A/N I'm so glad I got reviews that I decided to start with the next chapter
as soon as I could.
I never thought I would get this many reviews in only fifteen days! This must mean that either you like my story, or that you pity me... I've put a list at the end again where I thank all my lovely reviewers and answering all questions they might have had.
DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN YU-GI-OH! OR ANY OF THE CHARACTERS IN IT. I probably never will 'cuz my mom said it was too expensive. u__u That other dude... Takahashi Something owns it and he's probably rich, I'm not! *sob*
WARNINGS: Yaoi (= male/male relationship)/shônen-ai, child abuse, thoughts/actions that can/will contain suicide/suicide attempts, Anzu bashing (I'm sorry chibi-kaiyaska, I'm not going to torture Anzu, yet.) mild language and authors insanity and cruelties towards the characters, lime-ish scene at the end. . .
DEDICATIONS: All of you wonderful people that are reading and reviewing this story, I love ya!!
_words_ = italics *words* =bold "words" =speech 'words' =thoughts //words// =talk trough mind links (dun ask)
Never letting go – Chapter three "Tell me that you love me"
Kaiba blinked once, twice, but nothing happened.
He was sitting besides Joey who was lying in a small white hospital bed with white starched sheets. Why the hell where he sitting here? How did Yugi make him commit such a foolish promise? He had only gone to the 'Kame- gameshop' because Mokuba made him deliver that stupid letter, and look where he was now. In a hospital, babysitting a loud-mouthed street rat that had fallen over his own big feet and hit his head on _both_ the table and the floor.
'What an idiot!' Kaiba thought while he looked over at Joey, seeing the blondes chest heave at every breath. He couldn't help it, he felt the urge to touch the boy. Seto shook his head and glared at his hand, reaching to brush a few strands of blond hair away from his eyes. Joey made a sound at the touch and opened his honey colored eyes filled with humor and laughter.
'I don't understand how his eyes always can be so cheerful, those eyes are always shining like he's the happiest person in the world!' Kaiba thought as he pulled his hand back. While they stared at each other Kaiba realized something, Joey's eyes weren't happy, they didn't shine with their usual glister, hell, those eyes would have looked dead if it weren't for the unmistakable look of fear in them.
'Why is he afraid? I should be glad because of that intimidated look he's having right now . . . but I'm not . . . What is the matter with me?' Kaiba got up from the chair and walked over to the window, the only window, in the small room and looked out at the frenzy of people moving many meters down.
"Whe . . . where am I, Kaiba?" Joey asked hoarsely with a thin voice. He saw Kaiba turn around and lock his icy gaze on him and Joey shivered under it's coldness.
"At the hospital. You tripped over your feet and hit your head. I've been giving you far more credit than you deserve over that thick skull of yours. Why where you in such a rush, mutt? Did you have to take a walk in the park to relieve some pressure?" Kaiba said, not taking his eyes of Joey.
Joey just looked at Kaiba as if he was a hurt puppy. "Why are you here?" he asked in the same low voice looking down on his hands that where playing with the sheets.
"Yugi made me stay. I don't even know why I bother, this is just a waste of my time, _you_ are a waste of time!" Kaiba was angry now, not at Joey but on himself for feeling such ridicules feelings for the mutt. He didn't like Joey, he despised him, he hated the crude boy and the fact that he actually could make him, Seto Kaiba, turn away to hide a smile! He also hated himself for all the angry words he shouted at the boy . . . Damn it, if he didn't know any better he would say that Joey was on the verge of tears.
Why? Why did he hate him so much? What had he ever done to him? All he did was to love the brunette . . . He were starting to think that his dreams actually was some sort of vision of what would happen if he'd let hid guard down. Joey could feel the tears fall down from his face, he didn't even try to fight them. His vision was blurry and he just closed his eyes so he didn't have to look at the unclear figure by the window.
He had been right, Joey cried. The sight of the tears trickling down the pale skin felt like someone had taken a knife and penetrated his heart with it and twisted the knife around before pushing it in further. He was amazed that he, who was in lack of a heart, could feel so strongly for anyone except for Mokuba, and especially towards an 'enemy'. Why did he care if the mutt cried or was laughing? Why did he want to go over to that bed and wipe the tears away? And why did he want to kiss those pale pink lips?
