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Chapter 3
Unfortunately, Kai did not relax, but the pain of seen pictures was still visible in his steel gray eyes.
The bit beasts' conversation went on, as Driger joined the 'chatroom'.
Hi there, the tiger purred, nice meeting we have here today…
Very nice… Dranzer said sarcastically I can't image something better.
Oh, oh, has this Dranzer being in ' pyre-mode' something to do with little Kai sitting here and staring at the laptop? Driger inquired.
I'm not on edge! The phoenix cried, but no one paid attention to him.
Yes, Dizzi answered to Driger's question, Kai wanted to ask me something, but he hasn't opened his mouth till now…
She has been showing him videos of him with Black Dranzer on the screensaver and hurt him, Dranzer shouted accusingly.
Well, that right she has, Driger stated, Kai threatened us all with his actions then. He almost assimilated US in that evil bit beast. Even you had to fight against him.
Draciel agreed, but Dragoon joined the conversation. Kai found to his senses again and returned. In my eyes that counts more for him than his treason.
Draciel slowly disagreed I think it does not. Loyalty is the most important quality of friendship and he betrayed his friends, us and even you, Dranzer.
Everyone deserves a second chance! Dranzer said hotly. It hurt me that he left me, yes, but it was not his fault. It was this mutilated Black Dranzer. Kai really repents his actions, and, in my opinion he always deserves a second chance! A phoenix has to burn to be reborn again!
Dizzi sighed and produced her motherly side. Let me try something.
Kai opened his eyes and almost jumped at the sight that greeted him on the laptop's screen. Some writing slowly wandered across it.
…
You may write me down in history
With your bitter, twisted lies,
You may trod me in the very dirt
But still, like dust, I'll rise
You may shoot me with your words,
You may cut me with your eyes,
You may kill me with your hatefulness,
But still, like air, I'll rise.
Out of the huts of history's shame
I rise
Up from a past that's rooted in pain
I rise
I'm a black ocean, leaping and wide,
Welling and swelling I bear in the tide.
Leaving behind nights of terror and fear
I rise
Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave,
I am the dream and the hope of the slave.
I rise
I rise
I rise
A/N: This is an excerpt of a poem from Maya Angelou, Still I rise
"Dizzi?" Kai asked, surprise audible in his cool voice.
Finally a good idea of you laptop head, Dizzi.
Hey, no insults, Dranzer. I was only trying to help.
"Do you like it?" Dizzi answered.
Kai nodded, but his eyes, which had lit up for the part of a second, clouded again.
"I betrayed Dranzer, when I got hold of Black Dranzer. I thought he might not even return to me…"
"Dranzer?" He took the blade that he had been holding on to out of the pocket and looked at it. Then he looked at the laptop again. His voice was almost soft as he spoke: "Dizzi, was that Dranzer? The way my blade suddenly grew warmer? "
Of course I was! What did he think? Dranzer said.
"Yes, Kai, that was Dranzer." Dizzi told him.
"I'm so sorry." Kai's voice was husky, as if unused to such words.
"We know…it was his way of telling you that he has forgiven you."
"Dranzer…" Guilt shone through Kai's gray eyes.
They grew silent again, Kai seemingly in deep thought, the bitbeasts calm and waiting.
"Kai?" Dizzi asked almost timidly after some time.
"Hn?"
"You wanted to ask me something. "
"Yes," he answered, not looking at laptop screen, but on some spot at the table. He didn't ask his question.
The boy is going to annoy me, Dizzi told the bit beasts.
Give him a little time; it's maybe not so easy for him. Drigger said.
I think I'm going to try something, Dizzi said.
Dranzer was about to protest, but Dizzi was faster.
"I'm sorry that I showed you the pictures of Black Dranzer, Kai…I didn't want to hurt you…"
Kai looked up to her screen, somewhat startled: "You did not hurt me!" he protested.
Liar!
"Well, then I'm glad that I didn't. It's only that Dranzer told me otherwise…"
Kai pressed his lips together, closing his eyes for a second, then he murmured: "Dranzer might have been right." Then he looked away hastily.
Dizzi, you…! But it worked, Dranzer admitted grudgingly.
At least he let his cold mask down a little. It was about time. Draciel stated.
Draciel! Dranzer felt the urge to defend his blader.
He does not need to keep it up. He is only here with me. It's no one else watching, Dizzi said, I mean except of you, of course.
Surprisingly, Kai spoke: "So, is it true, that you bit beasts talk to each other?"
"Yes."
"And you talk about me?"
"At the moment, yes."
"At the moment?"
"Dranzer, Draciel, Drigger and Dragoon, just came over some minutes ago, to visit my in my little chatroom. And today, our topic of conversation is you. What is, of course, very understandable, you being the only one still awake."
Kai crossed his arms sternly: "And what are you talking about me?"
Don't you say anything wrong, Dizzi! Dranzer threatened Or I will grill you in this laptop.
Calm down, Dranzer, Draciel said, no need to be so protective.
I only want you to be nice to my Kai once in a while!
Hn. Why should I? Draciel asked.
Shut up, both of you. Drigger snarled. You are disturbing my purring.
"Do you really want to know?" Dizzi asked playfully.
"Yes," Kai nodded sternly.
"Really sure…?" she asked.
Don't tease him!
He needs it.
"Yes," Kai relaxed a bit.
See?
"It was nothing really bad, you know. Except of that little incident in Russia, but Dranzer seems to be the one who has forgiven you in no time."
Kai's eyes darkened again: "And the others?"
"Are mainly glad that you are back on the team again. "
"It's good that they worked together to defeat Black Dranzer. I don't want to believe I tried to assimilate them all…"
It's just because he wanted to be near me again. Dranzer joked.
"Dranzer said that you just wanted to be near him again…" Dizzi told him.
"It's not an excuse," Kai said heavily," but I was kind of …crazed out at the time… I'm not proud of what I did."
"The shock of hurting memories returning surely stressed you up…"
"The others still consider me a friend, after all I have done." Kai said.
"This is not exactly the attitude you grew up with, is it?"
Kai shook his head, his eyes again filling with dreadful shadows. His voice was cold again, as he talked: "Rule number one: Don't lose. Rule number two: Don't show emotions, because they make you lose. Rule number three: A loser is worth nothing. Being friends was not a topic in the abbey, being strong was. The strong stuck together in their contempt for the weak, and who was weak didn't survive long."
My, my, Dizzi wondered, the boy is being in communicative mood today…
Maybe because he is so tired…Drigger grinned.
"But that's over now, isn't it?" Dizzi asked.
Kai's face showed if not a smile, a contented calmness: "I guess it is. It feels strange to be accepted by others. Not feared or tolerated. Only accepted." A quick, shy smile flashed across his shark-fin painted face, "I might get used to that…"
A/N: I hope I didn't make too many mistakes (Englisch is not my mother tongue). Anyway, feel free to tell me if you jump across some grave mistakes.