Crash
Chapter six: Tears of Fantasy
Crash. That's what Kurama heard, resounding in his ears. He had promised himself he wouldn't let anything happen to Cris, and not she was gone. Taken by some freak demon who would do who knows what to her.
"She's not in the forest." Shuichi stated as the boys got back to the center of the forest. They had been out all night looking for the missing Cris, and still couldn't find her. They had found a burned camp, and a few bodies, but the main man and Cris were both missing. And no one was alive so they couldn't ask anyone about it.
"Maybe she's in the town close by." Touya said. Everyone looked at Touya and nodded in agreement. "I guess we'll look there next." Jin said. Kurama sighed and looked at Hiei, who just looked back at him. "Let's go." Kurama said, walking on.
I woke up the next day, looking around at the small cozy room Chii had managed to buy us. It was small, with two beds and one mirror, but very homely. "Oh, you're up!" Chii said, putting food down on the bed. "I hope you like shrimp rice, it's all they had that I could afford." She said.
"You shouldn't have gotten me anything; I'm not all that hungry." I said. Chii shook her head. "Non-sense." She said. I laughed and started to eat, I was extremely starving. While we ate, it was completely silent. I was deep in thought about; well everything that seemed to be happening and Chii was deep in thought about something or another. It was weird, being there in that land. Everything was so foreign and yet I never stopped to take it in, my mind was set on saving Zaku and Riin.
"I went shopping, for some clothes for you." Chii said, handing me a few outfits. I sighed and looked down, they were all beautiful, two dresses and two pant outfits. I think a smile appeared on my face, because Chii started to laugh as I put on one of the pant outfits and put the rest in a small bag that Chii had gotten me. "You look good. And I'm spoiling you." She said, as if reading my mind. Both of us laughed, and then we headed out of the hotel and out onto the street.
"Thanks." I said, turning to the entrance of the town. "They'll be here soon, I hope." Chii nodded. "And I have to go. Lots of work." She said, forlornly. I didn't want to let her leave, but she had insisted on it last night, so I watched as Chii walked into a crowd and I was left all alone. I could tell that people were looking at me, wondering why I was just standing there. But I didn't notice them, I was off in my world and I was trying not to be too depressed. Chii had given me my knife back, but she said that I shouldn't use it unless I really needed to.
It was a few moments later when I noticed that two demons were staring at me quite pointedly and once I looked at them they started to walk towards me. At that moment I didn't know what was happening, I was just frozen by their eyes. Before I knew what to do one of the guys had pinned me against the wall and was trying to get his hand down my pants. The other guy was standing by my side and stroking my chest, whispering things in my ear.
"A beautiful girl like you shouldn't be wearing pants." He said with a smirk on his face. I felt calm during this, with the guy whispering and both of them touching me. I was like I was whenever my father did this, I was numb and weak. It shocked the two, I think, that I didn't refuse their touch, or even flinch and move away. "That's a good girl, you are very good. . ." The man said. I looked at him, and something caught my eye. Past the man stood my chaperones. They were getting ready to attack the men, yet Shuichi, he looked Bewildered.
Both men fell to the ground, shivering and smoldering. I gasped, as if I had been underwater and finally got some air and ran over to Shuichi, hugging him. "Oh thank you. I was so scared." I said, looking up at him. Shuichi hadn't hugged me back, he looked stunned. "You didn't act like it." He stated. I stepped back and looked at him.
"Was I supposed to? After being with my father, forever?" I asked, challenging. Shuichi was taken aback and he looked down at me. "It wasn't your father. Chris we were worried, you were supposed to at least try and fight back." He said. Neither of us noticed that the rest of the guys had left to go buy something or another.
"Shuichi I can't fight back! You should know that! I'm not strong enough!" I yelled at him, turning on my heel and I started to walk. I didn't know where I was headed, but I was mad. I didn't get far though, because Shuichi grabbed my wrist and turned me around. "Chris you are strong enough. You really are." He said, so softly that I almost couldn't hear him. I looked up and bit my lip. Shuichi smiled a bit and hugged me. I felt safe there in his arms, so safe and so perfect.
When he let me go I went back into reality, and yet wished that I could go back, knowing that I couldn't. "Thanks." I whispered, and then we went off to find the rest of the guys.
All the rest of that day, during everything that we did (which was mostly walking), I wondered about that sparkle that I had seen in Shuichi's eyes while I was in his grasp. It was haunting, I'd never seen it before and it made me feel warm every time I saw it in my mind.
When we had set up camp I had decided not to think about it anymore and I just sat by the fire listening to the guys talk. Every once in a while Shuichi would look at me and I would look away from him to who ever was talking. It was funny, I felt like one of those girls in the movies. Yet I wasn't. How could I be love sick? Ha!
For the next three days all we did was walk and talk, and slowly I forgot about what had happened. As we walked I felt like those poor Hobbits that had to walk all the way to the one elfin place and as they went they tightened their belts. (Note to self: find that part of the book when I get home.)
The nights I would sit and talk to the boys. It was then that I found out that people's lives aren't always as happy as I thought they were. Maybe I was selfish or just wanted my life to be 'special' because I wasn't, but to me people's lives were always perfect. Then again the guys weren't human. Oh, I was the only human and the only girl. Chii left me, sadly.
