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Summary: This may be out of order in whatever way, but hey, its my story, I get to decide how it goes. ;-) Sorry if it takes a while for me to get it posted, but I've been writing it in whatever time I get between classes and stuff and I'm laptop less so its all scribbled down on paper and I've actually gotta find time to type it all up. But hopefully I'll find enough time somewhere. =) Also, I've decided to make it easier on people to let me know what they think, and give me more ideas of what to write. If you would like, I can be reached via email or Yahoo! messenger at AdorableKittens2002@Yahoo.com or via AOL instant messenger as PrincessSpzMnky . Feel free to drop me a line if you'd like. =) Happy Reading! =)
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Dedication: I am dedicating this chapter, as well as the next few, to my Grandmother whom I lost to Alzheimers on
December 6, 2003. I actually wrote these the other day when I was having a really bad day, but didn't understand why until
just before going to bed, when I looked at the calendar. It was also the same day I ran into my grandmother's friends at the
grocery store. Its amazing how depressed you can get completely by accident. But anyway, to my Grandma Ruth . . .
These last 4 months have been very hard without you, but I know that you are watching over all of us; helping us to heal
and to move forward. Thank you for all the years of endless love and support you have given our family. We all love &
miss you more than you know!
For more information on the horrific disease known as Alzheimers, please visit alz.org
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Author's Note: After spending HOURS in the hospital with my grandmother, several times in the few short weeks before she died, I can honestly tell you how much stress runs through your body as you scared and very anxiously sit, waiting for any news. And let me tell you, while you're stuck sitting there, you sure as hell don't feel like eating! Anyway, my advice? . . . . . Its something my uncle (on the opposite side of the family) told me just a few weeks before my grandma passed away. It is something that he learned the hard way after my other grandma passed away when I was just a little kid. This is something that I am VERY glad I listened to, and I hope that you can all take to heart too . . . . .
Cherish your family while you still can, because one day they won't be here anymore, and you will spend your entire life wishing that you could just have one more day. I am very glad I listened to my uncle and spent the time with my grandmother while I still could. I only wish that I had done more . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .
These next few chapters are also dedicated to my bestest friend in the entire universe, who has been there for me through everything, from day one. You know who you are. Thank you for always letting me be my witchy self and running up a MASSIVE phone bill through all those late night talks. Thanks also for always smothering me with chocolate. Somehow you always manage to mail it, so it arrives just when I'm really depressed. (If I didn't know better, I would think you plan these things!) LOL Anyway, thank you for always being the bestest, most amazing friend and "sister" I could ever ask for. I don't have any idea what I would do without you! (Its your fault this stupid story is here anyway, ya big Butt Head! ;-) Tehehe!) I love you! =)
WARNING!!!!!
IF YOU AREN'T CRYING ALREADY, I CAN JUST ABOUT GUARANTEE THAT YOU WILL BE VERY SOON. SO STOP WHAT YOU ARE DOING AND IMMEDIATELY RUN FOR TISSUES! YOU WILL BE NEEDING THEM! YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!
Shedding Tears
"Tommy? . . . . ." Christine said softly as she walked into the lounge an hour and a half later, dressed in blue scrubs, with her shoulder length brown hair pulled back into a ponytail. "Sweetie? Are you ok?"
"Mom . . . . ." Tommy said turning to her, with tears in his eyes.
"Oh Honey?" Christine said sitting down next to her son, wrapping him in her arms as the tears began to flow. "Sweetie, I am so sorry!" Tommy just clung to his Mom, sobbing into her shoulder as all the wain washed over him. Christine gently stroked her son's head as she held him. "It's ok Sweetie, let it all out . . ." Tommy cried for 15 minutes, just allowing his mother to hold him for the first time in many, many years.
When the tears finally subsided, Tommy slowly pulled away from his mom enough to see her face. She gave him a half smile as Tommy silently wiped at his face. " . . . . .How . . . . .How is she? . . . . . ." He finally asked.
"Honey . . . . . . . . ." Christine started, not exactly knowing how to tell her son the news.
" . . . . . . . . . I feel . . . . . . . . . . . Like I'm losing her . . . . . . . . ." Tommy said softly, as another tear rolled down his face.
" . . . . . Sweetie . . . . . . . . ."
" . . . . . . . . . Please Mom . . . . . . . Please tel me she's ok . . . . . . . . . . . I can't lose her . . . . . . . . . I saw her car on the freeway. I know its bad . . . . . But I can't lose her Mom. I just can't!" he said crying again. Tommy's whole body shook as Christine wrapped her arms around him again. "I can't lose her Mom. I can't lose my wife."
Remember that blue crystal sky
The sun reflected in your eyes
Kissed me unexpectedly
A moment I just can't forget
We filled the air with promises
Took them up so tenderly
But life never asks you what you want
It's just gonna have its way
Sometimes it doesn't give like it takes
If I never see your face
If wings take you away from me
And tomorrow never happens, baby
If the world comes tumbling down
And crumbles all around us
Fate turns cruel
You're on your knees
So desperate for one truth
Know that I have loved you
Don't think I'll write another letter
Watching there the pink sunset
Without thinking about you
I take a walk along the blue seaside
How will I sleep at night
How will I wipe the tears from your eyes
If I never see your face
If wings take you away from me
And tomorrow never happens, baby
If the world comes tumbling down
And crumbles all around us
Fate turns cruel
You're on your knees
So desperate for one truth
Know that I have loved you
Without a single hesitation
Without thought or reservation Baby,
I'll be waiting
Even if I never see your face
And wings take you away from me
And tomorrow never happens, baby
If the world comes tumbling down
And crumbles all around us
Fate turns cruel
You're on your knees
So desperate for one truth
Know that I have loved you
I have loved you
If I never see your face
If wings take you away from me
With all my heart and all my soul
The world comes tumbling
And crumbling all around
I have loved you
If I never see your face
If wings take you away from me
I have loved you
"Tommy . . . . ." Christine finally said, trying to keep her voice strong for her son. "The doctors are doing all they can . . . . . . . . ."
"How . . . . . How bad is it?"
"Sweetheart . . . . . . . . ."
"No . . . . . . . . . . ." Tommy said as his heart completely broke. " . . . . . . . . No . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . ."
"Tommy . . . . . . . . . I'm going to be completely honest with you . . . . . . . You're an adult now, and you deserve to know the truth . . . . . . . . ."
To Be Continued . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .
"I Have Loved You"
© Jessica Simpson
In This Skin 2003