Warnings: none right now, but there will be a bastardized Duo and Heero torture maybe some other stuff as well. I donno
Disclaimers: don't own
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Have you ever wondered what makes people act the way they do? I wonder that all the time. I wonder why I ever fell in love with Duo, and then I wonder, after all we've been through, why can't I leave him? If I'm the 'Perfect Soldier,' then why can't I just walk away and not look back?
Duo has changed in the time I have known him. When I first met him I thought he was a loudmouth who didn't know how to shut up. I thought he was an idiot. But then I realized he acted the way he did because he was hiding his true self. That intrigued me. What could have happened to him, that was so much worse than what had happened to any of use that would make Duo hide in humor and talk? But then I learned of his past. He lost everyone he had ever loved and who had ever loved him. I understood then. that's to much sadness to be carrying around all the time. A person with that much sadness needs something to take their minds away from it. Humor, the opposite of depression is a good retreat. It is better to laugh than cry. I had no one to love as a child. Odin Lowe was the only person I ever looked up to, but I didn't love him, and I don't believe he loved me. He never let me get close to him, not mentally anyway. He was like a father to me, and if nothing else, then I learned to never got close to anyone from him. I never use to think that was a good thing. I thought you needed to get close to people. I believed that being close to people was the only way to survive. But I have proved myself wrong again. I have Duo to thank for that. I got close to Duo, closer to him than I had gotten with Odin. And that's when things turned bad.…
Disclaimers: don't own
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Have you ever wondered what makes people act the way they do? I wonder that all the time. I wonder why I ever fell in love with Duo, and then I wonder, after all we've been through, why can't I leave him? If I'm the 'Perfect Soldier,' then why can't I just walk away and not look back?
Duo has changed in the time I have known him. When I first met him I thought he was a loudmouth who didn't know how to shut up. I thought he was an idiot. But then I realized he acted the way he did because he was hiding his true self. That intrigued me. What could have happened to him, that was so much worse than what had happened to any of use that would make Duo hide in humor and talk? But then I learned of his past. He lost everyone he had ever loved and who had ever loved him. I understood then. that's to much sadness to be carrying around all the time. A person with that much sadness needs something to take their minds away from it. Humor, the opposite of depression is a good retreat. It is better to laugh than cry. I had no one to love as a child. Odin Lowe was the only person I ever looked up to, but I didn't love him, and I don't believe he loved me. He never let me get close to him, not mentally anyway. He was like a father to me, and if nothing else, then I learned to never got close to anyone from him. I never use to think that was a good thing. I thought you needed to get close to people. I believed that being close to people was the only way to survive. But I have proved myself wrong again. I have Duo to thank for that. I got close to Duo, closer to him than I had gotten with Odin. And that's when things turned bad.…