing else...
Just a bad dream...
But he knew that this is as real as the girl who was just about to be kissed by non other than one of his closest friends. He let out a startled gasp and shivered, despite the fact that he had to stay calm for the concert. He was shivering stronger with the shorter gap between their lips was, and let out a yelp as the flood of tears began.
"Odango..." he wept.
Inside, he was laughing ironically at himself. How come that the cold-blooded Kou Seiya was crying that somesixteen-year-old girl was about to be kissed? The one who never flinched at thousands of girls flirting with him and throwing themselves in his arms? He could have any girl he desired, at any time! Why did one Odango Atama made him fall head-over-heels in love with her?
He didn't even want to know the answer to his question. The only thing he knew was that once, he finds a one out of a million girls who likes him, not a part of the Three Lights and he falls in love with her charm, vivaciousness and her kindness... and she's with another man. With the man who's taken such a great care of the career of him and his brother, and was a great family friend.
He turned away and ran.
Her eyes drifted closed... she expected his warm lips caressing hers softly, like today... but...
Usagi -
"Mamoru-san!" Our eyes opened and I heard him sighing annoyingly andsaw himrolling his eyesbefore turning and speaking to a woman on the doors.
"Yes?"
"We have a couple of problems here." He let me go and went to the woman. He checked some papers with her and again sighed with annoyance. He looked at me and held up two fingers for me to see.
"Two minutes," he said and left quickly with the woman.
I sighed and sat on the couch.
And soon, he came back to me, smiling.
"Sorry, Usako. But hey, we're gonna be able to be here and listen to the concert without interruptions! Yey for handy managers like me! I fixed so we can rest here and listen to the concert almost as if we were out there, but we can just lie here and rest. I am a genius!" I giggled and he sat next to me. He put his arm around my shoulders and pulled me to lay my head to his chest. I complied with happiness, and let his warmth engulf me completely.
"Yes, Mamo-chan, you are a genius."
Mamoru -
I felt her little form cling to me, with one arm across my stomach to lie on my thigh. Was she intently driving me insane!I felt her breath warming my chest and I just begged my heart to remain still. It seemed like everything she did aroused me to no borders. How she crossed her legs on the couch, how she let her head fall on my chest just so she can tickle my face with her hair... I kissed her forehead just to keep my heartbeat down.
And it was impossible.
I just gave up and went with the flow and bathed in her warmth and the crazy feelings running through my body. Ileaned my headback and relaxed.
Usagi -
And so it was for a while. We would exchange a word or two, but it was mostly silent.Somehow, we changed our position so I was lying in his lap.I was listening to all the songsI loved and adored listening.I was enjoying the sounds completely... but now was a flick of something familiar in the songs... likeI heard a familiar voice! Like I heard it somewhere before! In one of the songs, I had almost gotten through it and recognized the voice...I suddenly satup and got it...but it faded after a few moments. Mamo-chan was confused, but I just nodded that it was nothing, but inside, I was still wondering where have I heard it before...
And then... My favorite song was on. Todokanu Omoi - My Friend's Love (Unreachable feelings - My Friend's Love). I loved it because it was strong and energetic, but still so sad... And the guys really made it convincing. This was one of the songs all of them were singing. And it started the quick beat.
(AN: translation is in down ANs)
Yume no naka de nan domo
So tsu to kuchizuke kawashita
Suki to oru tsuburana hitomi ni
Suikomare teiku
Kimi no naka de madoru mu
Nuku ma ri ni tsutsumarete sou
Aa itsuma demo sa menaideto
Tsuraku sa kebuno sa
Mune no nakuno takanarikara
Jibun de mo honkitoshiru
Setsuna sugite modokashikute
Akiramekirenai
Andthere it was again! The familiar voice, which sang that song with so much energy as if the thing, he was singing was happening to him. I felt chills in my heart...This time was different.I was feeling the despair, the loneliness and the sadness in that voice, consuming me and taking me over as it was doing it to him. I could almost be 100 percent certain that the guy was feeling the same thing he was singing about, and the other two almost weren't heard by the strength he was singing with... I closed my eyes, and a tear soaked Mamo-chan's T-shirt.
Motsu to deaiga hayakerebato
ii wake bakari mitsuketeru
Tsukino hikari ga todokanu kanata he
Aa kimi wo tsuresaritai
I sang it with all of my heart, hoping she'll get the message. It was strange how the lyrics fit my feelings exactly...
I closed my eyes and continued singing, louder and louder, just to disguise my voice, which had betrayed me long ago. Tears were beginning to fall from my face, and I was crying with each word I sang. I was weeping, but nobody noticed...
