hey guys thanks for the reviews! sorry it took so long. i wanted to post this but my computer wasn't working right then the virius thing happened and then my computer was acting wierd and then i was out of town BUT here is the next chapter. hopefully you guys will like it!

Lily separated herself from everyone she knew, especially The Pops and James. She soon lost all communication with everyone, even Emily. She was constantly in the library by herself and she soon became invisible.

Lily was working in the library as always. Everyone knew not to disturb her because they knew they were probably get hexed. But one day, when it was late April, a brave man approached Lily.

"Another day in the library, Miss Evans?"

Lily jumped at the man's voice and quickly cleared a chair away for the elderly headmaster. "I like how it's peaceful," she replied.

"Yes, it is nice how it is almost always quiet. But it has come to my attention that you seem to be in her constantly. You are either at classes or here."

"Yes, well I want to be prepared for my future."

"Yes, yes, I do not doubt that, but by shutting yourself away from everyone, does that prove that you are wise?"

"I don't understand headmaster."

"Lily, by shutting yourself away, you are weakening your mind. We flourish when we are challenged."

"But professor, I read very advance books…"

"A book, Miss Evans, cannot reply to your thoughts or give opinions. It is just ink on parchment. You and I are people with minds that are meant to respond to people, not objects." Albus Dumbledore, looked at one of Lily's opened books as she stared at the old man, "I believe, Miss Evans, that Mr. Potter is celebrating his birthday tonight. I'm sure that he would like to see you there."

"I don't think James needs to see me at all. He is perfectly fine but the other girls in his life," Lily said sharply .

"Miss Evans, think of what I have said and go to the party. I insist, and see how Mr. Potter reacts to you and how he reacts to the other girls. Have a nice night Miss Evans." Professor Dumbledore got up and swept away from Lily.

Lily stared after him and then at her books. She put her head in her hands and sighed.

Lily looked at herself in the full length mirror. She was wearing a black knee-length leather skirt, and red v-neck sweater and black boots. She pulled her hair out of the messy bun and let it flow down her back. She looked at herself one more times and then turned toward the door. Now or never she thought.

James was talking to Sirius and two girls from Ravenclaw.

"So then, we completely hexed him so that his entire outfit was hot pink," laughed Sirius.

"Why do you two hate Snape so much?" asked one of the girls.

"He's a slimy ungrateful git," replied James.

"How old are you again, James?" asked Delphia, who was still dating Sirius (the longest relationship he had).

"18." James though was distracted by the red head approaching him. It seemed that the whole entire room was staring at her.

"Lily!?"

"Hey James, um… happy birthday."

"Thanks."

"Evans, it's nice to see you," said Sirius.

"Hello," Lily said quietly, "Well um… yeah." Lily made to leave when James grabbed her hand.

"Please, dance with me," he whispered. Lily just stared at him as he led her to the dance floor. "Wait here," he said then disappeared into the crowd leaving Lily standing in the center of the dance floor alone. Lily's favorite song came on, "When You Say Nothing at All," as James pulled Lily close to him. They danced in silence for a little bit. "Lily, I'm sorry for the way I reacted to you and Charlie." Lily nodded. "I am, please can you forgive me?" he whispered softly in her ear.

"James… I," Lily looked into his dazzling hazel eyes, she then placed her head gently on James's strong torso. She didn't want the moment to end but the song did. Lily looked up, James was staring into her emerald eyes. Lily kissed him tenderly then broke away and plunged into the crowd of people as a fast song started.

"LILY!" he shouted over the crowd but all he saw was a flash of red hair disappearing through the common room entrance.

Lily was outside by the birch tree. She didn't have a coat so she pulled her arms around her as she leaned against the tree. She stood in silence then picked up and stone and threw it as hard as she could in the lake. She picked up another and another and another until she fell to the ground holding her head crying. She had done so much crying that all she really wanted was it all to stop. She had tried so hard to forget the night the month before. She had tried so hard to resist James, to separate herself so she would never have to feel the temptation. She now felt useless and unwanted. She wanted nothing to do with anyone. She should never have gone to the party, to fall in love again with James. She had broken her promise to herself and now she had to deal with the new torment of what would have happened and what could have been. She was a fool, a stupid unpopular fool. Emily had been right all along. She told Lily constantly that she should never trust James or the Pops, and she hadn't listened and this is what had happened. She looked up at the sky and screamed.

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And yes I do drink tea- i have a little time lapse coming up after i post up a few more chapters and that will explain a lot of what happened that night. have no fear i will explain everything!

Discliamer: i won absolutely nothing except the characters i invented and the plot i invented everything esle belongs to the brilliant JKR. does anyone know when the next book or movie will come out? im dieing to know!

meg-