Behind That Smile
By: behindthatsmile
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Summary:
Her smile makes people love her and at the same time, hate her. They don't know what's behind her smile—only him, her angel.
Disclaimer:
I don't own CCS!
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Chapter 1: Tough Life
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-Chapter 1: Tough Life--
She was happy before. She always looked at the bright side but now she could not figure out why she was suddenly looking at her friends' negative traits. Her friends always had mood swings and she swore that she was used to it but... not anymore. What happened?
All of a sudden, she had a bigger picture of her life. It was not as ignorable as she had once thought. Before, she paid no attention to what was going on because she thought it was not a big deal but... it was a big deal.
A very big deal.
To start off, her family. It was never perfect. It had been broken ever since she started understanding the things around her.
Her mother died when she was three. Her mother was pretty—very pretty. Nadeshicko Kinomoto. She idolized her mother of course, but some people think that her mother was vain. She ignored it but now, it mattered to her.
Her father was a university professor—happy with his children, happy taking care of his children alone. But then Touya ran away. And she, Sakura Kinomoto, did not know what to do by then.
Touya had always been there for her. There to tease her. There to annoy her. There to bother her. But above all, he was always there to protect her and to listen to her. And now he was gone. Sure, she could visit him from time to time but it was different when he was at home.
Did she miss the time when Touya and her father fought? She could not remember anything that Touya and his father did to each other. Where was she when the tension was rising up between her two family members?
She had no idea and she did not dare to ask why. Could she do something about it? No. She tried but was unsuccessful.
Secondly, her friends. She was never the same as her friends. Most of the time, she beat them in academics. Not necessarily in sports but she was good enough.
Tomoyo. She liked Eriol just as much as Sakura liked him. Who did Eriol choose? Sakura.
Of course, it brought conflicts to Sakura's circle of friends but then they were over it when Sakura had refused Eriol's proposal to be his girlfriend twice. That had made Tomoyo very happy and Sakura,very sad.
She was more comfortable that way. She would sacrifice her happiness just for the sake of someone else's happiness.
She then realized that she liked Eriol so much more when she had lost him.
It pained her but she could not cry. Her tears would not come out. She didn't want her tears to come out. She doesn't want to cry but her heart already was.
She never cried just because of her problems. But tonight was different. It was too much. They had gone too far.
They were implying that she was a hypocrite and a flirt. It was not her fault that guys still like her no matter how much she pushed them away for the sake of her friends' satisfaction. But her friends were never satisfied. They hated her being on the spotlight but don't they know that she had always been on the backstage?
"Lord, please help me," Sakura prayed. She had nothing else to do but to pray. Maybe the Lord above would finally notice her. "Please help me not to snap and lose my sanity. I can't take this anymore. It's too much."
Tears welled up in her eyes. She would not let it fall. She won't.
"I need someone I can rely on. I need someone to always be there for me. Someone true. Someone who won't be like them. Someone who is not born to hate me."
She was sounding so desperate. She did not close her eyes which people normally do when asking for something because she knows the moment she closes her eyes, her tears would fall.
"Forgive me for being demanding but please help me."
But she could not take it any longer. She closed her eyes and let her tears fall. It was too tough for her. How did she suddenly become so weak?
"God, send me an angel," she whispered then fell asleep with tears in her eyes.
Author's Notes:
Did you like it? Sorry if it was a total crap but this is just like hhmm.. a prologue. Actually I wanna call it a long summary since I didn't give any details whatsoever to her family and friends. Please review!