Pathway to Hell
Chapter 3 Slipping
AN: Thanks cptn-jacks-bonnie-lass I know I love my name too! Lol I wish mmm Shia Labeouf… OK glad u liked the 1st chappie believe it or not this is going somewhere (eventually) I have a plan this time so please bear with me. OK I will say it again please R&R!
I was mad. Shaking in total indignation. Oh yes I was mad and everyone knew it. The ground began to shake the once excruciatingly hot temperature began to fall getting lower and lower. The red sky turned an inky black. It was a strange felling of control it willed me on, like a pestering voice leading me on. Do it Luceria you know you want to! Show them what your made of!
"Obscurum invado is locus, pro EGO vadum sceptrum super vestri spurcamen, EGO vadum exsisto unus respondeo ut, quod vos totus vadum teneo is." I muttered repeatedly.
Lucifer's face turned harsh he knew what I could do he was aware I could destroy him and everyone else in the process.
"Luceria that is enough." He bellowed over the loud rumbling.
Thunder boomed and lightning flashed I was one pissed off girl.
"What are you gonna do daddy? I warned you and you ignored it. You treated my pain like I was some insignificant being. I am your daughter! You should have listened"
"Luceria you can destroy hell! But remember by destroying me you destroy John also." He said smugly.
I began to laugh uncontrollably. "I don't CARE! I've given up on such trivial events! I'm aiming higher this time, I want the world! I want heaven, I want hell, I want EARTH but most of all I want YOU!" I grinned evilly.
All logic had gone out the window. I could feel Gaia inside there somewhere begging me to stop but this was Luceria and she was on one major power drive.
Murphy was standing a short distance away staring in awe with his jaw dropped.
"Luce hey Luce come on! Chas is waiting! C'mon it ain't worth it kid. You do this not only do you lose John but you lose Chas…"
Okay he had my attention. I remembered that name it seemed familiar to me.
"Chas…" I said slowly.
Chas Kramer.
I had no where else to go it was 3am and I knew I had no one, no one in the world.
My foster parents were getting too hard to handle I knew they were slowly beginning to hate me. Hell I wasn't gonna wait to be sent back to a crowded home full of rejects.
I hadn't expected it when Chas opened the door. I was so conscious of the tears staining my face.
"Hi" I said giving him a huge cheerful smile.
"Hey, what you doing here?" He had asked opening the door a little wider to let me in.
He was standing only in his boxers and was looking very sexy. God don't think like that Gaia! I thought blushing. I gently pushed past him unnaturally aware of my hand softy grazing his bare flesh.
"I had a fight with my foster parents. They want to send me back I can't go back there Chas I just can't" I had pleaded thinking he might turn me away.
He nodded trying to understand what I was feeling. "You can sleep on the couch tonight John won't mind" he said pointing towards where he had been sleeping just moments before.
"What about you" I asked.
"Don't worry I can deal with one night on the floor!" He laughed.
I nodded finally giving up. I was beat I had hardly been sleeping and just needed some rest.
That was the first time I had felt safe with Chas, when I let down my guard trusting him fully. I remembered it like it was yesterday!
I remembered Chas and I remembered who I was. "I need to go…" I said realising what I was doing.
I was slipping and I knew it. I was slowly giving up hope and I couldn't let that happen. Everything Gabriel had told me was a lie. John going to Hell didn't effect me in anyway! If I gave up… If I give in to evil, what effect will that have on the world?
Murphy nodded taking my hand.
I walked mindlessly I was numb inside. What had happened back there? Why had I just lost it like that?
"I'm sorry…" I said slowly to Murphy.
He nodded.
"It's okay kiddo just don't do that again. You scared me… I thought I'd lost you for a sec there"
"Hey! You're not getting rid of me that easy!" I smiled trying to put the previous event out of my head.
We reached the familiar green door this time no flames.
"Looks like we have permission!" I said in surprise.
"Yeah! After what you just did Lucifer can't wait to get you outta here"
"Hey that was quick!" Chas said as Me and Murph entered the cab.
"You know the whole stopping of time…?" I said sarcastically.
"Yeah yeah ha ha very funny"
"Hey Chas…" Murphy began.
"Don't." I said firmly knowing what he was about to say.
"Luce he needs to know"
"Like Hell he does… C'mon Murph I said I was sorry"
"That ain't the point and you know it"
"HEY! Hello I'm sitting right here. Gaia tell me." Chas said sounding a little hurt.
"Chas come on! Just forget it"
"She went psycho Chas. Black eyes, about to destroy Hell and everything…" Murphy said.
I turned to face him in the back. Giving him my meanest scowl.
"You jerk"
"Hey what can I say?" He said defensively.
"You tried to destroy hell?" Chas asked slowly.
"Hey look Chas, John I saw John and he was… He was in pretty bad shape I pleaded with Lucifer who took him away. What else was I suppose to do? I was just so exhausted I'm sorry it won't happen again"
Chas looked at me intensely narrowing his eyes as if looking for something he missed.
"Gaia, you can't just slip up like that! What if you did destroy Hell? You would severely fuck up the balance!" He said seriously.
