Chapter 4

Dear Piper and family,


Or shall I call you Mom because that's who you really are to me. I know this must come as a shock to you seeing as how you hate me and all but I am yours and Leo's son and Wyatt's younger brother.

I guess I should start by telling you that I really am sorry for all the lies I told and how I treated you all since I arrived here but in my defense I only did what I thought was right at the time and I hope that you can find it in your heart to forgive me. I've just been on this quest to save my brother for quite sometime now and I was starting to lose control only because I didn't know exactly what it was that triggered my brother's turn. I guess now I'll never know.

Living with him has been rough and it's beginning to take its toll on my mind, body and soul. Although there were good times that we spent together as a family there are way too many bad times that seemed to have banished all the pleasant memories out of my mind and into the abyss where they will remain buried for a long time to come. I'm sorry Mom and Dad but there is no easy way to put this but I will do my best to soften the blow.

Wyatt is the biggest evil that you could possibly go up against. As much as I love my brother, I have to admit that there is nothing that he wouldn't do for power and domination, including killing innocent witches, women, child and eventually his own family. It's as if a dark force has taken root within his soul, tainting his sense of right and wrong replacing it with maliciousness and the need for self gratification.

Now I don't want you to blame yourselves for any of this. It isn't your fault and there was nothing that you could have done differently that would change any of this, except find the evil that stole my brother and protector from me. I just hope that we're not already too late.

As much as I hate the things that he's done to me, to the world, I still think that Wyatt can be saved. I just ask that you keep your eyes and ears open and carefully evaluate everything he says and does over the next few years because I may not be around to help you or point some things out like I did in the past. Why?

Well it's no secret that I'm the cause of you and Dad's divorce and in doing such I've screwed myself big time. My conception date is this month so needless to say nothing short of a miracle is going to get you two back together so I'm prepared to deal with the consequences of my actions. All I ask is that you keep my big brother safe and give him the happy ending that he deserves. Even though my version of him is a monster who is in fact obsessed with everything evil and who will probably do unspeakable things to me once he gets his hands on me, doesn't mean that your Wyatt is completely lost to you, fortunately he still has a chance.

I don't say these things to make you feel sorry for me or to take pity on me, it's just that I want you to understand what I've been dealing with and why I am the way that I am, it's all I know. Protecting myself has become a way of life for me ever since the day…you all died. Yeah I know it's not something that you want to hear, but I have to tell you these things so you know what to do to avoid getting yourselves killed and unfortunately it ties right in to the evil that takes over my brother.

I think that knowing what happens to you all was the hardest part of my mission. My dealings with demons was easier than dealing with the ones that I love treating me the way that you guys did sometimes and again I deserved every minute of it for all the secrets I kept and the lies I told. I just wish that I got to tell you all how much I loved you before my brother dragged me back to the future with him.

Well don't feel too bad for me because I do have one person in my life that I can still trust and that's Bianca. She's my fiancé and love of my life and the only good thing that I have in the future to go back to. She's a phoenix (please don't freak out Mom she's good, I swear) and we've been together for quite a while now. She means the world to me and I wish you guys had the pleasure of meeting her but maybe you will someday, that is if I even exist any more.

Anyway I have to go now do to the fact that I'm getting a little woozy from the amount of liquor that I've been drinking to numb the pain of failure and the fear of what's to come for me in the form of my older brother. Hey maybe I deserve everything that's happened to me. Maybe sharing you all with me was what turned Wyatt evil? Well just a little speculation on my part or rambling do to my current state of intoxication but who knows. Only time will tell and I hope this time we all get it right.

Remember, no matter what happens I love you all, even you Dad. No matter how badly you treated me during my stay here in the past or in my future, I still love you and I know that you did your best as far as I was concerned and for that I will always be grateful.

Take care guys.

Love always,

Christopher Perry Halliwell a.k.a Mommy's little peanut (that name always cracked me up and I would have given anything to hear you say that to me, but hey at least I go to see my Mother's perfect smile one last time)

Piper Halliwell sank down to her knees the second that she finished reading the letter to her family. She sobbed heavily into her ex-husbands shoulder as he cradled her in his arms, rocking her gently as his own tears streamed down his face. Her youngest sister exited the attic in hysterics and made her way towards her room to cry in private. While Phoebe was too paralyzed by the immense wave of emotions that everyone close to her was feeling at the moment. So she stood there in a daze crying hard for the mother who had lost her child, the father who carried both feelings of guilt and heartbreak and for the son who suffered in silence.