Joey kept his eyes closed, trying to think about something else, anything but Kaiba. But to no avail, all he _could_ think of was Kaiba. He was so close but yet so far away. When he heard the sound of footsteps he opened his eyes slightly and looked at Kaiba under half opened eyes with black eyelashes full of tears.
Those honey colored eyes without emotions except for sadness looked at him. He stopped besides the bed and extended a hand to cup Joey's chin and wiped away a few tears with his thumb. He could feel Joey tremble under the touch. Was he trembling of anticipation or disgust? Fear or lust?
When he felt Kaiba cup his chin he felt an electric shock run inside his veins, sending shivers through his spine. When the thumb slowly caressed his cheek he had to suppress a moan that threatened to escape. Kaiba's hand was surprisingly warm, he had always pictured Kaiba's touch to be as cold as Kaiba's icy eyes. Joey continued to watch Kaiba as he slowly lowered his head to be only an inch apart from Joey's.
What had he to lose? Much, to much. But he didn't care. He _had_ to feel the blondes lips upon his own, to feel him either surrender under the touch or to jerk his head away in disgust, he had to know. Kaiba slowly closed the distance and pressed his lips onto Joey's in a slow, seeking kiss.
Joey didn't back away, he just sat there amazed over that Kaiba really was doing this. Wait, maybe it was just a dream and he still was unconscious! When Kaiba started licking and gently nibbling at Joey's lover lip, begging for entrance didn't care. it may be just a dream, but this was still different than the other ones, this Kaiba was much more gentle, he liked the change.
When Joey slowly opened his mouth Kaiba slid his tongue inside Joey's moth, caressing the moist, velvety cavern. Kaiba could taste Joey, he tasted like peaches and sugar, as if had drunk an ice-tea with peach flavor. Kaiba smiled inwardly, that was his favorite drink.
This couldn't be a dream, you can't taste a dream and Kaiba tasted. . . intoxicating. He tasted of coffee with cinnamon and vanilla. Joey was sure there was no way a dream could taste that good! He opened his eyes that he didn't recall closing and looked at the head tilted to the side that was ravishing his mouth. Kaiba's soft brown hair shadowed his eyes and tickled Joey's chin. Yeah, this was real. He closed his eyes again and concentrated fully on kissing back.
Slowly Kaiba withdrew his head, he didn't want to but he needed air, licking his lips as if he was a cat that had gotten a bowl of cream. He looked down at Joey's dazed expression, loving the look on his face. Joey's eyelids where heavy and his eyes only half open. The brown eyes where shining and there was hints of gold in them.
Joey blushed and looked away from Kaiba, staring at the white wall. What would Kaiba do now? Would he be angry or. . . Joey didn't know what to expect from the older boy so he just waited.
Kaiba looked down at the blushing boy sitting in the bed. What should he do? He wanted to go to the blonde and pin him down on the bed and have his way with him. But if he did that he was sure that the boy would fight him. He would never have thought that Joey would have liked boys since he always where talking about women and porn with Yugi and Tristan. Kaiba on the other hand had no problem with getting either of the sexes in bed, as long as it just was a one night stand. Long-term relationships bored him. After just a few days the person annoyed the crap out of him, the person would get too clingy and wanting far to much, either attention or money and new things. Not that Kaiba couldn't give them what they wanted, he just didn't want to waste money on someone he would just use and throw away when he got bored!
"Wheeler," Kaiba said and watched as Joey turned to face him again.
"Ye. . . yes?" Joey asked. He saw Kaiba lean closer once again, putting a hand on Joey's robe clad shoulder to slowly push him down into the mattress before Kaiba once again closed the distance between them once again to capture Joey's lips in a heated kiss.
Kaiba's left hand got tangled up in Joey's hair as he grabbed the golden hair to bend Joey's head backwards while his right hand found it's way to the buttons on Joey's hospital robe. He quickly undid the buttons and slid his hand underneath the fabric to caress Joey's chest.
Kaiba was astonished by how thin Joey was, he could feel the boy's ribs as he touched the pale, creamy skin. Kaiba ignored the fact that the boy was emaciated, for now, and started to pull his thumb over Joey's right nipple, feeling the little bud of flesh harden under his touch. Seto smiled into the kiss when he heard the small moans that elicited from Joey end slowly left the boy's mouth to plant a trail of kisses down Joey's neck until his mouth captured the hard nub in between his lips.