'Please, understand how I feel, Odango... I beg you. Please... please...'
I felt like he meant it. It was directed to someone, definitely. I felt so sorry for the guy, as if I know him...
Asa yakehiterasareta
Kimo no egao mabushisugite
Kono mama fukari shiteiku
Jibun ga koi yo
I gasped... Did he really mean it?
Fui ni naru PHS ga
Futari no kiyori ni rakuyo
Tomodachi da to ii ni todato
Warikirenakute
Torn between questions... poor man. He must have been hurt bad...
Kinou a n nani yasashiku temo
Ima doro aitsunou denonaka
So that's what happened to him... More tears crossed the bridge of my nose and rested in the blackness of Mamo-chan's polo shirt.
Tsukino hikari ga todokanu kanata he
Aa kimi wo tsure saritai
Motsu to deaiga hayakerebato
ii wake bakari mitsuketeru
Tsukino hikari ga todokanu kanata he
Aa kimi wo tsuresaritai
The song ended... it left me so shook up. Like Mamo-chan sensed it and he started to stroke my forehead, putting my bangs away.
"Hey, the last song is now on. Wanna see it?"I shrugged. "Sure."
"Great, let's go." We got up and went to the audience. I was so mesmerized; it was so great! Then, engulfed by Mamo-chan's warm arms, I concentrated on the concert.
The last song was Nagareboshi He, the famous hit.
I finally took a glance to the Three Lights. They were half-covered in shadow, so I couldn't see anyone straight. They began to sing. This was also one of my favorite songs...
Search for your love...
Search for your love
Kimi ha itsumo kagayai te ta
egao hitotsu chiisana hoshi
taisetsu ni shite ta yo (eien no starlight)
ano hiboku ha mamore nakute
kuyashi namida kora e ta dake
ita mi ga noku ru yo (wasurenai sweetheart)
Search for your love, sora no suishou
Search for your love, nakanai de kure
Search for your love, hontou ha,
dakishimetai no sa
Suddenly, the spotlight turned on and the person in the middle was fully shown, and he started to sing. I was at first flashed with sudden light, and I couldn't see who it was. But then...
Kimi no kaori zu tsu to (sagashiteru)
boku no koe yo todoke (aishiteru)
ima doko ni iruno (moonlight princess)
boku no princess
kotaete, Answer for me
Imasugu, Answer for me
Kotaete, Answer for me
Yasashiku, Answer for me
Seiya.
It was Seiya.
He was a part of the Three Lights...
The rest of the song was a blur to me asI was dumbfounded by the simple fact...
Thenice guy who paid for my pancakes and who was a perfect friend was in fact a part of the Three Lights! Every girl in Japan drools for him, and in fact he was such a sweet and nice guy. Now I knew why the voice was so familiar... but why was he so sad?
The concert ended. Suddenly, I had to talk to Seiya. I just had to...
"I... I have to go!" I slipped from Mamo-chan's arms and ran to the back room.
I saw him in front of me, walking to his wardrobe. We both stopped walking and faced each other, looking into each other's eyes. Mine were teary and sad...
"Why didn't you tell me?" I wasn't mad, or disappointed, or anything, just... confused, I guess.
"I wanted to be treated as a human, not as a star. You gave me that opportunity and I had as much fun with you as I had in my life... That was the reason." He bowed his head.
I smiled through my tears, understanding that all he wanted was someone to care for him as a guy, not as a star... I sighed and went to him.
"But I wouldn't treat you differently. I care for you very much... I wouldn't change my mind just because you're famous, you know." I reached up and touched his face. He smiled a bit.
"I know. Thank you so much for that, Odango..." He put his arms around me, pulling me close, closer than I expected...
I (the author) -
"You are one special girl, Odango... Your charm, vivaciousness, even your childishness makes any man crazy for you, and so does it me... Almost as soon as I laid my eyes on you, I recognized just how special and precious you are to me... You can't even imagine how precious..."Their faceswere now only about four inches apart. Seiya, as impatient as he is, was leaning fast forward, his intention obvious...
'He's going to kiss me...' Her eyes then shot up, and she looked at his face wide.'But, I don't want him to kiss me! I love Mamo-chan... more than anything...'
"Usako..." a painful moan left his mouth.
Mamoru was standing there, about ten feet from the couple, not believing his eyes. The girl he desperately loved was in the arms of another man, just to be kissed. He gasped, starting to cry immediately, turning around and running away.
