Bloody battle
All the things you said,
all the tears you made me shed,
every word going through my head.
The numbness in my hands,
my arms, legs and feet
The realization that I made
to face it head on, to finally meet.
The stone shiver,
that claws itself up my spine,
wanting to shout out, but keeping my thoughts,
all mine.
Repeating the instance I felt myself pull away
feeling there was no other way.
Over and over again in my head,
I try, try again too win,
but fail instead.
The bloody battlefield,
that suppresses my living soul,
confining it, defining it,
finally taking its toll.
Symmetrical sides of the mind,
yet yelling two different things,
impossible to decipher.
Im trying to get away,
on these invisible wings,
after hearing painful words, not knowing wether to listen to the voices,
that drive me to the brink.
Only screaming louder.
If only they knew, what they'd done to me
not realizing their actions would cause me relentless grief.
The clarity that I can't find,
will leave me in a never-ending battle of the mind.