Joey gasped under the new feeling. Kaiba's tongue swirled around Joey's nipple while his other hand had left Joey's hair and was now playing with the other one. He cried out when Kaiba gently bit down on the sensitive bud of flesh before releasing it.
When Kaiba thought that he had paid Joey's chest enough attention he kissed his way down towards Joey's abdominal, sticking his tongue in Joey's navel, swirling it around and tasting the sweet flavor of sugar and peaches. Did Joey bathe in ice-tea? How the hell could he taste like that all over? Kaiba made a mental note to ask Joey later, when he was done. . .
Joey saw Kaiba's head go lower and lower and he could feel how Kaiba's hand brushed over the crotch in the light blue pants he was wearing, making him whimper of anticipation. His member was already hard, waiting for Kaiba's touch.
When Kaiba started to slowly pull Joey's pants off he could hear the small noises from the smaller boy, he decided to take his time. Slowly, slowly the pants where removed and Kaiba kissed his way up Joey's thigh, licking and nibbling at the creamy skin.
When Kaiba finally reached Joey's erection he kissed the head, pressing his tongue into the slit to taste the salty pre-come Joey moaned high, bucking his hips slightly. As Kaiba took the tip into his mouth the door was opened. . .
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A/N I hope nobody hates me for taking this long, but I had a really bad case of writers block, I'm sorry, I'll update faster in the future. . . and I just want to say that I don't really like this chapter that much. . . and that I will re-write it when I can come up with something better.
These are my special reviewers! (A.k.a. anyone who reviewed, you're all special to me ^___^) I love you guys, just keep them coming, I don't mind! Anyway, maybe I should start thanking them now? Yes, I think I'll do that now!
Sansi: I can't? Why not? Thanks for your review and YES, I WILL put a Yami/Yugi centered chapter up soon. I promise!
Etriarch: I'm glad you liked it. Don't worry, there will be other pairings too. I just thought I should start off with the Seto/Joey pairing. And since it's my fic I can pretty much do what I want! *wink*
Johnny-Depp-Luv: I updated. And that silly little A/N in chapter two, I just wanna say that I have a really sick, sick and twisted sense of humor and I thought it was pretty darn funny at 3am when I wrote it. All I really read then was; 'bigger. . . the opening. . . "how did you think it would fit?"' As I said, I have a sick and twisted mind. . . U___U;;;
Macduff's Mistress: Yes! You read chappy number two! There will be more sadness to come! Well, cliffie and cliffie, I'm not sure if I really can call that a cliffie. . .
Freewater: Thank you! I'll be sure to check your stories out too. Heh, I liked the whole Yami scene. Silly Yami. . . Evil Yami. . . Nice Yami. . . Angry Yami. . . (when he saw Kaiba.)
Voidsenshi: I'll be sure to put some romance in the coming chapters. I reacted to something in your review. . . you wrote; 'Update son' is that a typo or. . . . Daddy! *Jumps in voidsenshi's arms* Err, maybe that's mom? *Is confused*
Redkite1019: Thank you, I will! ^___^
Chibi-kaiyaska: Well, the rape part was a dream he dreams every night, and the toaster issue. . . . I just thought it was fun.
Kamiya: Thank you for liking my fic, sorry the update took so long. . .
GalWivAGunblade: Yes, he's a _very_ angsty person. . . . at least when I say so!
Moi: Thank you!
Yasahiku: Yay! You read it!! I'm so happy you did! *huggles him* *points at Yasashiku* He is my _very_ special _friend!_ ^_____^ *glomps Yasashiku and is never letting go!*
Backupsystem: Nuuuuuu! Not the pointy stick!! I'm so scared I can't write! Oh, wait. . . . I must write or he'll kill meeee!!
Miss B 169: Heh. . . Yeah, many feel that way. . .
Somnia Lustre: You don't have to wait any longer! You should join Miss B 169 in her 'feel sorry for Joey' fan club. . .
