Chapter Three: two steps back and half a step forward

Harry was overwhelmed with the thoughts of Hermione the last week. Hermione was in his dreams his potions book and in the eyes and words of Alex. No matter what he did he could not get her of his mind. He was so confused about all of this, that he even forgot to go to potions. In return he received a detention where all he did was think about Hermione the whole time and got three straight dentions for not doing the written work assigned, instead he handed in work with Hermione written in cursive fifty times.

When Harry was in hogs mead with Alex on Wednesday he had accidentally called her Hermione and they were not on speaking terms because of it. The wall of dreams that had been built was quickly crashing down brick by brick. The clean up would not be easy and would defiantly leave a mark.

Harry grabbed his jacket and walked out the dorm room. The common room was uninhabited, witch Harry knew the reason was no one except him would stay in on a bright and sunny Saturday. Even Neville was outside enjoying the day. He decided that he felt the need for a little fresh air. He walked down the stairs leading to the oak front door and walked toward the door as some first years were coming in and talking. Harry wasn't sure what most of them were saying but he heard on his way out.

"Isn't that Harry potters girlfriend?" she said "hey maybe ill get my chance now"

Harry walked out the door they left open to see another thing to make the fantastic world of the boy who lived a little worse. Draco and Alex on the grass not just kissing but making out.

"Alex……" Harry screamed as he ran to her. He grabbed draco by the collar and he punched him in the jaw. "How could you……."

"Its not what you think…" Alex tried to explain

"What he tripped and you lips broke his fall?" Harry asked sarcastically

"Would you believe that…..that's exactly how it happened" Alex answered

"You are so ignorant of your own feelings" Harry replied walking across the grass and up the stairs as everyone was staring.

"Harry……Harry ….. Wait up" she ran up the steps and caught Harry by his collar swinging his head around. Then Alex kissed him.

"What is that supposed to make it better?" Harry asked "sometimes you are so pathetic."

Tears formed in Alex's eyes as deep blue locked with emerald green. Harry broke the gaze knowing he would miss those eyes, the ocean deep eyes in a deep person cover by a wall of confusion. He wondered if he there would ever be another person to break the confusion and see the Alex he knew. He kissed her lightly on the lips and whispered in her ear "Goodbye….I still love you"

Harry walked into the castle leaving Alex on the steps. He walked toward the stairs but not before he saw Hermione and Ryan making out, next to the stairs.

"Hermione…" He said in a voice a little above a whisper. "how could you…"

"Harry…Its not what you think" Hermione replied in the same kinda voice

"Ive heard that one to many times today" Harry answered " then what is it..?"

"well I guess it is what you think" Hermione answered

" weren't you the same person who said making out in public was disgutusting and rude to other people..?' Harry asked tears still in his eyes from the fight with Alex.

"what ?" Ryan asked

"yeah…But" Hermione answered

"but what…..you let him change you….you're a different Hermione now." Harry stated

"No …Harry…" Hermione was lost for words

"your one of them….The dreaded people who don't know who they are anymore…they don't even know who they were…you're a pos.." Harry was interrupted by Hermione

"don't say that word …im not one of them….im not a poser" Hermione pleaded

"face it Hermione you've changed. your not the old Hermione anymore" Harry repeated "but if you see her tell her that when she sees me again the prophecy will be fulfilled, and I may become a murderer either way im going to change for the worst, like you"

A.n. Sorry I haven't updated in a while. I HAVE A GOOD EXCUSE. First my aunt might have cancer, second I when to Tampa Fl for Christmas ,third a friend of my family committed suicide (or at least that's what they say, I think her husband killed her for her money and kids) forth, I was sick and had to go to the hospital, so yeah I think I have a good reason, oh yeah I forgot that my sister also had to have surgery on her hand because my pet rat bit her (LOL). My snake made my hand go numb too! His name is fluffy. Ironic right. Any ways sorry I hope my next chap is longer ill try. For all who want to know: This chapter was called two steps back and half a step forward because Alex was his first step backwards and Hermione was his second. The half of a step forward was the way he excepted what he had to do and was finally going to do it. The song Im doing today is one very close to my heart. I love this band because there lyrics are soooo true to who they are. That's one of the reasons why I don't like rap. There lyrics don't tell about there beliefs much. Simple Plan has so many songs I agree with and there new CD Still aint getting any is awesome so if you don't have it GET IT!!!!

Simple Plan : Crazy

Tell me what's wrong with society
When everywhere I look I see
Young girls dying to be on TV
They wont stop til
they've reached there dreams

Diet pills, surgery
Photos hoped pictures in magazines
Telling them how they should be
It doesn't make sense to me

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on'
Open your eyes
you'll see that something is wrong

I guess things are not how they used to be
There's no more normal families
Parents act like enemies
Making kids feel like its world war 3

No one cares no ones there
I guess we're all just to damn busy
Moneys our first priority
It doesn't make sense to me

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on
If you open your eyes
you'll see that something is wrong

Tell me what's wrong with society
When everywhere I look I see
Rich guys driving big SUVs
While kids are starving on the streets

No one cares
No one likes to share
I guess life's unfair

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on
If you open your eyes
you'll see that something
Something is wrong