Disclaimer: NO FELLOW FAN FIC BUDDIES, I DO NOT own any of the Kingdom Hearts stuff nor the song lyrics I used in the story. I clearly stated the name of the songs (if I used bits of it) and the band that sang them. OK?

Finally the concert came. Sora and Kairi both went; having so much fun they actually forgot all the drama that's supposed to be between them. THEY ENDED UP HAVING A LITTLE TOO MUCH TO DRINK AND HAD A LITTLE BATHROOM SEX, IN RESULT OF THIS KAIRI GOT PREGNANT. THE END.(sorry, i'm watching too much THAT 70's SHOW. if you guys watched that show you'd know what i'm talking about.)

HAH HA HA. I'm kidding people. They did have fun though. Not going too far as to "Bathroom Sex", they did however end up making out in the car after the concert. So that was unexpected. That's how Kairi and Sora are. Were things to change? Who knows?

School came again (the concert was during spring break) and things didn't seem to change as much. Kairi was still dating Tidus, Riku in drug rehab, Selphie single again, Yuffie still drooling over Tommy, and…Leon just…being Leon. Was Kairi using Sora? Like some cheap gigalo? OMG. No she wouldn't. SHE COULDN'T. Sora told his now best friend, Yuffie of what had happened at the concert and his feelings of what might be happening. Yuffie totally busted out laughing at Sora so hard she had a cramp afterwards.

"Sora? You…a gigalo for Kairi? HAH AH HA HAH AHAH AH!" she fell over and rolled onto her stomach, still lying down on her bed she looked up, "Wow. So how much for say—-15 minutes, Sora?" she teased.

Sora jumped on her and hit her with a pillow. Yuffie yelled out, "WAIT!" Sora stopped to accept an apology, "What?" "How much is this going to cost me?" from a pillow fight to ROUND THREE of their tickle fight, Yuffie continued to make fun of Sora. Then the phone rang, Yuffie answered,

"Hello?"

"Hi, is Yuffie home?"

"Uh…yes. Who's this?"

"Hey, this is Tommy."

"Oh" she began to smile from ear to ear, "Can you hang on a sec, Tommy?"

"Yeah sure."
She put him on hold.

"How'd Tommy get my number?"

Sora laughed, "I told him how you had a HUGE CRUSH on him and he asked for it. Don't deny it, you're SO GLAD I did."

Yuffie gave Sora a small shove and he nearly fell off the bed. Sora continued laughing and then making a motion with his hand signaled, "Call me later" and left the room.

Kairi's birthday- at 9:03, Kairi was in her room typing up an essay for her English class; she was totally in the zone when her phone rang. Now distracted she lost her train of thought; frustrated she sighed and leaned back in her chair and glared at her phone. It rang again and she grumbled, "ARGH, who the heck is calling?" staring at the caller id: Incoming call from DORK. She answered the phone, "What Sora?" she narrowed her eyes at the computer screen and then spun her chair around facing away from it.

"Open your window." Kairi whipped around and saw a figure kneeling outside her window. She hung up the phone and walked over the window seeing a flash of cobalt eyes; it was Sora. A car drove by and he ducked thinking it might be her dad or something. Kairi lifted the latch on the window and pulled the windowpane up.

"Why'd you climb up here? You could have used that thing called 'THE DOOR'." Kairi placed her hands on her hips.

Sora ignored what she said, "I came to say 'Happy Birthday'. Is that ok?"

Kairi looked at Sora for a bit and then nodded 'yes'. "But really, why didn't you just ring the doorbell?" she asked again in a not so 'why the heck are you here?' tone. Sora shrugged.

"So what was that?" He finally spoke.

(Yellowcard-Only One)

Broken this fragile thing now

"What was what?"

And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces

"The…concert." Sora kept his gaze on her; Kairi broke the eye lock and looked down at the windowsill.

And I've thrown my words all around

"Nothing?" Sora answered and asked for her.

But I can't, I can't give you a reason

Kairi shifted uncomfortably, now looking up to meet his eyes again, "Sora, you know it can't really mean-change. I'm with…Tidus." Kairi looked away again not wanting to see the look on Sora's face.

I feel so broken up (so broken up)

"So this is really it?"

And I give up (I give up)

"What?" Kairi was lost now. "What do you mean it's really it?" Sora climbed in through the window now and Kairi hesitated.

"Us. This. Everything…" Sora began.

I just want to tell you so you know

"…You're seriously saying there's nothing left for us? Kairi, you know I still-"

Made my mistakes, let you down

"Stop." Sora stared into her ocean-blue eyes and she quickly looked down, what was with the lack of eye contact? Sora looked down trying to catch a glimpse of her face that she kept trying to hide, "Sora, you know the position I'm stuck with right now. It's not that…simple. I can't drop everything just for-"

And I can't, I can't hold on for too long

"Why can't you! I'd 'drop everything' and risk losing it all for you."

Ran my whole life in the ground

"Sora…" Sora placed his hand under her chin and slowly raised her to face him.

And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

"What is it?"

(Yellowcard-Empty Apartment)

Someday if ever you love me you'd say it's okay

Kairi wrapped her arms around his waist and buried her face into his chest. "Sora, I love Tidus; I do. But, it's like-I can't let you go. I feel free; I do what I want when I'm with you. I don't have to do what everyone else wants me to and life is just... so much easier. You just-"

Does it hurt when you think about me?


"I keep falling for you every time. I think I can hang out with you and handle it, but I can't; I really can't." she took a few breaths, her face still hidden, "Is it possible to love more than one person?"

And how broken my heart is

"Maybe…but you're always going to love one of them more. Right?"