Thank you all my lovely reviewers. I luv y'all! You are all welcome to give me any suggestions you may think of. *wink* Baibai! //Tadashi Shimisaki
I never thought I would get this many reviews in only fifteen days! This must mean that either you like my story, or that you pity me... I've put a list at the end again where I thank all my lovely reviewers and answering all questions they might have had.
DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN YU-GI-OH! OR ANY OF THE CHARACTERS IN IT. I probably never will 'cuz my mom said it was too expensive. u__u That other dude... Takahashi Something owns it and he's probably rich, I'm not! *sob*
WARNINGS: Yaoi (= male/male relationship)/shônen-ai, child abuse, thoughts/actions that can/will contain suicide/suicide attempts, Anzu bashing (I'm sorry chibi-kaiyaska, I'm not going to torture Anzu, yet.) mild language and authors insanity and cruelties towards the characters, lime-ish scene at the end. . .
DEDICATIONS: All of you wonderful people that are reading and reviewing this story, I love ya!!
_words_ = italics *words* =bold "words" =speech 'words' =thoughts //words// =talk trough mind links (dun ask)
Never letting go – Chapter three "Tell me that you love me"
Kaiba blinked once, twice, but nothing happened.
He was sitting besides Joey who was lying in a small white hospital bed with white starched sheets. Why the hell where he sitting here? How did Yugi make him commit such a foolish promise? He had only gone to the 'Kame- gameshop' because Mokuba made him deliver that stupid letter, and look where he was now. In a hospital, babysitting a loud-mouthed street rat that had fallen over his own big feet and hit his head on _both_ the table and the floor.
'What an idiot!' Kaiba thought while he looked over at Joey, seeing the blondes chest heave at every breath. He couldn't help it, he felt the urge to touch the boy. Seto shook his head and glared at his hand, reaching to brush a few strands of blond hair away from his eyes. Joey made a sound at the touch and opened his honey colored eyes filled with humor and laughter.
'I don't understand how his eyes always can be so cheerful, those eyes are always shining like he's the happiest person in the world!' Kaiba thought as he pulled his hand back. While they stared at each other Kaiba realized something, Joey's eyes weren't happy, they didn't shine with their usual glister, hell, those eyes would have looked dead if it weren't for the unmistakable look of fear in them.
'Why is he afraid? I should be glad because of that intimidated look he's having right now . . . but I'm not . . . What is the matter with me?' Kaiba got up from the chair and walked over to the window, the only window, in the small room and looked out at the frenzy of people moving many meters down.
"Whe . . . where am I, Kaiba?" Joey asked hoarsely with a thin voice. He saw Kaiba turn around and lock his icy gaze on him and Joey shivered under it's coldness.
"At the hospital. You tripped over your feet and hit your head. I've been giving you far more credit than you deserve over that thick skull of yours. Why where you in such a rush, mutt? Did you have to take a walk in the park to relieve some pressure?" Kaiba said, not taking his eyes of Joey.
Joey just looked at Kaiba as if he was a hurt puppy. "Why are you here?" he asked in the same low voice looking down on his hands that where playing with the sheets.
"Yugi made me stay. I don't even know why I bother, this is just a waste of my time, _you_ are a waste of time!" Kaiba was angry now, not at Joey but on himself for feeling such ridicules feelings for the mutt. He didn't like Joey, he despised him, he hated the crude boy and the fact that he actually could make him, Seto Kaiba, turn away to hide a smile! He also hated himself for all the angry words he shouted at the boy . . . Damn it, if he didn't know any better he would say that Joey was on the verge of tears.
Why? Why did he hate him so much? What had he ever done to him? All he did was to love the brunette . . . He were starting to think that his dreams actually was some sort of vision of what would happen if he'd let hid guard down. Joey could feel the tears fall down from his face, he didn't even try to fight them. His vision was blurry and he just closed his eyes so he didn't have to look at the unclear figure by the window.
He had been right, Joey cried. The sight of the tears trickling down the pale skin felt like someone had taken a knife and penetrated his heart with it and twisted the knife around before pushing it in further. He was amazed that he, who was in lack of a heart, could feel so strongly for anyone except for Mokuba, and especially towards an 'enemy'. Why did he care if the mutt cried or was laughing? Why did he want to go over to that bed and wipe the tears away? And why did he want to kiss those pale pink lips?
