Chapter Three

A/N: Hello guys and gals! This chapter hopefully will be longer than the last three but I ain't makin no promises! An' I need reviews so plz plz plz review! Thanx!

"Italics"...dream talk

"The questions have started," Rogue sighed, sitting opposite Logan and Ororo. They looked at each other before looking back at Rogue.

"Sorry, child. We do not understand," Ororo smiled. Rogue sighed again. She seemed to be doing a lot of that lately.

"Declan's been askin' 'bout his father," she explained. Logan growled but stopped as Declan entered the room. He looked at the three adults before shrugging and focusing on Logan.

"Uncle Wolvie?" he asked. Logan looked at him fondly.

"Yeah, Declan?" he answered. He just loved this kid to bits. It wasn't his style to admit it but everyone saw they way his eyes lit up every time he talked to Rogue's son.

"Would yah come to mah school on Friday? Thah teacher says that the dads of us kids have tah come and tell them 'bout thah work they do. Momma says to ask you t' come and tell dem 'bout how yo' train all de mutants like, Uncle Kurt, Kitty, my mere an' Jade's mere an' pere too," Declan explained.

Rogue winced at Declan's use of French. He had inherited from his father and always spoke with French words mingling with the English.

Logan looked at Rogue who smiled sadly and nodded.

"Sure, kid. I'll come. An' Jade's parent's names are Uncle Scott and Auntie Jean," he agreed and smiled as Declan nodded quickly and rushed out the room. Rogue suddenly started laughing.

"Auntie Jean??? That's a good one!" she laughed. Ororo was also trying hard not to laugh though there was an amused smile on her face. Logan shook his head and left the kitchen, mumbling to himself.

"Rogue. You will have to tell little Declan someday who his father is. He has that right. It is better if he finds out from you sometime soon than someone else at a later and more delicate stage. If he finds out due to someone else when he's in his teen years, you will have no idea what he might do," Ororo continued their conversation calmly.

Rogue's eyes filled with tears at the memory of Remy and she couldn't stop the tears that spilled from her green eyes. Ororo laid a comforting hand on Rogues.

"Ah'm sorry, 'Ro. Ah just, after all these goddamn years, ah still can't get over thah fact that...that Remy's gone and he's not comin' back! Ah spent, five years lovin' and raisin' Declan without the support of his father! An' ah don't want Declan tah ever feel thah pain that ah went through, 'Ro!" Rogue sobbed as the tears broke through for the millionth time in those five years.

Ororo sighed and tried to calm Rogue. Suddenly, Jade entered the room and froze, wide-eyed at the sobbing mother of her best friend.

"Um...Aunt Rogue? Are you okay?" she asked hesitantly. Her blue eyes had a glimmer of fear in them. Rogue tried to control herself as she wiped away most of her tears. She looked at Jade bravely.

"Ah'm fahne, sugah. No need tah worry," she said, "Jade, do you know where yahre mum is?" she asked the four-year-old. Jade nodded, her red hair flying behind her.

"Yeah. She's in the infirmary. A bee stung my dad on the arm and she's putting some sort of icky medicine on it!" she grimaced. Rogue had to smile. Jade was nothing like her straight-laced father or her careful and perfect mother. For instance, right now, Jade had a bruise on her leg, two cuts on the same leg and a nasty looking wound on her arm. Plus, she was always up to some sort of mischief.

"Thanks, sugah!" Rogue smiled and left the room.

Two hours later, Rogue was leaning against a tree, staring at the flowing stream in front of her. This was, still is, and always will be her favourite place to be. When she came here, she tried to forget all her troubles and just relax. But lately, that didn't seem to be working.

Now, when she came here, she was plagued with memories and past occurrences of herself and Remy. She tried so hard to forget him but it just didn't work. He would always be part of her, now that Declan was born. But she did not regret having Declan at all! She could've given him up for adoption or worse. Just because he reminded her of the man she had loved so dearly but who had broken her heart into a million pieces and then left her.

Rogue sighed. She would not linger in the past and ruin her own life and Declans'. She had left Declan at the mansion with his friends and family so she could come here to think. Rogue shut her eyes and leant her head against the tree and before she knew it, she was asleep.

"Remy! Please! Don't leave me!" Rogue yelled as Remy began to fade away in front of her eyes.

"I need to. And soon as I do, everyone you love and hold so dearly to you will leave you as well," he said, his voice dispassionate and that beautiful accent gone. Rogue's eyes widened at him and she stepped away.

"Momma. Ah'm goin' away now. To be with the father you kept a secret from me," Declan's beautiful face appeared and began to fade away. Rogue's face was distressed and tear-stained. The two people she loved most in the whole world were leaving her.

"No! Please! Both of you! I love you both! Please don't go!" she begged, sobbing her heart out.

"Then choose. Choose who you love most and save that person!" Remy spoke and Rogue shook her head.

"No! I can't choose!" she yelled. Remy shrugged.

"Fine. Don't choose and lose us both!" Declan shouted and his face was so close to disappearing.

"No! I love you both!!! I can't chose!!" Rogue yelled and screamed in pain as Remy and Declan faded away. Out of her life. Forever.

Rogue screamed as she awoke from her nightmare. Her face was tear-stained and distressed, just like in her nightmare. And although it was over, the same words repeated themselves inside her head.

"I love you both,"

Rogue buried her head in her hands as the tears started all over again. She did love them both. She still loved Remy even if he did break her heart, even if he did use her, she still loved him.

"Remy, I love you. Please come back! Declan needs you in his life! So do I," Rogue spoke to the heavens, not expecting anything miraculous to happen.

Little did she know that, a certain someone out there was feeling her pain and crying with her.

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