Title: Childhood Crush
Author: Mini Squirt
Disclaimer: Blah, Blah, Blah :D
Rating: Pg 13
Chapter five: Happy Go lucky
Leaning against the tree, Hermione heard a slight twitching sound behind her as she tried to meditate. Slowly getting up she silently peeked around the tree spotting Draco as he changed the apple into a pie.
Hermione felt a surprising warmth in her chest as she remembered the delight Draco had found at conjuring cream pies and throwing them at her, thereby turning their innocent little game into a full out war. She was surprised that after so many years he still hadn't grown out of his childish specialty of making cream pies.
Watching as a cherry suddenly appear out of thin air to settle on top of the mound of cream, Hermione slowly turned around and sat back down preparing for her counter attack.
Cracking open one of her eyes Hermione silently counted to herself, 1...2...3! Suddenly a giant cream pie came flying towards her as she counted out a reflecting spell. She burst out laughing as the flying cream pie suddenly changed directions and went hurtling back into Draco's laughing face.
Cream, apple and a bright red cherry smacked into the perfect golden face, but not before Hermione had seen his jaw dropped with shock. Hermione doubled over with laughter as he lifted his head and glared at her. His special red cherry balancing precariously on the tip of his straight nose, peeking out amongst the mountain of cream and apple.
Score one, to Hermione.
Wiping the cream off his face Draco felt like giving into the childish temptation and stomp his feet.
A perfect plan, the perfect plan gone to waste. Muttering a spell he cleaned his robes while Hermione stood before him, finally able to control her laughter at his humiliation. Her eyes danced with glee as she smirked that same irritating smirk that never failed to annoy him.
Batting her lashes, Hermione placed a hand on her chest and pretended to swoon. 'Oh stop, my beating heart,' she sighed, looking up at him with wide fake innocent eyes.
Draco scowled. When had Hermione become so sarcastic? Lifting his brows into an arrogant arch Draco said in his most snotty Malfoy voice 'Go away Mudblood, I've got better things to do then hang out with the likes of you.'
Hermione felt something shatter inside of her. Draco had changed all right, changed into a royal bastard.
Draco stalked off towards his dormitory before he could glimpse the pain reflected in Hermione's clear brown eyes. He winced as he realized that maybe he shouldn't have been so mean to her, after all wasn't he suppose to be winning her back?
He sighed; talking with Hermione always seemed to bring out the worst in him. Wishing he could just go back and apologize like he used to, only caused him to run his hands through his hair in frustration. He groaned. He had forgotten that by doing so his hair now stood up in ends making him look just as stupid as he felt.
Heading up the dormitory Draco muttered the password to the sea witch as he entered the room.
'Aww having a bad day Drakie?' ignoring the witches rusty voice cooing after him, he walked up towards his room spotting Hermione's room door wide open. Suddenly a Cheshire smile appeared on Dracos face as he crept into her room.
Draco surveyed the room in indignation as he crossed the threshold. Hermione had gotten a better room then he did. Grumpily he plopped himself on the cream coloured couch and sighed; he might as well get some sleep before she came back.
Jaw open and eyes wide open in surprise Hermione shook her head in disbelief. To think just a while ago she'd felt as though she was starting to go back to their old relationship. But she had been dead wrong; it wasn't the harmless teasing of their childhood but merciless putdowns. He had reverted back to the cold-hearted Draco Malfoy that she had come to hate.
Disgusted with herself for thinking and starting to feel the least amount of feelings for him. Hermione headed towards her dormitory hoping to lie down for a while in her own solitude to sort out her feelings and thoughts.
She stalked to her room and came to halt as she spotted a certain blond haired boy lying asleep on her couch. She felt the old anger rise up in her chest as her body suffused with the familiar feeling of warmth at the sight of the lazy lion. A pink haze began surrounded her, fogging her vision.
Stalking over to the couch, she opened her mouth intending to yell him deaf Draco suddenly yawned and stretched, setting forth a chain reaction with his muscles. Hard, moulded muscle and skin rippled over his glorious chest causing all sorts of sensations Hermione couldn't even begin to describe.
Opening his eyes sleepily Draco grinned boyishly. His attractiveness emphasised as a lock of blond hair fell over his sparkling silver eyes.
