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The Surprise & Bad Memories

Once all three of the guys left, it was just me and Sodapop, at home. Soda had plans to go out so I said I would be fine while I waited for Pony and the rest to come back, so he left. I went to my room, and got dress the best that I could. I know I don't normally wear girly things but I put on a pink and white skirt that was knee length and a white collard shirt. Nothing fancy, just nice. I put my hair in a half messy ponytail, which looked super cute. I put a tiny bit on make-up on just to impress. I went to the living room, to find that Steve and Two-bit escorting me, to the park were I found Ponyboy…and a picnic. I started to get memories, that started to make me upset. I started to cry, and I broke free from their grippes and I ran as fast as I could down the street only thinking about on person; My Mom.

Flash Back

I had to be barley six years old, when my mom took me to the park, so that we could have an afternoon to our selves. I can still remember it so clearly, that it seems that I'm living it over again. She took me to the top of the hill, where she brought out the basket full of snacks. The one thing that hurt so bad was the conversation that was going to happen next.

"Hunny, I need you to be a big girl about what I'm telling you okay sweetie?"

"Sure, mommy what is it?"

"I know this is hard for me to tell you but I'm leaving and I'm sorry but I can't take you." She said with a tear coming down her cheek.

"Why! Mommy I don't want you to leave!" as I started to cry.

"Hunny, I need you to be strong for the both of us."

"I don't think I can mommy."

"Sure you can Hunny, I'm giving this to you, it was mine when I was young and I want you to have it." As she handed me a locket with her picture in it.

"Mommy but why are you leaving?"

"I can't tell you right now, but maybe when your older okay sweetie?" she started to walk away just leaving me there.

"Mommy don't go don't let me stay with HIM!" I screamed at her as she said.

"I'm sorry." That was the last thing I ever heard my mom say to me as she left in a Taxi.

The next thing that I knew was the most scariest thing in my life, having to go live with him, not even knowing if my mom was a live or not. And from then on I made a pact that I would never have another picnic or bring up any memories of her again.

END OF FLASH BACK

I had been sitting on a swing at the other side of the park that Steve and Two-bit took me to. Just sobbing a little bit, until I heard foot steps and I looked up to greet Ponyboy's eyes.

"I'm sorry Pony, it was a very nice thing that you wanted to do, but it just brought up terrible memories for me. Please don't be angry that I left. I just haven't really been on a picnic since that day with her."

"No forgive me; I'm so sorry that I did this in the first place I should have asked or something." He said in a low tone.

"Pony, if you don't mind I would like some time to myself just thinking a bit?"

"Sure Brandy, but if its starts to get dark you head straight for our house ok? Being out here at night is dangerous."

"Okay Pony, I'll be home soon." Home I though of for a moment. I never really talked to my dad fully about where I was staying. I really hope he doesn't screw anything up for me. I had been sitting there for a while wallowing in memories that I never wanted to think of again. I looked up at the sky, and the sun was setting, so I got up and started to walk back to the house. I gazed up at the sunset, just as I did ten years ago. I was still hurt and upset so I didn't really talk to anyone when I got home, all the guys were playing cards so I quickly ran to the bathroom, hoping that no one saw me come in.

I ran in, and locked the door behind me. I sat down next to the door just crying for a while. That is until I saw a razor blade, I never looked so good. I wanted, no needed to cut after what happened today but I knew my consequence if it did. I looked at it for the longest time, and then I grabbed it and just held it there in my hand. Just thinking it over and over again.

Authors note: sorry folks I'm letting you go here, is she gonna do it or not? Only the next chapter will tell…I'm so evil for leaving you here I know but I will update I promise.