"Cris, what's your Step-fathers name?" Shuichi asked me one night. I looked up at him, from my thoughts and the fire light. "I don't know. It's Luther I think." I shrugged and put my head on Touya's shoulder. He allowed it.
Shuichi looked at Touya and they passed a look between each other that meant something, but I couldn't tell what it was. "Luther what?" Shuichi asked, looking at me. I shrugged. "My last name." Shuichi laughed.
He was sitting across from me, with Hiei next to him. Chuu had already fallen asleep and Jin was sitting next to me, with Rinku next to him. Jin leaned down and put his head on my shoulder. I smiled. "Shuichi, I know every one's story but for yours. Well Hiei didn't really tell me Jin did, but still. What is yours?"
Shuichi looked up at me from his gaze at the fire. "I don't have a story. Just a history." He smiled forlornly and stood up, walking to his bed and lying down. There was a silence after that and the guys went to their beds and were left too their thoughts. I sighed and stood up once every one was asleep, then walked over to Shuichi's bed and sat down next to him.
It was dark so I couldn't see much, but I could tell he was looking at me, waiting for what I would say. "I'm sorry." I sighed and just kind of stared at where I thought Shuichi's eyes were. I was probably looking at his nose or something, since he sat up and put his hands on my shoulders. I sighed and put my hands on his. "I want to know. I really do."
Shuichi nodded and moved his hand up to my neck, then he moved in so our faces were about two inches apart. "I promise, I'll tell you. Just not now." I felt like I was in a trance, his breath was so calm and it smelled good. I nodded and rested my forehead against Shuichi's. "Is it a good history?" I asked.
Shuichi shrugged. "I die in the middle." I laughed a bit and put down my hands. "But that's what made you, you. So I'm okay with it." Being that close I could see his emerald eyes staring into my soul. I felt so ugly, looking into his beauty and him looking into my uninteresting-ness.
"Go to sleep. Touya won't let you sleep in tomorrow." Shuichi said. I shook my head. "Too tired, too cold. Can't move." I yawned a bit. Shuichi laughed and pushed me down so I was half on his bed. He then lay down next to me. "Good night Cris." He yawned. Soon I had fallen asleep.
The next morning Touya woke Shuichi and I up. I didn't realize how bad it looked for us to be in the same bed. I was too tired at that moment. Shuichi though, he did, he was already up and defending us against Chuu and Jin. I just watched, thinking, which is a bad thing for me.
I had never been touched, or kissed by a guy that actually cared for me. A guy that actually wanted me, not my body. I had never realized how much I wanted it until that morning when I listened to Shuichi and Jin talk.
It was a moment later when I realized that I had the knife up to my leg and under the blanket. It was on my thigh, and I was so used to the feeling of the silver blade that it didn't even bother me when I subconsciencely pushed the knife against my leg and let it go down in a long slash to my knee. The blood stained Shuichi's blanket, but I didn't realize. I just felt strangely happy about this usual pain on my body. The blade always made me feel better and, well not fulfilled, but it takes away the pain for enough of a time that I can actually go through a day. What was funny about this was that if didn't bother me that I was cutting myself in front of everybody. Technically no one saw since they were all joking around with Shuichi, Hiei wasn't but he wasn't looking at me neither, so I felt safe about it.
After the cutting I put the knife back in my shoe and stood up, hiding the blood on Shuichi's blanket and walking over to the group. "Can we just get going?" The guys all looked at me, then nodded and packed up. I was watching Shuichi, and at one point he looked at me. He had seen the blood, I knew it. That's why he had folded up the blanket so carefully, so the blood wasn't shown. Then he put it in the bottom of his pack.
When we were walking I was in the back, since it hurt to walk. Stupid me for cutting my leg. But I guess it was good for Shuichi, because he waited until the rest of the guys were ahead of me a bit, then went back and he walked next to me. "This morning?" He asked. I knew what he meant. "Yes. I'm sorry." Shuichi shook his head and took my hand. We were silent for a while.
"Does it really help? Do you feel better about it? Better then you would if you just told someone?" He asked. I had never seen him so defensive. It was like he wanted to know just so he'd feel better for allowing me to do it. "For a while, yes, I feel better. I feel happy."
"So it's worth it?" I shook my head, not to say no, just telling him that I didn't know. I was close to tears by that point. Shuichi shopped me and put his hand on my cheek, rubbing his thumb. He was silent, as was I. He must have told the guys to keep going, because they did, no one stopped to see what was happening. I didn't know what was happening.
"You're beautiful." Shuichi said. He smiled and started to walk, looking back at me once, before he caught up with the guys. I took a deep breath and then let it go, following Shuichi in to the group.
AN: well here's chapter six for you all.
Princess Kandra- I like happy ending stories. But I might have to kill off someone. Not a good story unless some one dies. Like Her father, I'll kill Cris' father. That would be funny! eh, no, I won't. wait, did I ever put her last name? Or their grade? Bleh, I have to go figure that out now.
Neolannia- Okay, I'll hurry and update faster. But now I actaully have to write and figure out where to go. Hum. . . Well keep reviewing!