Draco levered himself up, pausing to groan. 'Where'd you get this couch from? Sadist 'R' us?' he asked rubbing his back gingerly. Hermione felt her breath hiss from behind clenched teeth as her body responded to the innocent act.
'You should know,' she muttered under her breath, 'from the looks of things you were created there too!'
Glaring at him Hermione yelled, 'Excuse me for not having the first class furniture that you always seem to have. And who the hell gave you the right to place judgement on my stuff? First you try throwing a cream pie at me, next you insult me about my bloodline and now I have you in my room, sitting in my couch complaining like an old man about the quality of it!' She knew that her cheeks were bright red from the exhaustion of yelling but it was well worth it.
Scratching his head, Draco nervously backed away as Hermione advanced on him like a tiger ready to rip her prey to shreds. Ducking beneath her arms Draco headed towards her door. 'Oh and by the way Granger, you look cute when you're angry.' Pausing long enough to give her a cheeky wink he disappeared into his room, his chuckle echoing after him.
Slumping against the wall Hermione felt drained as she tried to block out his voice as the same words kept repeating themselves over and over again in her mind. 'You look cute'.
Warily getting up, she walked towards her potions class hoping that Professor Snape wouldn't notice her absence for the beginning of her class. Walking in Hermione crept towards her seat as she placed herself in the middle of Harry and Ron.
Leaning towards her Harry hissed, "Where were you? Ron and I were worried that you might've killed Draco as I heard Blaise say that you guys walked off to the exact same place this morning." Waving he hand dismissively Hermione shrugged. She didn't want to explain her problems to Harry, as she was sure he wouldn't understand her feelings.
Closing her eyes she tried to picture someone with whom she could ask to help her sought out her feelings for Draco. Her eyes suddenly snapped open 'Bingo' Ginny Weasley.
Walking up the Gryffindor Dormitory spiral staircase. Hermione tentatively knocked against Ginny's bedroom door as she waited patiently for Ginny to wake up. The door swung open as a sleepy Ginny stood before her dressed in her Gryffindor maroon robe.
Realizing that the girl standing before her was Hermione, Ginny smiled and invited Hermione into her room.
Sitting down Hermione looked down guiltily as Ginny yawned looking closely at her. Hermione winced noticing the dark bags that circled under her eyes. "Ginny I know you need to sleep but I really need to talk to someone and Harry and Ron weren't exactly the first people to ask."
Ginny grinned knowingly. "Are your problems concerning a certain boy by any chance?" Hot pink suffused Hermione's cheeks.
Hermione stared at the carpet in Ginny's room finding a particular loose strand more interesting then the conversation that she knew was about to ensue.
Ginny waited in silence as Hermione took up the guts to spill out her secrets to Ginny hoping that her friend could help her sort the mess she had gotten into.
Breathing a short sigh, Hermione looked up and asked Ginny the first thing she could think of. "Ginny how did you know you were in love with Harry?"
Ginny flushed lightly as she tried to answer. "We—ell, after Harry's final combat with you-know-who. Harry was withdrawn from all of us and...you know how we all thought that he was still battling you-know-who inside of himself? Well, Ron got worried and asked me to see what was up Harry, and I guess after spending so much time pestering him, my feelings of admiration slowly turned to...well, love.
"But I didn't truly admit it to myself until Harry finally asked me out." Ginny giggled remembering Harry's hopeful expression and darting eyes as he quickly asked her out. "I think it was scarier then battling you-know-who, you know what with my brother breathing down his neck like a hippogriff. God, Ron was practically glued to Harry's side when he came near me," Ginny shrugged and grinned, "I guess he suspected we were becoming more then friends, even before me.
"Anyways, Harry set up a date at the Astronomy tower with a candlelit dinner for two with Dobby serving us." Ginny sighed, her eyes far away as she relived the magical night. "I knew I had fallen deep, when he held my hands over the table and said, 'Ginny, I love you'. And then he leaned forward and cupping my cheek, kissed me. It was magical." A smile played on her lips as memories of how Harry spelled the tower to play music and the way he held her to him as they danced, or rather floated upon the air—it was as though she was his heart's other half and he didn't want to let something so precious ever part from him again.
Snapping out of her trance she grinned shyly, "and I guess that's how I fell in love and discovered that he felt the same way."
