Author's notes:
Hello guys, here's another chapter. It took me several months to post this one because I have many things to accomplish during those times. Sorry if this one is too late. Enjoy! Please read and review.
Chapter IV: Remembering the Past
"Aishiteru Yuki." Sakano said and he kissed Yuki.
Yuki is writing his new novel. Of course his last novel, "Lover", was a big hit. He did not want the title but the publishing company insisted so he just gave in. He started to his novel. He was in the middle of typing it when he received an e-mail. Not knowing who send the email in the middle of the night, he opened it. He was surprised. It was from the man who would never send him this kind of email or rather would not send him any email.
Garasu no bedo ni toraware no motion
Tesaguri de shukujo wa kamikudaku
Soliday na tail de midara na hane collection
Himei hodo mujaki na yoruga hoshii
Yuuutsu no borode odoru jiyuu to uso ni tsuda nukare
Moroku maichiru puzzle kono shihai kara tobitate
Kiss shining hitomi ni kuchizukete
Toke dasu hanabira mo jama ni naru
Make me shining irozuku shigeki no hate ni
Kagayakihajimeta maboroshi
Shikai wo nukedashita panorama no dimension
Kanpeki na gitai wa tada furueru
Cheap na shokushu wa mitsu wo motomeru reaction
Tsumetakutemo hiwai na kimi ga mitai
Nanairo ni moteasobu waki-da-shita kairaku no umi
Kage ga fuchidoru game kono sekai kara uchinuke
Kiss shining kodoku wo katashidori
Karamaru koukai ga kuu wo kiru
Make me shining chirabaru kokoro no hahenra
Mabushiku sugisaru kibou ni
Ta-iki wa somaru akaku nureta yubisaki ni habatakenu
chou no namida
Subete wa suna ni naru shining, make you cry
Kiss shining hitomi ni kuchizukete
Toke dasu hanabira mo jama ni naru
Kill me shining irozuku shigeki no hate ni
Kagayakihajimeta maboroshi
Please don't cryin' kodoku wo katashidori
Karamaru koukai ga kuu wo kiru
Make me shining chirabaru kokoro no hahenra
Mabushiku sugisaru kibou ni
He read it. It is a song. It is his song. He scrolled down his mouse and saw a note at the bottom of the song.
Ne, Yuki, this song, you remember it right? You wrote it for Nittle Grasper and that song is me. Your song is talking about me. Don't worry, I understand. You still love me and I'll have you back. In any cost, I'll bring you back!
Shuichi
Yuki immediately erased the email. He shut down his computer and went to his room. He saw Sakano sleeping. When Yuki invited Sakano to live in his house, they lived a life like other live-in couples do. Sleeping in one room is just one of them. But so far, they have not gone so much "intensity", not forgetting the fact that they are sleeping in one room. Yuki respected Sakano so much and he's thankful to have Sakano beside him.
But this time Yuki wanted to give in to the urge of his humanity. He don't care of what will the people say. He's just being true to himself and he just wanted to be happy. They just wanted to be happy.
He stared at Sakano for a moment. So serene, he is his angel. He wanted to fight against the urge of his body because he respected Sakano. He doesn't want lust to take over him. He was about to sleep when Sakano asked him, "Yuki are you done?"
"Not yet. I just want to rest. I guess I'm already worn out. What about you? Why are still awake? I already thought that you are sleeping."
"Oh nothing, I just can't sleep. Ne, Yuki can I ask you something?"
"You are already asking." Yuki replied.
"Oh… Yes."
"Yuki, do…you…really…love…me?" Sakano asked and he looked directly in Yuki's eyes.
Yuki was a bit surprised. His lover was now asking him to prove his love. Will he give it?
"Why do you ask?" Yuki is now asking.
"I guess I can't help it. You see, I think this relationship won't work. We are too busy in many things. Or maybe YOU ARE too busy with so many things that I tend to fill up your part as being my lover. Can I consider this as a one-man relationship? If so, then I should have created a record of a man having himself as his own lover! Just tell me if you don't need me anymore. But still, I'm so much in love with you." Sakano said as tears started to fall down from his eyes.
Yuki felt sad. He knew that he's acting strange for some reason. He's not that sweet to Sakano. He knew it. All this time he knew that his emotions towards Sakano are not enough. Not enough to level Sakano's love. From the very start something was wrong. Back when Sakano confessed his love for Yuki that rainy night.
PAST
"Yuki, I hide this for so long. But now I have the courage to tell you this. I love you!" Sakano said.
At that time Yuki saw Shuichi. He saw the tears in Shuichi's eyes. He saw Shuichi running away. He wanted to follow him but he can't, he just can't. he just found his new lover. Then again, he remembered something,
PAST 1.1
"It's fine with me being your lover." Yuki said
"What?" The man said. His face was blurred.
"I said I can be your lover."
END OF PAST 1.1
Yuki does not know if he made the right decision, if he chose the right person. But he can't do anything, not now.
END OF PAST
Yuki was silenced with Sakano's words. But then he wanted to prove that he really love Sakano, not only for Sakano but for him as well.
Yuki kissed Sakano. He is planning to do "it" with him. He thought that Sakano has sacrificed so much just to be with him. He thinks that he should now pay Sakano for the happiness that Sakano gave him.
Yuki caressed Sakano's body. Touching and exploring is a wonderful feeling for Yuki.
"Are you sure, you want to continue?" Sakano asked with some moans.
"I love you." Yuki replied.
They continued there fling but Yuki remembered something.
PAST
"Ne, ne Yuki, can you hug me?"
"If you want it so badly, then let's go to our room."
"That's so unfair!"
"Is that a no?"
"Uhmmm…not at all!"
END OF PAST
Yuki stopped. Tears came out from his eyes. He remembered him. He has hurt him so much. And it's going to start…
Yuki's anguish
End
Author's notes:
SO how was it? I have to put many PAST there and I also placed Yuki's song for Shuichi. Hahahaha. See you next chap. Pls. reviews!