ME: OMG--SORRY ABOUT THE DELAY GUYS. my step dad decided to be a meanie pants and cancel the internet. hah ha. but i complained to mommy and whatever mommy says GOES so she had Rene put the internet back up. YAY TO MOMMY.

DISCLAIMER: I don't not own Kingdom Hearts or the songs I use in this story—DON'T SUE ME.

A/N: I haven't been working on much DRAMA in this story have I? I just remembered the genre of my story was Romance and Drama. So here comes the drama—I might not be very good at this—lol. So don't flame me for this chapter and the following chapters after this.

"Tidus—I..I" Kairi hesitated.

His eyes became watery and he tried so hard to hold them back. Crying at school, in front of EVERYONE would be embarrassing. His gaze was now downcast avoiding eye contact with Kairi. He blinked—oh no. Two tear drops fell to the ground.

"Oh my gosh—Tidus. Don't—" Kairi started forward to hug him but he stepped back.

"NO. Kairi—I, I knew this was coming, but I didn't do anything. You know?" he glanced up, "I tried hanging on to that LAST strand of hope that you might really just—love me. But, you don't..and there's really nothing I can do about that—"

"Tidus—Stop."

Tidus looked down at her still holding back the waterfall of tears, (A/N: Tidus isn't a crybaby in this story—if that's what you're thinking. Lol—really, someone you love telling you they love someone else really REALLY bites.) "I—I hope you'll be happy Kai."

"Tidus…" what could she say? Sorry? Sorry wasn't enough right now. I love you? No but—he'd just…gosh. What to do……poor Tidus. "I'm—"

"I love you." He swallowed, "Know that." He turned around and walked down the hall with his head hung low.

THE BELL RANG. Kairi stood where she was, what had just happened? She blinked and looked away from Tidus to see if anyone had just witnessed their break up. No one. Good. She ran a hand through her long hair and then crossed her arms. I feel really bad now..i didn't want to hurt Tidus, it's just—he wasn't supposed to— "Kairi!" Kairi bit her lip and turned around, Oh it's just Sora. Sora!

Sora walked over to her and smiled, "Hey. Haven't talked to you all week. What's up?"

Kairi looked down the hall in the direction Tidus had walked off in then turned back to face Sora, "Um—nothing…really." Should I tell him? Maybe I should. This is what I've been waiting for—isn't it? "Uh..Sora?"

"Yeah?"

"You know—um. Me and—"

"DUDE!" Reno ran up from behind Sora and stopped bending over to catch his breath, "OMG. I've been looking for you, dude, you FRIGGIN MISSED IT! Wakka lit up his hackysack and the idiot did a 'hat brim stall' and his hair was caught on fire. HAH HA. He's soo FRIGGIN stupid!" Reno continued laughing. Sora began laughing already when Reno said Wakka tried a hat brim stall.

Sora laughed for a while longer but turned to see why Kairi was being so quiet. "Kairi?" she was gone. Must not have found the incident very funny. Sora shrugged it off and left to class.

After school, finally. Kairi had dreaded the entire day. She was so worried about running into Tidus in the halls and seeing him in their 5th period Spanish class. But when the three o' clock bell rang, she found she was really disappointed and bothered that he was nowhere to be seen. Outside in the parking lot she found his car and decided to wait for him, she didn't worry until the sun began to set and he never showed up. She got up off the hood of the car and began walking to her car; it was beginning to get cool now that the sun was disappearing. Kairi hugged her ceramics project (that she had turned in last week and received an A on) near her and searched her bag for her keys.

Reaching her car, she had still not found her keys. She was beginning to get irritated. "ARGH." She placed her project on the hood of the car and moved the long bangs out of her face to the side. Then she heard a girl's giggle from off in the distance. Actually, it didn't seem all that far away. Kairi looked up away from her bag and scanned her surroundings, she didn't know anyone was still there. Maybe the person had a phone she could use, she had forgotten hers at home that morning.

