Title: Three Blind Mice

Thanks: Thank you so much to all who reviewed and/or read! And no this isn't the end I just had a lot of things I wasn't sure about in this story and it took some time to figure out. I do know what will happen in the end… lol I've actually finished writing that part it's just the middle that isn't done!

Note: look at the end cuz I don't want to spoil anything in this chapter!

I stood up and wiped the tears from my face. How could I have done that? What had I done? I shut the light off in the closet and opened the door. Riley still lay on the bed. I didn't move back to him though, I walked right past, out the real door this time. Outside of it was a hall. I followed it until I met with another door. I remembered it; it led to the outside. I opened it slowly awaiting me was the fresh air. The light outside was so odd.

I walked down the sidewalk, uneasy and edgy. I still couldn't understand everything that had happened. Why had I chosen my birthday all those years back to alter? How could that have made such a difference? All the emotions that I had been charged with were enough to make me question my actions but it would all be worth it if I saw Spike and Angel again. I turned into George Hampstiror cemetery and walked straight up to the large crypt that was situated in the middle. Spike's crypt. I knocked. No answer. I don't know what I'd expected… a great big welcoming hug? I gently opened the door and looked around.

There was nothing. No one. Absolutely blank. I walked around and looked deeply at the walls. No sign of anything. I blinked a few times and then I was blasted with more memories.

Flashback

I stood in Spike's crypt watching. Riley was yelling at a badly beaten Spike. I looked from one to the other in a trance. How did this get so far? Why did this get so far? I didn't understand how I hadn't noticed this all happening before. Anger was clear on my features but I didn't really feel it. Sure what Spike had done was sick but he had just had the crap beaten out of him from Glory. Spike could have told her that Dawn was the key and he didn't. In the end wasn't that what counted?

"Your gross," Riley spat at Spike. Spike snorted.

"So hurt, army boy." Neither really noticed me. I faded into the background.

"This time you went too far."

"Ohhh no, did I offend you?" Spike snickered waving his hands in the air. The skin around his eyes was purple and he winced when he snickered.

"Maybe you did."

Spike's smile fell as Riley took out a wooden arrow and bow from behind his back. "So sure you'll go through with it," Spike said, but you could hear the fear in his voice.

"I would have done this long before if not for Buffy feeling sorry for you."

"Sorry? Yeah right," Spike mumbled.

"This is gonna be easy."

Spike looked worried. He couldn't get out of the crypt; Riley was blocking the door and he sure couldn't fight back in his condition. It looked like it was taking all his strength just to stand and back-talk. I wanted to say something, stop them but I made no attempt to move. Spike turned to me sensing my obvious unease. "Pet you can't let-" he said fading off. His eyes caught mine and I wanted to do something.

"Riley," I coughed, "Spike's not worth it."

Riley glared down at me; "Buffy this freak has gotten away with more than we need. This is too far. He's a pig."

What had Spike done that was so bad? I hated Spike sure but I didn't want him dead, or did I? The Buffy-bot was truly discussing but… Riley loaded the bow, as Spike and I watched. "Riley…" I tried but he didn't seem to care anymore.

I didn't move. I could have, I could have done many things but I didn't. It's funny how little time it took, less then ten seconds. Spike's eyes went gray immediately as skin charred and broke apart. The arrow's whizzing sound boomed in my ears. Spike's mouth opened but no sound came out as it in turn broke apart. Then he was gone. Nothing left but the tell tale dust. Riley looked a bit taken aback but all he did was drop the bow. It echoed in the expanse.

End of flashback

I looked at the spot that Spike had last stood. I coughed as the memory faded into the further reaches of my brain. I couldn't feel anything… everything that had happened lately had taken all of it away all I wanted to do was run but I stood still transfixed with the picture of Spike turning to dust. Spike was dead. He was gone. I had done nothing to save him. Did that mean Angel was too? I needed to find out. I, with great determination, turned from the spot and ran out of the crypt. I ran and ran until I reached Riley's and my house. When had Riley and I gotten so involved anyway? I reached for the handle as past words echoed through my head.

"I do," Riley's voice stated.

"I do," I heard myself repeat lightly.

I do? I looked down at my hand. A diamond ring sparkled back at me. We were married? How- When? Riley and me? Married? That was… different. I opened the front door. Leaving it open, I went to a table that stood across from me and reached my hand into a bowl that sat there. Instinct led me on as I grabbed onto something. When I pulled my hand out, keys were held between my fingers. I turned back to the door and walked out, closing it behind.

I walked slowly to the driveway. A shiny white 'Neon' sat there. I unlocked the driver's side door and jumped in. I started the car and plowed down the street. I'd never been a great driver not even a good one and apparently that was true even in this dimension. I watched the trees pass me. I still felt out of place. My heartbeat was erratic and my head throbbed. I knew where I was going but somehow I worried about the outcome. LA was always a home to me but with Angel supposedly living there I never knew what to expect.

The city was dark by the time I arrived in LA and all the lights seemed to be off at Angel and gang's hotel. I parked my car out back and slowly got out watching each step my feet made with precision. What would happen if Angel were dead here too? It wasn't like I knew how to get home… I'd used one of Andrew's books to do my spell at home and here I had no idea where Andrew could be, if he had the book, if he even liked the dark arts or anything. Basically I was trapped here… but as long as Angel was all right then I guess that half of this pain I'd gone through would be justified. I knocked on the door in a burst of bravery. Inside there was a bustle of movements as the door was pulled open for me. A green demon with red horns and a very expensive suit glared at me. Who was he? Was this even where I could find Angel?

"Yes?" he asked me simply.

"Oh um hi, is erm Angel in?" I asked trying hard not to sound weirderd out.

The green demon shrugged his shoulders and held the door open further for me, "You're Buffy aren't you?" There was a hint of hope in his voice as he asked.

"Um yeah I am… how'd you know?" I answered.

"I kinda read that part of you… you're brain is basically shouting who you are…" The green guy told me back not smiling although seemingly pleased with himself for knowing.

"I'm guessing that's something you do then…? Read minds?"

"Not exactly, I read auras while people sing but you seem so troubled that even a regular person could guess… By the way my name's Lorne."

I smiled at him… "So is Angel in?"

Lorne's smile dropped, "Maybe I need to fill you in…"

"Oh god don't tell me he's dead…" I said as tears started to fill my eyes up. I'd thought they were all used but this would, I guess, be the last straw.

"No, no, not that," he replied and sighed, "Much worse."

Note: Well I've finished this chapter finally… sorry about taking so long. I hope to post another chapter soon but I have no clue how long that might take… I'll try my hardest to make more time for writing. I know I'm sorry about killing off Spike… but I think that would have happened if Riley had stayed with Buffy… But here's the part in the story that's really the problem to write and is why I've been taking so long: I'm not sure if I'm gonna make Spike come alive again instead of Darla. I guess it depends on what you as the reader think… so please tell me what you'd like cuz then I'll be able to continue faster!!! Oh and I am again sorry for my horrible grammar/spelling. I hope I'm getting better butI doubt it!!!

Thank you so much for reading!!