Looking down thoughtfully Hermione envied how Ginny could simply love Harry knowing that he loved her back, whereas she had no idea what was happening with her and Draco. One minute they were arguing and next she saw glimpses of his old self and fought hard not to fall in love again.
Feeling Ginny's gaze on her, Hermione smiled slightly and thanked her for her help. She headed back to her own room, her mind in turmoil. She knew Ginny had tried to help but her answer had only added to the emotions whirling around like a tornado within her heart.
Watching as Hermione walked out stumbling slightly, Ginny smiled; hopefully Hermione would follow her heart and find love with Draco. She could already see the sparks between those two. They would be prefect together and she was rarely wrong. After all, Ron and Lavender who she had recently matchmaked together seemed to be getting along quite nicely. A familiar glint sparked in her brown eyes as a new matchmaking plan formed in her mind.
Yawning Ginny, stumbled into bed. Her plan would begin tomorrow. Closing her eyes her mind drifted off into sweet dreams of her own emerald eyed Adonis.
Lying in bed Hermione closed her eyes as memories of cold, lonely nights without Draco washed over her leaving her with the all too familiar desolation.
Love, all my love was yours,
Of this I was for sure,
I guess I never saw it coming baby,
But now I'm over the surprise,
I'm wearing this disguise,
So every one can think I'm having fun baby,
The world only sees me smiling,
My pillow knows the truth every night,
'Cause that's where I hide my sorrow,
Life without Draco was misery, she had withdrawn from everything, wishing the stone cold emptiness would disappear.
And they call me happy go lucky,
They don't know that my heart is dying inside,
This smile's a frown turned upside down,
I do my happy go lucky so well,
I'm even fooling myself.
She had cried herself to sleep so many times that she couldn't remember when the emptiness slowly began to fade and the cheerful façade took over. Showing the world that she still had a life without her life long best friend by her side was easy as she learnt as long as she smiled.
But now I've put it to the test,
I know it's for the best,
In fact it's good you walked out on me baby,
I, I've learned how to survive,
Without you in my life,
So why am I still talking 'bout you baby,
The world only sees me smiling,
My pillow knows the truth every night,
'Cause that's where I hide my sorrow,
Meeting up with Harry and Ron was one of the few bright sparks in her life as she found they blocked her thoughts of Draco and bought her to strive academically and to worry on Harry while he brought up new challenges with Lord Voldemort. But now that the threat was over and Her two best friends had found love. Her old feelings had began to resurface again.
And they call me happy go lucky,
They don't know my heart is dying inside,
A smile's a frown turned upside down,
I do my happy go lucky so well,
I'm even fooling myself
Trying to ignore the pangs of pain that seemed to drive into her gut whenever she thought of Pansy and Draco together, she had tried to move on and had even foolishly thought that she could find that kind of love with someone else. But in the end they never measured up.
All my love was yours,
I guess I was so sure,
After a while she finally gave up, burying herself in schoolwork and spending as much time as she could with Harry and Ron. Sending letters to Krum had been a small reprieve. When she had found out that she wasn't in love with him she knew she had to give him up. She was lucky that he had realized and understood the depths of her feelings for Draco.
When I see the morning light,
I put on this façade,
It's all I have to protect my pride,
It's all I've got, this smile is all I've got,
Closing her eyes, she fell asleep as a single lonesome tear fell silently down onto her cheek.
And they call me happy go lucky,
They don't know my heart is dying inside,
A smile's a frown turned upside down,
I do my happy go lucky so well,
I'm even fooling myself.
So...how do you like chapter five? I know the ending was a bit sad and not my usual cliff endings but I'm trying to see if I can pull of a chapter without a dramatic ending. If you thought it wasn't up to my usual standard please don't criticise me, as I'm only a beginner at writing. Also for all those that want to be notified when I next update please send me your email address. Also don't worry; the ending will be of course a traditional happy ending with H&D all the way.
Adios
Squirt
Ps: I'm sorry 'bout the mix up with Draco being eleven and Hermione being seven but I'm too tired to change it. And besides if you read chap one and two closely you will notice that I said Hermione was seventeen in chap one and in chap two I said Draco was seventeen as well.
Also sorry 'bout the long updates it's just that lately I've been busy with a wearable art competition. Hope everyone knows what that is.
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