Author's notes: Hey guys, another chapter in here. It's been a long time and at last I finished the fifth chapter. I've been so busy lately and it's just now that I had my free time and I decided to update this story. Okay, that's it for now. Read and review!

Chapter V: Present over past

Yuki stopped. Tears came out from his eyes. He remembered him. He has hurt him so much. And it's going to start….

Yuki's agony…

"I'm sorry Sakano, I'm so sorry!" Yuki said.

"It's alright Yuki-kun, I guess you're not yet ready for this. I understand and I'm willing to wait." Sakano said and he went to the bathroom.

Sakano was not alright. It hurts, deep inside it hurts. For so many times, he wished that he and Yuki can be one someday. They can be one in physical and emotional aspects. He thought at that very moment his wish can come true. It's not only a wish but a desire to be with Yuki. A desire that burns inside him, that he kept for a long time now, but now he's hurt. He does not want to lose Yuki but he does not know what to do. He started to cry out but not loud enough to be heard by Yuki. He's so confused and lost, but there's something he was sure of, he's not going to give up Yuki. He's not going to let go Yuki, he's going to fight for him. If not for their love, for the happiness that it can bring him.

Yuki was so confused now. He remembered Shuichi but he does not know what to do. He doesn't want to hurt Sakano but he want to be happy.

"Shit!" That's all the word that he can say right. He tried to get his sleep. He wanted to rest. He'll fix these things tomorrow. Right now, he wanted to have enough sleep for a big day that will come tomorrow.

…..

Shuichi was sleeping in Hiro's apartment again. Its fine with Hiro but sometimes Shuichi's getting into his nerves because of his stupidity and Shuichi listens to Hiro and Ayaka's PRIVATE conversation intentionally. But Hiro knows that Shuichi just misses being in love and being loved by someone.

The next day, Tohma set an important meeting with Bad luck. Everyone was there except for Sakano. Tohma said that he received a call from Sakano telling him that he cannot come today and he's not feeling well. Shuichi was worried, even though Sakano got Yuki form him, he still cares. After all, Sakano is still his friend.

"The purpose of this meeting is about your new album." Tohma said.

"WHAT?" Shuichi said excitedly.

"A new album Shindou-san, you are going to make your next album and the success of this album is within your hands and your music as well." Tohma explained.

"Alright! I'm going to put my best in this new album! This album will put us to the top guys! I promise, I swear, I will do it!" Shuichi shouted.

"Whatever you say, Shuichi." Hiro said with a smile on his face.

"I guess this will make him busy for some time." Hiro said and he was happy for his friend. For this moment Shuichi can get Yuki out of his mind.

Shuichi decided to go to his apartment so that he can concentrate in his writing. He got a pen and some sheets of paper. He started to write. The theme he chose for the new album is about love. Phrases and ideas came out from his mind. It went well at first, but in the middle of the song, it sounded so boring. Shuichi throw the sheet of paper and started all over again. The same thing happened with his second try, his third try until the last sheet that he has. The crumpled papers are scattered all over the room. It started to annoy him. He got another pad of paper and started to write again. He did not make anything, not even a single song.

"Damn! What's wrong with me? Why can I not write a single song? It was very easy for me before. Why now?" Shuichi wondered.

Again he remembered Yuki.

"I want to be with Yuki." Shuichi said and started reminiscing the best times they had back then.

He smiled. He remembered their first encounter, his unexpected first kiss in the elevator, his first night in Yuki's room and many more. In those times he can say that he is contented. He's famous and he's happy with Yuki. Nothing more to wish for, nothing more to ask, he can say that he's complete. But that was a long tome before.

He started to write again. This time he promised he can make one.

I was alone before you came,

My heart was empty before it gained

I lived then in the darkest room

'Til there was light and it was you

I thought you were my everlasting life

Forever will be mine, forever will be mine

I thought you were my entity

My love, my life, my soul

He read it again and continued writing.

I saw you find your heart's deep love

And it's hurting me to see you glad

For I have seen you cried and laugh

And for all this time, you are not mine.

Shuichi fell asleep.

…..

Sakano went out to make him forget what happened last night. But it didn't work at all. As time passed he continues to think about Yuki. He can't live without him.

It started to rain but Sakano does not care. He continued to walk and he noticed that he was in the park again. He sat on one of the chairs and stared blankly to the sky.

Yuki, on the other hand is in his house, still thinking, still choosing. He noticed that it was raining hard outside. He remembered Sakano. Sakano did not bring any umbrella or rain coat with him. Yuki immediately got two umbrellas and went out to find Sakano. He searched everywhere. He searched in every mall that he could find, he searched in the cinemas and he even went to the recording studio of Bad luck, but he's nowhere to be find. He's going give up when he remembered that place. He ran as fast as he could to reach that place. And he was right, he saw Sakano there, soaking wet.

"Sakano" Yuki said panting.

"Y..y..u..k.i? What are you doing here?" Sakano said in a surprised voice but deep inside he was happy.

"Let's go home." Yuki said with a smile on his face.

Yuki chose Sakano again. He chose Sakano's happiness over his. It's a very hard decision for him, but he's done it and he cannot turn back now. He chose his present than his past. He knows that someday he'll learn to love Sakano with all of his heart. He knew that he will hurt Shuichi more and hurt himself as well. But he's done it and there's no turning back. There's no turning back.

"Are you sure, Yuki-kun?" Sakano asked.

Yuki didn't reply, he just kissed Sakano and Sakano kissed him back.

"Aishiteru Yuki." Sakano said.

"I love you too." Yuki whispered.

….

"Shuichi, I'm sorry, I did not love you at all. I just used you to make Sakano jealous. I did not know that you will really fall for me. I love Sakano and I can't leave without him. I'm sorry." Yuki said

"No, Yuki, I love you and I know that you love me too. Don't leave me, don't go away! Yuki! NO! YUKII!" Shuichi shouted.

Shuichi woke up. "A dream, it's only a dream. It can't be real. Yuki will not leave and I know that. All I have to do is make him remember about his past and everything will be alright."

Yuki, I'll make you remember the past. I'll make you remember our relationship; I'll make you remember everything about us. You cannot love other person than me because you're mine. I'll have you back, no matter what happens I'll have you back!

Author's notes:

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