I don't believe it. Not a word of it. It's probably someone else, a misunderstanding, nothing to worry about.»
Shut up, Potter. » I walked hastily around the castle, following behind the fifth year student, but by the time we arrived, the two had already gone. I knew where to look for them. Evening was settling in and, although the students were running out of energy, they'd stay outside for quite a while, enjoying one of the first warm days of the year. Sirius and his 'girlfriend' had run off to a deserted, private place, for a while at least, inside the gryffindor's common room.
'Evenin', Black.» I smiled, gritting my teeth to prevent me from…making him suffer a most painful death.
Oy! Prongs, 'thought I told you to keep everyone out until 8!»
Shit. Dawn, please don't kill me. »
You mean-you were in this too? »
I…er-it wasn't exactly planned…» James ran a hand through his hair, looking nervously toward the portrait. I guess he hoped someone would run in to magically change the conversation. I, on the other hand, wanted an explanation.
Black, » I said «I think we need to talk.» He gulped, wincing a bit, then straightened his face.
About what?»
Oh, I wonder. » I sat beside him, pushing the other girl away. «Scram, blondie. I've got business to settle.» No need to say she left without hesitation, although, I must admit, more than just a litle vexed.
I guess you don't appreciate me running off in the middle of a game.»
I like your attempt at the 'I'm innocent' excuse. Tell me why.»
Why what?»
Get to the point, Black.»
I just-do I have to have a reason?»
Let me think…»
I felt like it, I guess.»
You felt like cheating on me!»
Well, yeah! And you blame me for it?»
Seems a bit unusual not to!»
Can't a man just do what he feels like doing without being yelled at?»
Running off with some blond chick you don't even know? NO!»
Dammit, lower your voice down! »
No! Listen, Black. Drop the act, and talk to me like a man. I thought you loved me.»
I guess you thought wrong. Why can't you understand me?»
Why can't you try to understand me? »
If you don't like what I do-»
You mean what you're not supposed to be doing?»
Where is that written down? I don't see any bloody rulebook in the first place!»
It's common sense, Black! You don't go make out with somene else when you have a girlfriend!»
And why not?»
Because that's something you do when you love someone! You don't do it because you 'feel like it'!»
How do you know! Maybe you should try and consider the fact that us guys don't work the same way as girls!»
For Godric's sake, Black! You can't start living out your little sexual fantasies! It just doesn't work that way!»
Alright, alright! I won't do it again!»
So you figure I'll just give it up, forgive you, and act as if nothing had happened? »
Well y-»
Forget it, Black.» Storming out of the room, where everybdy had gathered to watch the show, I finally took a breath and regained the normal color of my face. My vision was clearing up again and I felt much calmer now that I'd let my anger explode. I spent the next few hours wandering about the dark, moist halls of Hogwarts, dreading the time I'd have to go back and face him again. For a second, I wished I could be the only living person in the world.
I took a deep breath before I passed through the portrait hole again, and stiffened as I realised the only person still awake was the one I'd rather have asleep. I'd avoided Black effectively for three days, and hoped I'd forget him. He was always in the blondie's company, who seemed to feel sorry for me. I'd overheard one of they conversations once "Are you just using me to get back at her, Sirius?" "'Course not. I love you." Bullshit.
Every time I heard his voice or saw his shadow, I wished he didn't exsist. Yet there he was, still in my mind, still on the crimson couch, still awake.
Sirius.» I sighed.
Why do you insist on making youself hate me?»
-Someone's got to be the black sheep of the herd.» I retorted, crossing my arms impatiently.
You're jealous.»
You wish.»
What makes me so dispicable to your eyes?»
You really want to know?» I waited for a sign to continue this long awaited speech. « First, I hate your attitude. I hate the way you're such an arrogant bastard, a bloody liar, and a stupid guy without a brain, or a conscience all at the same time! I'm surprised you're still alive! I hate the fact that you discard everything you don't like, you smile at every stupid thing said, you do anything to get what yu want, and when it doesn't please you any more, you just forget about it! I hate the fact that you're a bloody prat and you get better notes than me!
« Second, I hate how you look. I hate how you attract girls like shit attracts flies, an how you can get anyone you'd ever want in bed, and I hate how you talk, and how you laugh, and how you walk. I hate your blue eyes that see through even the thickest, most solid mask. I hate- I hate your strong arms, legs, I hate how you kiss, how you hug. I hate everything about you! I hate how you're so perfect! »
Hold on…» Sirius replied after having absorbed all I'd just said. I was practically hyperventilating from the anger that reddened my face and the blood that was dripping out of my very tightly clenched fist. «You think that my life is perfect?» He shouted. I was caught by surprise.
What? »
How would you like it if your parents would've tried to kill you when you were younger, if they'd spent the most part of their lives beating you just because you weren't like the other son, the better son they had? How would you like going to sleep with a huge gash in your forehead or a broken nose? How would you like if you had to keep it a secret, if you couldn't get help, if you had to constantly make up stupid excuses for all the bruises, broken bones, scars? HOW WOULD YOU LIKE TO BE A MISTAKE? »
Sirius, I had no idea- I'm so-»
Sorry? Don't be! I've lived with it, I'm accustomed to it by now. Don't pity me. Go to sleep, you need it: you look like shit.» He walked up the dorm's staircase and I heard a door slam, then silence. Nearly unbearable silence.
I've decided to add chapter names.I kinda think they ruin the suspense, but I guess I feel like it, so I will.Hope you like my story so far, please review me about it!