Joey kept his eyes closed, trying to think about something else, anything but Kaiba. But to no avail, all he _could_ think of was Kaiba. He was so close but yet so far away. When he heard the sound of footsteps he opened his eyes slightly and looked at Kaiba under half opened eyes with black eyelashes full of tears.
Those honey colored eyes without emotions except for sadness looked at him. He stopped besides the bed and extended a hand to cup Joey's chin and wiped away a few tears with his thumb. He could feel Joey tremble under the touch. Was he trembling of anticipation or disgust? Fear or lust?
When he felt Kaiba cup his chin he felt an electric shock run inside his veins, sending shivers through his spine. When the thumb slowly caressed his cheek he had to suppress a moan that threatened to escape. Kaiba's hand was surprisingly warm, he had always pictured Kaiba's touch to be as cold as Kaiba's icy eyes. Joey continued to watch Kaiba as he slowly lowered his head to be only an inch apart from Joey's.
What had he to lose? Much, to much. But he didn't care. He _had_ to feel the blondes lips upon his own, to feel him either surrender under the touch or to jerk his head away in disgust, he had to know. Kaiba slowly closed the distance and pressed his lips onto Joey's in a slow, seeking kiss.
Joey didn't back away, he just sat there amazed over that Kaiba really was doing this. Wait, maybe it was just a dream and he still was unconscious! When Kaiba started licking and gently nibbling at Joey's lover lip, begging for entrance didn't care. it may be just a dream, but this was still different than the other ones, this Kaiba was much more gentle, he liked the change.
When Joey slowly opened his mouth Kaiba slid his tongue inside Joey's moth, caressing the moist, velvety cavern. Kaiba could taste Joey, he tasted like peaches and sugar, as if had drunk an ice-tea with peach flavor. Kaiba smiled inwardly, that was his favorite drink.
This couldn't be a dream, you can't taste a dream and Kaiba tasted. . . intoxicating. He tasted of coffee with cinnamon and vanilla. Joey was sure there was no way a dream could taste that good! He opened his eyes that he didn't recall closing and looked at the head tilted to the side that was ravishing his mouth. Kaiba's soft brown hair shadowed his eyes and tickled Joey's chin. Yeah, this was real. He closed his eyes again and concentrated fully on kissing back.
Slowly Kaiba withdrew his head, he didn't want to but he needed air, licking his lips as if he was a cat that had gotten a bowl of cream. He looked down at Joey's dazed expression, loving the look on his face. Joey's eyelids where heavy and his eyes only half open. The brown eyes where shining and there was hints of gold in them.
Joey blushed and looked away from Kaiba, staring at the white wall. What would Kaiba do now? Would he be angry or. . . Joey didn't know what to expect from the older boy so he just waited.
Kaiba looked down at the blushing boy sitting in the bed. What should he do? He wanted to go to the blonde and pin him down on the bed and have his way with him. But if he did that he was sure that the boy would fight him. He would never have thought that Joey would have liked boys since he always where talking about women and porn with Yugi and Tristan. Kaiba on the other hand had no problem with getting either of the sexes in bed, as long as it just was a one night stand. Long-term relationships bored him. After just a few days the person annoyed the crap out of him, the person would get too clingy and wanting far to much, either attention or money and new things. Not that Kaiba couldn't give them what they wanted, he just didn't want to waste money on someone he would just use and throw away when he got bored!
"Wheeler," Kaiba said and watched as Joey turned to face him again.
"Ye. . . yes?" Joey asked. He saw Kaiba lean closer once again, putting a hand on Joey's robe clad shoulder to slowly push him down into the mattress before Kaiba once again closed the distance between them once again to capture Joey's lips in a heated kiss.
Kaiba's left hand got tangled up in Joey's hair as he grabbed the golden hair to bend Joey's head backwards while his right hand found it's way to the buttons on Joey's hospital robe. He quickly undid the buttons and slid his hand underneath the fabric to caress Joey's chest.
Kaiba was astonished by how thin Joey was, he could feel the boy's ribs as he touched the pale, creamy skin. Kaiba ignored the fact that the boy was emaciated, for now, and started to pull his thumb over Joey's right nipple, feeling the little bud of flesh harden under his touch. Seto smiled into the kiss when he heard the small moans that elicited from Joey end slowly left the boy's mouth to plant a trail of kisses down Joey's neck until his mouth captured the hard nub in between his lips.