Kairi picked up her ceramic vase and began walking towards the 'people'. She walked around the corner of the gym she was parked next to and spotted the back of a blonde girl (the one from earlier that morning, the one who came up and hugged Sora. She's also the chick who er—'hooked up with' Sora at the party and gave him the hickies) in a jean jacket and a pink mini skirt. not a very good day to wear a skirt—it was pretty cold right now. The girl was with someone, Kairi couldn't see and didn't care anyway. She just needed to use someone's phone and go home.

Kairi cleared her throat, "Um. Excuse me—do any of you guys have a phone I can use?"

The girl jumped a little and turned around startled. Her shirt (underneath her jacket) was unbuttoned completely and she had lip gloss smudged on her lips. Her eyes were wide, she quickly zipped up her jacket and took a step away from... Kairi dropped her vase. It shattered around her but she didn't notice. She no longer saw the girl, but the guy she was with. Sora. OMG. And—ewe.

"Kai—what are you still doing here?" Sora rubbed the lipgloss off his lips with the back of his hand.

Kairi blinked twice, and looked down at the ground, her vase. Broken. She looked back up at Sora, her face expressing anger now; she shook her head and took off back to her car. She looked through her bag again, OH NOW I find my stupid keys. When Sora began following after her she broke out into a run. She got into her car and locked the door and started the car as fast as she could.

Sora ran up to the window and banged on it, "Kairi. KAIRI! C'mon. that's not—I don't even know who she is!"

Kairi turned her head and looked up at him now shocked, "you disgust me Sora!" she put the car in reverse, Sora ran with the car still hanging onto the rear view mirror so he wouldn't fall behind.

"Kairi. ok—I know her name. We're not dating. KAI! STOP THE CAR. Talk to me!"

Kairi glanced up at him then put more pressure on the gas pedal.

"Why are you so upset? You act like we're dating, you've got Tidus—why aren't I allowed to fool around?" oh how stupid Sora can be sometimes.

Kairi slammed the breaks and he flew forward five feet, not falling to the ground, of course. Kairi got out of the car and was totally prepared to sock him in the face, "You—You're such a PIG Sora!"

"What? We weren't doing anything! So we were making out and she—"

Kairi placed her hands over her ears, "I DON'T WANT TO KNOW!" ARRGH! She stomped her foot like a little kid, "GOSH. You just—ARGH. I hate you Sora! I hate you! I don't want to love you anymore..but you know what? YOU—" she wanted to pull out her hair, "I just DO!"

"What the heck are you talking about Kairi?" Sora was totally confused now.

"I…I BROKE UP WITH Tidus. I don't know why—I mean. I do. But—I don't know. ARGH." Kairi looked away from him and over to the whore-ish blonde girl stumbling out from the corner she and Sora were just at earlier. How can a girl degrade herself like that? Kairi pitied her—a little.

"Kairi—when was this?" Sora glanced over at the girl Kairi was staring at, then back at her. "Kai?"

She looked up at him. Oh no..i'm going to cry. I'm going to—omg Kairi..DON'T! "I have to go." She ran back in the car and drove off before Sora could attempt to jump on the car again.

"She loves me?" Sora said to himself. The girl came up to Sora and opened her mouth to say something but Sora stopped her, "You know what Katie, just—leave me alone right now. Really—hanging out with you is NOT helping me."

She grew infuriated, "My NAME is Karen."

Sora shook his head, "Sorry Karen, I gotta go."

Sora had missed his ride with Yuffie because his unexpected appointment with Karen so he had to walk home.

Finally home, Kairi pulled up into the driveway and parked the car. She pulled out the keys and then taking in a breath, she let it all out. She cried, for at least an hour.Cried about Sora, about Tidus, and about how shitty it all madeher feel.It was completely dark now; she wiped her face and then went in the house. There her mom and dad sat at the couch, both with emotionless faces.