"Mamo-chan!" Usagi got rid of Seiya's arms around her and ran after Mamoru. She ran as fast as her legs were letting her...
"Wait! No! Mamo-chan!" He stopped in an alley, his back turned to Usagi. Rain started to pour down hard.
"Don't." His voice was shaking incontrolablly, but it was harsh just as that. "It... It's perfectly understandable! I'm not a famous pop-star, or as good in singing and making stuff! I'm not even your age, I can't give you what he can... it... it doesn't matter! But... I thought... I really, really thought... that you care for me. You were acting so gently, so dear, you...you were so kind towards me! I thought... I really, really thought... that you might love me. That you might think of me like someone more than just a friend... I enjoyed the kisses you gave me, the love that shone through you every time I was with you... couldn't you say you love him more than me? Couldn't you just ban me from fantasies like I've been treated all my life? You let me taste you, you let me bathe in your warmth and caring, but you never, EVER meant it!"
"Mamo-chan... I..."
"It's just perfectly understandable that you would go for someone like Seiya: he's EVERYTHING I'm not! He's handsome, he's your age, he's famous, talented, andover all crazy about you! I understand that you would rather be with him than me, a dark, frowned man with no life and a dark history... I... I understand! But what am I going to do now, huh? What am I going to do with the love I have that is uncomparable to the universe? You made me love you, fall head-over-heels in love with you, do anything for you, even open up to you and trust you with all the historyI was trying to forget and move on! I never told that to anyone... I thought you loved me, I really did... I really,really did...and here I am, enchanted by every little part of you and loving you like a madman, holding your imaginary spirit in my arms all night, dreaming about you, making you the goal, the purposeof my life, and I find out that everything I've been dreaming about is fading to nothing, because you love another man... But how could I expect anything else? I was a failure all of my life, a failure without love, and that's exactly what I'm going to stay! So I want you to be happy for the rest of your life, and I love you much more than anything on this Earth, and I'm hoping you'll remember me, just sometimes, as a man who was ready to kill, but to be killed, too, for you." He turned to her, his eyes red and puffed, his cheeks wet.
"I... I just...I love you. I... I hope you and Seiya will be happy together... and it's perfectly okay because Seiya truly is quite a catch, and I'm not, and it's perfectly understandable that you picked him... But... I really thought you love me..." He turned around and ran as fast as he could, leavingwet,confused and desperate Usagi, who couldn't move a muscle, in the small, empty street washed with rain.
End of Chapter Six -
CLIFFHANGER! HAAA!
Tooold ya it was loooooooong! Ha! Andit came with a treat! A cliffhanger! Cool! He... though... I have no idea what to do with Seiya. If you have any ideas, please email me (you'll find my email in my bio) and if I likethem, I'm gonna use them! Well, been writing for hours, so I should go study now. Bah. I hate studying ) but who doesn't? Anyway, review now andI wish youall good in life!
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Sabreen
Todokanu Omoi: My Friend's Love translation
Many many times in dreams,
we were secretly kissing each other,
I was swallowed by your clear round eyes.
I fell asleep in your arms,
I was surrounded by your gentleness.
Alas, don't ever let me wake up,
painfully I shouted.
Deep in my mind I was highly aroused,
Even I myself know this time it's serious.
I became panicked cause I'm too sad
and I can't give you up.
If we could have met earlier,
I would find all the reasons
The moonlight is shining towards the endless shore,
Alas, I want to take you with me.
Bathe in the morning sunshine,
your smile is so bright and pretty.
Deeper and deeper,
I realize it's a terrible thing.
The ringing of the cell phone,
shortens the distance between the two of us.
Are we good friends or good people?
I can't figure it out.
Yesterday you were so gentle,
And today you're in the other guy's arms.
Moonlight is shooting at the endless shore,
Alas, I want to take you with me.
If we could have met earlier,
I would find all the reasons
The moonlight is shining towards the endless shore,
Alas, I want to take you with me.
Nagareboshi Hetranslation
Search for your love...
Search for your love
You are always shining,
Your smile is just like a tiny star.
I cherish it very much. (everlasting starlight)
That day I couldn't protect you,
I can only hold my remorseful tears,
What was left was pain ( I can never forget you sweetheart)
Search for your love, crystal of the universe
Search for your love, don't cry for me
Search for your love, as a matter of fact
I love to hold you tightly.
I've always been looking for your sweet smell,
to convey my voice. (I love you)
Where are you now? (Moonlight Princess)
Our Princess
Answer me right away (Answer for me)
Anwer me gently (Answer for me)
Answer me right away (Answer for me)