Joey gasped under the new feeling. Kaiba's tongue swirled around Joey's nipple while his other hand had left Joey's hair and was now playing with the other one. He cried out when Kaiba gently bit down on the sensitive bud of flesh before releasing it.
When Kaiba thought that he had paid Joey's chest enough attention he kissed his way down towards Joey's abdominal, sticking his tongue in Joey's navel, swirling it around and tasting the sweet flavor of sugar and peaches. Did Joey bathe in ice-tea? How the hell could he taste like that all over? Kaiba made a mental note to ask Joey later, when he was done. . .
Joey saw Kaiba's head go lower and lower and he could feel how Kaiba's hand brushed over the crotch in the light blue pants he was wearing, making him whimper of anticipation. His member was already hard, waiting for Kaiba's touch.
When Kaiba started to slowly pull Joey's pants off he could hear the small noises from the smaller boy, he decided to take his time. Slowly, slowly the pants where removed and Kaiba kissed his way up Joey's thigh, licking and nibbling at the creamy skin.
When Kaiba finally reached Joey's erection he kissed the head, pressing his tongue into the slit to taste the salty pre-come Joey moaned high, bucking his hips slightly. As Kaiba took the tip into his mouth the door was opened. . .
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A/N I hope nobody hates me for taking this long, but I had a really bad case of writers block, I'm sorry, I'll update faster in the future. . . and I just want to say that I don't really like this chapter that much. . . and that I will re-write it when I can come up with something better.
These are my special reviewers! (A.k.a. anyone who reviewed, you're all special to me ^___^) I love you guys, just keep them coming, I don't mind! Anyway, maybe I should start thanking them now? Yes, I think I'll do that now!
Sansi: I can't? Why not? Thanks for your review and YES, I WILL put a Yami/Yugi centered chapter up soon. I promise!
Etriarch: I'm glad you liked it. Don't worry, there will be other pairings too. I just thought I should start off with the Seto/Joey pairing. And since it's my fic I can pretty much do what I want! *wink*
Johnny-Depp-Luv: I updated. And that silly little A/N in chapter two, I just wanna say that I have a really sick, sick and twisted sense of humor and I thought it was pretty darn funny at 3am when I wrote it. All I really read then was; 'bigger. . . the opening. . . "how did you think it would fit?"' As I said, I have a sick and twisted mind. . . U___U;;;
Macduff's Mistress: Yes! You read chappy number two! There will be more sadness to come! Well, cliffie and cliffie, I'm not sure if I really can call that a cliffie. . .
Freewater: Thank you! I'll be sure to check your stories out too. Heh, I liked the whole Yami scene. Silly Yami. . . Evil Yami. . . Nice Yami. . . Angry Yami. . . (when he saw Kaiba.)
Voidsenshi: I'll be sure to put some romance in the coming chapters. I reacted to something in your review. . . you wrote; 'Update son' is that a typo or. . . . Daddy! *Jumps in voidsenshi's arms* Err, maybe that's mom? *Is confused*
Redkite1019: Thank you, I will! ^___^
Chibi-kaiyaska: Well, the rape part was a dream he dreams every night, and the toaster issue. . . . I just thought it was fun.
Kamiya: Thank you for liking my fic, sorry the update took so long. . .
GalWivAGunblade: Yes, he's a _very_ angsty person. . . . at least when I say so!
Moi: Thank you!
Yasahiku: Yay! You read it!! I'm so happy you did! *huggles him* *points at Yasashiku* He is my _very_ special _friend!_ ^_____^ *glomps Yasashiku and is never letting go!*
Backupsystem: Nuuuuuu! Not the pointy stick!! I'm so scared I can't write! Oh, wait. . . . I must write or he'll kill meeee!!
Miss B 169: Heh. . . Yeah, many feel that way. . .
Somnia Lustre: You don't have to wait any longer! You should join Miss B 169 in her 'feel sorry for Joey' fan club. . .
Thank you all my lovely reviewers. I luv y'all! You are all welcome to give me any suggestions you may think of. *wink* Baibai! //Tadashi Shimisaki