It's okay to be angry and never let go
It only gets harder the more that you know


Kairi looked up, small trails of tears spilling down from her eyes.

When you get lonely if no one's around,

you know that I'll catch you when you're falling down.

Sora leaned in to kiss her and she didn't stop him; it just felt so right. Why? There was still Tidus, wonderful and…faithful Tidus. Guilt struck Kairi and she backed away from the kiss and took a few steps away from Sora.

We came together but you left alone,

And I know how it feels to walk out on your own

Sora looked at her still, not wanting this to be real; the end. She didn't look away from the floor; Sora shook his head and pitied himself for being so dumb. He dropped a package onto her bed before he started to leave. He climbed half way out the window and took a look back over his shoulder. Kairi watched him now.

Maybe someday I will see you again

Sora looked down at the roof tiles and then gently placed his feet on them and set his full weight down on it slowly still grasping onto the windowsill. He looked at Kairi once more and she stood in the same spot still watching him but emotionless.


And you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend

………………………………………………………………..

Sora held back the urge to drop himself onto the floor and bawl like a baby, he was halfway home now-he was the only person outside (besides the hobos). It was dark, near midnight. He kicked a soda can out of his way and watched it bounce into the empty street. Remembering his surroundings he looked up at the street signs, 'Huntington and Brawly'.

On their first date Sora walked Kairi home this way, about the same time as now. Sora and Kairi were talking and then Sora had the 'brilliant' idea of lying down in the middle of the street for the heck of it. Kairi having full trust in Sora just went along with it, they spoke of nothing important and nearly forgot what they were doing until a car began to honk at them manically; Kairi shrieked and darted back onto the sidewalk with Sora right behind her. Kairi could not stop herself from laughing-no idea why, that was more scary than funny.

"I do what I want when I'm with you. I don't have to do what everyone else wants me to and life is just... so much easier."

Sora went home still a bit distraught-he tried to hide it though. He walked into the house quietly trying to avoid anyone noticing him. Too late, his sneakers made squeaking sounds against the marble floor and Cloud walked in.

"Where have you been?" He scratched his head roughing up his hair even more.

"No where." Sora continued up the stairs and hurried before Cloud could try to start a conversation. He shut the door and then flopped down on the bed. With out changing out of his clothes he lied there on his bed and cried himself to sleep. That slumber didn't last long enough (like FOREVER which he had hoped for), he woke up to find it was only 3:45 in the morning. His eyes were swollen from all the tear-shed a few hours ago. He wrapped his arms around himself and rocked himself, he was losing it-without Kairi, what was the point of living? The thought echoed again, 'What IS the point of living?' to suffer more? Sora walked over to his dresser; he opened the top drawer and withdrew a small shiny razor. All the lights were off in his room, moonlight flowed through the half open window and it glimmered against the silver. Sora narrowed his eyes at the sight of himself being reflected off the razor. He moved into the bathroom connected to his room and shut the door behind him.

In the bathroom Sora sat down on the edge of his bathtub. He glanced in it then back at the razor, that was a faggoty way to go. He slit lines across his left arm and watched as the blood slowly oozed out of the open wounds. He was too 'numb' inside to actually feel the pain. The drops landed on the tile floor and splattered a bit. It was calming.

Ten minutes later Sora emerged from the bathroom and looked up at where he used to have his old toy sailboat hung up. The wood seemed sturdy enough to hold his weight. Sora created a noose out of his bed sheets; finishing up the slipknot he put his head through and tightened it. He glanced around his room and then back to his arm, the blood streamed down and had made a puddle on the hardwood floor. Sora took a breath and then kicked off the chair he was standing on. Everything became unclear and his vision was now useless, he was suffocating, everything went black and then all became quiet. Sora had blacked out.

Unpleasantly Sora woke up the next morning to find he had not died as he planned. Cloud had come in to check up on him because he didn't seem too good and luckily cut him loose before he actually 'went'. Sora grimaced at the site of the cut noose still hanging up on the ceiling. His neck was extremely sore and he couldn't breath as easily as he did before. Hopefully that wasn't permanent if he were to stay alive any longer. Sora hated himself. He couldn't do anything right-he can't even kill himself. "God Damn it!" he heard himself say. Surprised he was able to say something he decided to save whatever was left of his voice and just relax. He rolled over to his left, but putting weight on his left arm (the cut one) he yelped in pain. Remembering what he did yesterday all the memories flushed back into his mind. The numbness and the wanting to end it all-that wasn't him though. What am I really then?

Cloud walked in with a bowl of soup and a new roll of bandage for his arm. He saw that Sora was awake and just shook his head. Placing the things next to Sora he finally said, "I can't believe-" Sora glared up at him, shaking his head again, "What the hell were you thinking Sora?"

"Life seems really screwed up and useless at this point, and I thought-'oh, it'd be fun to DIE'!" he shouted still with his very hoarse voice. He calmed down a bit and then rolled over to his right facing the wall with his back turned to his brother.

There was nothing else to really say except 'I hope you get better' or 'you'll get over it, trust me-everything's ok'. That was a lie, and the first one Sora would just scoff at. Cloud walked slowly back out of the room the way he came in.

In the hallway his wife appeared, "Hun, is he ok?"

Cloud put on a fake smile, "He'll be fine, soon enough." He placed his arm around her and led her downstairs.

A/N: ok was totally having WRITER'S BLOCK, so i got a suggestion from DieChan to write the suicide attempt. I had extra time on my hands so this chapter's been posted up quicker than my usual rate, which is already pretty fast. i don't like waiting forever for other people to update lol, it drives me crazy so i try updating OOBER FAST.