"Chas Fuck man! You know me! I'm tired of hearing all this bullshit, when I do something incredible stupid I kinda realise it okay? Just shut the hell up before I…"
"Before you what Gaia? Kill me? Send me to hell? What?" Chas said angrily.
I knew I was being a major pain in the ass, I knew it was only natural for Chas to be annoyed and upset at me. I really respected Chas he wasn't only my lover he was my friend my hero even and now here I was pissing him off.
I remained silent for the rest of the journey home. I knew my flaws, I knew my life was one huge mess but what could I do? How could I fix it? I looked out the window at the passing LA scenery. Tall grey buildings covered in windows, rivers of cars flowing in all directions. Thousands of people walking in groups like mindless drones… Earth wasn't as great as everyone made out. Violence and crime, psycho's killing people just for the fun of it, guns, rape, drugs… The list went on. Human's weren't perfect in fact they were far from it but at least here you weren't beaten to a bloody pulp in boiling temperatures…I sighed realising we were just outside the bowling alley. It didn't seem fair that Chas and I should be living in his house, sleeping in his bed, eating his food (not that he had any). Nothing was fair.
"Luce? You comin?" Murphy asked getting out.
"Murph what if I do slip again? I know how close I came to losing control back there… The only thing keeping me from going coo coo is Chas! What if he isn't enough next time"
"Luceria I have every reason to believe you have all you need right here. I've seen the way you look at Chas and the way he looks back you just have to hold onto that and you will be fine, trust me." He said giving me a soft kiss on the cheek.
I blushed. Murphy was an extremely attractive guy. Dark eyes, dark hair, tall, VERY athletic and one of those faces that scream kiss me! He was the exact opposite of Chas who was skinny and not so mature looking (hot all the same!) I wouldn't swap him for the world but when I first met Murph things could have turned out very different!
He had been sitting alone in Midnite's getting very drunk. I was looking for someone anyone to talk to. I needed a demon half breed and he just happened to be the first one I saw… Or maybe I was drawn to him? What were the chances of me meeting my so called bodyguard in a bar whilst looking for someone to help me out with Mammon and Lucifer. I hadn't thought of it much back then but thinking back now it was pretty strange.
We were both really drunk, I could smell his aftershave we were that close. The though had crossed my minds several times in the bar, just one night I though, sure he's a demon but he is a mighty fine one. That was nothing compared to how I felt on the way to the portal.
It was cold and I was only wearing a tank top and some sweats the wind was chilling but I didn't complain much.
"Where we going?" I has asked shivering slightly.
"Shhh…" He said pushing me into a wall, pinning me against it.
At that point my mind was all over the place, this was the perfect opportunity to get a little something (if you know what I mean!) I'm not a slut or anything but at this point in my life I was willing to start!
I could smell the alcohol on his breath, we had both drank so much at Midnite's it was a wonder either of us could walk. His lips were so close to mine if I just moved forward I would be able to kiss him. He moved closed and closer speaking very quietly so I could barely hear…Of course nothing had happened maybe he didn't have feelings for me or maybe the whole situation just freaked him out but I'm telling you if he had of asked I would have put myself willingly to his brooding arms!
"You okay?" Murphy asked bringing me back to reality.
"Yep just a little tired"
"Yeah, Hell does that to you"
I looked at my watch seeing it was only 9am. Great there was no way I was going to sleep at 9 in the bloody morning.
"Hey what you up to today?" I asked hoping I could maybe tag along with him.
"Sorry Luce I gotta see a guy about a goat." He said.
I just stared at him like he had lost his freaking mind, which by the way I think he had.
"Okay have fun with that psycho!" I teased playfully pushing him softly.
"See you later kiddo." Murph said walking away.
It was 5pm and I was EXTREMELY bored Chas had gone out around 2 saying he was gonna give Neo that book he'd promised. How god damn long did it take to give someone a book!
I had been going through all the books already out trying to find something useful. It was all the same crap no loop holes, nothing. It was binding and there was nothing I could do. "I have read this shit a hundred times over!" I screamed in frustration.
Should I just give up? Was this how John really was supposed to end up.
God has a plan for all of us, or so I'm told. Was this John's plan? To go to Hell? Was he really such a bad person?
I'd been so caught up on the devil and what he though maybe it was time I found out God's opinion on it all after all this was all Gabriel's fault. If an angel was partly responsible for John's untimely decent to hell maybe God could help me strike up a bargain or what not.
Whatever he said it was worth a try… Now all I needed to do is find an angel half breed and make contact. Only thing stopping me is my recent banning from Midnite's due to a certain piece of shit half breed called Balthazar and a small incident with some holy water… What can I say the guys an asshole! Guess it's time to face the music even if that did mean going back to Midnite's to get my ass seriously kicked!
Again here is another Latin translation, again not sure how accurate itis but this is what it mean's all the same. (you think I would just use English! But hey Latin is so sexy esp. in the film when Chas and John are trying to get Mammon out of Angela... OK I'm babbling soz!
Darkness fall upon this place,
for I shall rule over your filth,
I shall be the one to answer to,
and you all shall know it.