"Kairi!" her mother burst out into tears running up to her. She embraced Kairi and continued to weep. Her father sat still on the couch and stared at his hands.

"What? ..Mom? what's wrong?" Kairi looked back and fourth between her mother and father.

Her mother could not stop crying to say it.

"Tidus is dead." Her father said flatly.

Kairi's eyes widened, "What are you talking about? I—I saw him this morning when—"

"He's…" her mother sniffled, "He's dead honey. He killed himself." She wiped her tears, pulling a folded peace of paper with blood drops on it. "He went home today around 1 or 2 and—he shot himself in the head." She broke out into tears again, "This is for you." She handed the note to Kairi.

Kairi couldn't let the tears out—she was just too shocked. She prayed that the note would contain the words "JUST KIDDING" or something. Anything. She rotated the note to see the letters on the still folded paper; it was her name 'Kairi' in Tidus's messy handwriting. Kairi looked up at her mother, without a word she walked up the stairs to her room slowly—her eyes focused on the letter.

There she set her bag down on her desk chair and sat on her bed. She still studied the unopened letter. Suicide letter maybe? Just—to say good—even her thoughts in her head 'choked'. Kairi still could not cry. She opened the letter, her hands shaking.

I love you—know that.

Kairi folded the paper back to the way it was and placed it beside her. She shook now, tears streaming down her face, her lip quivering trying to hold it in. that didn't work—she ended up crying herself to sleep that night.

Sweet dreams.

Can you forgive me again?
I don't know what I said
But I didn't mean to hurt you

Why was today so cold? Today. No sun. The sky was gray, covered with clouds, luckily no rain, though. The funeral was sad (of course) and very quiet.

Kairi wept silently to herself, she watched as they lowered the coffin into the ground. She, as everyone else there too, wore some sort of black attire. But she was the only one with a little color, so she stood out. She wore a woman's black blazer witha pairof black dickies pantsand the black and hot pink tie Tidus had bought her and a pair of chucks. Her cheeks were stained with tears and mascara, her auburn hair in a mess and hey eyes tired-looking from lack of sleep.

I heard the words come out
I felt that I would die
It hurt so much to hurt you

Tidus's mother came behind her and put an arm around her shoulders, "I'm so sorry Mrs—"

"No honey, it's not your fault. No one really knows why he did this."

I do.

"You just loved him—that's not a crime."

But I didn't—

"Honey, are you ok?"

She finally spoke, "Yeah..I just—really miss him." Kairi walked up to the uncovered hole.

Then you look at me
You're not shouting anymore
You're silently broken

"NO. Kairi—I, I knew this was coming, but I didn't do anything. You know? I tried hanging on to that LAST strand of hope that you might really just—love me. But, you don't..and there's really nothing I can do about that—"

I'd give anything now
to kill those words for you

"I—I hope you'll be happy Kai."

Each time I say something I regret I cry "I don't want to lose you."
But somehow I know that you will never leave me, yeah.

Kairi closed her eyes then opened them again to stop the memory. She examined the white rose in her hand and smiled whispering, "I'll miss you."

'Cause you were made for me
Somehow I'll make you see
How happy you make me

I can't live this life
Without you by my side
I need you to survive

She let go of the rose and watched as the rose fell and landed on the coffin, in Kairi's mind this all played in slow motion. "I'm sorry, Tidus."

So stay with me
You look in my eyes and I'm screaming inside that I'm sorry.

And you forgive me again
You're my one true friend
And I never meant to hurt you

A/N: ok—I feel evil now. I made Tidus die. Tidus fans please don't shoot me. lol—ok. Um. I think I'm going to end this story in like—one or two more chapters. I'm not sure yet. ARGH—I'm kinda losing the inspiration to write—you know what I mean? Oh well whatever.

The song I used was "FORGIVE ME" by evanescence (love that band!)

Putting more time in this story—I'm putting a pause on my other one. Only SO MUCH creativeness/imagination can fit in this tiny little head of mine. Haha.