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Chapter 2 - Josh: Perfect World

I hope you like this guys. It's a grief chapter. Josh.

Josh couldn't forget. He couldn't forget that night when he had to leave Drake so the people could pull him out. He couldn't forget how he had to tell Megan where her brother was. He couldn't forget how Megan's eyes had changed from hopeful to intense sadness. He couldn't forget how she had gotten angry then, yelled at him, accusing him of not saving her brother. He couldn't forget how she had then given up all hope, fading into his arms, as they cried hard that night. He couldn't forget.

Why did Drake have to leave? Why couldn't he be here?

I never could've seen this far
I never could've seen this coming
It seems like my world's falling apart, yeah
Why is everything so hard?
I don't think I can deal with the things you said
It just won't go away

Josh couldn't forget how he had to tell Drake's mom, his step-mom. She had looked up into his eyes in hope. Where was her son?

It was the hardest thing he had ever done. "Drake… Drake's dead."

She had collapsed in grief, fleeing from the room, Josh's dad racing after her. She was beyond comfort. She lost a child. There was nothing compared to that.

And it wasn't fair. Why did Drake have to leave? He had caused so much pain. So much. Josh watched helplessly as everyone fell apart.

In a perfect world
This could never happen
In a perfect world
You'd still be here
And it makes no sense
I could just pick up the pieces
But to you
This means nothing
Nothing at all

Drake's funeral was the worst day in Josh's life. Tears clouded his vision as they buried his step-brother, taking Drake away from him forever. With each shovel-full of gravel, it got harder and harder to accept. How could he go? Why couldn't they have stayed home that day? Why did everything have to be so hard?

People said they were sorry. Why were they sorry for him? Drake was the one that died. Drake was the one whose life had been cut short. Drake was the one who couldn't live to see the rest of his life.

I used to think that I was strong
Until the day it all went wrong
I think I need a miracle to make it through, yeah
I wish that I could bring you back
I wish that I could turn back time
Cause I can't let go
I just can't find my way, yeah
Without you I just can't find my way

It didn't get easier as the days passed. It didn't get any softer, the pain. It just kept coming back, over and over. At night Josh would look up from his bed and call, "Drake?"

And then he would remember. And it would hurt again.

After breakfast, he would ask, "Are you coming Drake?"

And then from the pain on his step-mom's face, he would remember. And the painful twisting would come from inside him, like someone was putting knives into him.

In a perfect world
This could never happen
In a perfect world
You'd still be here
And it makes no sense
I could just pick up the pieces
But to you
This means nothing
Nothing at all

When he had needed someone to talk to, he could always count on Drake. But not anymore. Drake wasn't there. He would reach out, but no one was there. And it hurt him inside. Deep inside.

I don't know what I should do now
I don't know where I should go
I'm still here waiting for you
I'm lost when you're not around
I need to hold on to you
I just can't let you go
yeah, yeah

But it was having more than a mental effect. Drake's death was having a physical effect too. Josh no longer smiled, his joyful grin that he used to. He didn't hug people the way he used to hug everybody. He didn't look at anybody, looked at the ground, only to glance up every once in awhile with eyes full of hurt.

In a perfect world
This could never happen
In a perfect world
You'd still be here
And it makes no sense
I could just pick up the pieces
But to you
This means nothing
Nothing at all
You feel nothing, nothing at all
Nothing at all

The teachers were worried. His parents were worried. But Josh wouldn't open up. He wouldn't talk to anyone. He seemed lifeless.

He couldn't forget.

Megan's next. I hope I can resolve this somehow. Not done yet. Review please! It gives me inspiration.